Dear 2009,Please stop this. All this shit. It's too much. I can't fucking handle it anymore. I thought I was strong, I thought I would make it. But I fucking can't. I fucking can't do this anymore. My bags are packed. If something happens I can run. Just like that. I'll be back, because there are a few things that I can't leave behind. But it's not just mum now. It's everything. Piling up. One...

I miss you. I miss the way we used to laugh together; the way we knew each other from the heart. It's not like we were together or anything. No. We just knew each other all too well.and then I just let it all fall apart, just like that.I can't believe I let it happen. You were everything that kept me sane. And now, not its not just what I had with you that fucked up; everything else has as well....

This is my New Years Resolution: get over him. Maybe I should just lie. I mean, I'd be gullible enough to believe it. I've done it before...And what about my friends? I swear somethings going on with one of them and I'd really like to help but I don't think I good enough for them anymore.My group is tearing apart, ouch, there goes my heart.They get angry at the slightest things and the people in...

So there is this guy I love. He's not hot nor is he cool. He is my best friend and means the world to me, but I really wish I never liked him. Last time I told my friends, most of them got upset with me. Last time he didn't like me; he still doesn't.Did I tell you that it hurts? He's always with another girl. My cousin just won't shut up about him and what makes everything worse is that: I have to...