Under Pressure

So my best friend is trying to steal my boyfriend. That's what's currently going on in my life. It hurts, best friends don't do that to each other. I'm not going to complain about it though because that is ridiculous. Today was pretty boring for the most part. I slept, did school work, slept, and then did more school. I talked to Zach and I talked to Mike and that's about it. I think i'm getting a...
February 12th, 2008 at 04:42am

All you thought was color

Hey guys,It's Saturday and nothing is really going on at the moment. My mother is officially remarried. So now I have a Step-mom and a Dad. And a Mom and a Step-dad. But I only like my dad and his wife though. My mother cheated on my Dad and I have no respect for her. I really want to start updating soon but I have writer's block. :(I think I have an eating disorder. Everytime I look in the mirror...
February 9th, 2008 at 05:06pm

Kill.Smile.

Zach and I got back together, but under different circumstances. We're both going to be making changes and I feel these are for the better. Today something VERY weird happened. I got a package with chocolates, a stuffed animal, and a letter. There is no return address and I don't recognize the hand writing. Zach said he didn't send it, so apparently I have some kind of secret admirer or something....
February 8th, 2008 at 06:02pm

Mistakes

I made a horrible mistake. I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 months. We've been best friends all our lives. I don't know what I was thinking. I've been reduced to reading old e-mails, letters, poems and crying 8 hours a day. I don't know what to do. I need some advice, he tried to get in touch with me but I wasn't home. So i'm not sure what to do. Should I try to talk to him? I'll understand if he...
February 7th, 2008 at 10:57pm

We're never gonna quit. Ain't nothing wrong with it, just acting like we're animals.

My boyfriend's mother found out we were going out, so now we're sneaking.. well worse than what we were before. She thinks dating is wrong, especially since he's 15 and i'm 13. But he told me that he can't live life without me and he'll never stop loving me, no matter what people think. Our 3 month anniversary is in 4 days and I get to see him tomorrow. I'm kind of nervous actually because he's...
January 25th, 2008 at 11:30pm

Do you know what I hate?

When people complain about their lives, constantly, it pisses me off. For instance, my father abused me, my mom was never around, my parents divorced, i've been in court, neither of my parents want me so I live with my grandparents! my life has been hell, and i'm only 13! But I do not complain 24/7, Hell I NEVER complain about my life. Why is it everyone thinks they have to?And then there are...
January 22nd, 2008 at 01:10am

Well i'm afraid that I may have faked it.

Judy passed. She suffocated to death. The funeral is Saturday. It hasn't really hit me yet. I haven't even cried, I dont know, Zach says i'm in denial and that's normal. I really don't want to go to the funeral on Saturday. Maybe someone could cheer me up? I'm sorry I haven't been on in forever i've just been really empty lately. It's really hard to explain the feeling but yeah. I should start...
January 21st, 2008 at 04:36am

What would you do if you only had 1 month to live?

My best friend was just diagnosed with CJD I'm pretty sure it stands for Creutzfeldtz-Jakob disease. It's a degenerative brain disorder and she only has a month to live. She can't talk and she can barely swallow, So i'm going to be spending a lot of time with her and probably won't be able to update much. And when I do update i'm sorry if the story sucks or it's going to be sad. I'm sorry, but I...
January 6th, 2008 at 03:13am