I figured it all out. I have an answer to all my problems. I have a reason for the things I do. And I realize now that I have been doing it the entire time. I let him get close. I let him know things about me and I start to fall. And it scares me. Then I fuck up. I push him away and make up excuses. I give myself the love I deserve. And I don’t think I deserve love. I got the good guy but he...

Well now ik we can never be anything. Ever. I can't speak to you. I can't be friends with you. We can't be anything. If i stayed, ik id do something stupid. I'd kill that bitch but its for the best if we no longer speak. I won't sit with you on the bus, i won't sit with you in art. No more walking to classes together. Nothing. Its gotta be as if we never met. She wont let us be anything. I know...

One thing you need to know, just because i need help doesnt mean im gunna go get it. I dont trust people. I wont tell. Ive thought about it. Its not what i want. I appreciate the comments on getting help. But i just dont want it. I dont enjoy being this way but i will not go back to the hospital or be put in a crazy place. Im holding on to my last piece of sanity, and hopefully thats enough. I...

Kayso i've been having suicidal thoughts for about the last umm lest see 4 years.. Yeah not so good. I've been put on several meds throught the years and well none seem to work. Im currently 14 years old and the urge to kill myself is overbearing. I dont know how much longer i can hold on. See my friends try to help me but noting works. Cutting used to solve everything. I was fine after the blade...

I woke up every morning waiting for the moment he steps foot on the bus. For the first couple months all i could do was stare at him from afar, wishing it was me he was holding instead of her. I'm not quite sure how we first talked. It's all a blur. We started by simple chat in the hallways and saying hi on the bus. I got my first hug about a week after we became sort of friends. It was amazing to...