WastingAway. / Comments

If you hate him whyd u go? Were you just like with your friend already? I see you like soccer, congratulations on winning(: I abhor them and am done with them. every single male except for my younger brother and my best friend. 2 months ago I fell so hard for this guy and then he just completely out of the blue changed his mind and started not caring and being a dick. I'm prety much over him I'm just so mindfucked n depressed about him leaving me. I suppose he just realized how pathetic I am:/ wow um 3 days is not a lot. That sounds like my friend/unrelated older brother whose 21. I feel so bad for alcoholics.. Well like the ones who wanna change. I'm in the car going back right now. I wanna throw up everytime I think about home.. I'm so tired I've slept 3 hours today n 2 yesterday for a whole 4 days. That's good(: what do they do in "cutting therapy"? No problem, I really don't mind. Thankyou. I'm just so scared to go home tomorrow night cuz I'm in so much trouble with my dad. And he already told me everything he's gonna do after every one sleeps, and its not pleasant:( its been 10 days since he's touched or hurt me so its gonna be like going through it for the first time cuz I'm not used to it anymore. And I'm too weak to fight back. Its like why not kill myself, I'm just waiting to be um abused.. He's gonna be even more mad when he sees all the cuts I did when I was gone. Messaging doesn't work well on my phone so yeah there it was..

Haha you do .. a lot(:

I replied. Twice! And it loggedme out! Ughhh. Anyways, what a dick. Just blows my mind that fathers can do such things and live with themselves. No dont cut! Add it to your list of no no's(: what are you at now? Explain what happens if you get put on suicide watch. Idk can you. Uh I'll pass, it's not like ANYONE. ACTUALLY. CARES. Im so tired of trusting people and then them my caring and or ditching me, hurts too much to happen again. Sorry about the late reply, not my fault fucking mibba has to log me out every 10 seconds. Sorry l get really mad when I don't sleep for so long..

Oh my god um I'm sorry I didn't know.. Do you ever see your real dad? Ohh okay, try n sleep it off? If you can't sleep, lol gosh I can't think of anything besides pills or liquor.. Ummmmm NyQuil!!! Not too much(: Okay but really my heart reaches out to you. That's dumb, slap her. Same, can't stop thinking about Sunday night and how bad its gonna be. And my friends being so mean she keeps making me feel fat and hurting my feelings and arguing with me I'm so exhausted I don't need her shit. I need a break from everything. I haven't slept in 3 days-_- then scream. When I feel like I need to scream I just cut. Like now, except I don't want my friend to catch me In the act so I'll wait til I get home. It's fine.

Yay you remember me ^_^ haha
Not good .. That dosen't sound right :/ hope that your dark days will come to an end then, I really do! (: You seem so gifted.

Hey I don't know if you remember me, I don't think so since the last time I was on Mibba was so long ago! Anyway I'm back and wondering how you are? :)

Aw. That breaks my heart. I've gotta say tho, no dad is better than an abusive one. But still... How long had y'all been dating? I hate not being to help when I hear stuff like this I feel so powerless and worthless. Can you physically not get out of bed or is it a little bit emotional too? My lifelong dream is to never leave my bed. And you should share. The 20 ways that is. Well thats good you have a reason! I really am sorry It's hard to express how much tho by just messaging.. Um Im fine I guess... Ive been with my friend 7 days and 3 more to go and I've had on a mask the whole time. I have to act happy when I'm dying inside and counting every second until i go home cuz my dad already told me he "has a surprise" for me when I get back..:/ sorry for late reply, I was taking a nap..

Hey you never answered my question hun..(:

Hah thankyou..(:

I posted the poem..

It seems too hard. And like it would take a lot of strength that I dont have. That sounds amazing. Im so fucking jealous. Your making me miss home so much! Well my room not the rest.. Awh I'm sorry hun, what's wrong?

Awesome. And you lucky bitch(: I would be doing that, but I'm stuck in Colorado with my friend being forced to ski all day. And she keeps getting mad at me for being weak. I can't fucking help it. I miss my twin sized bed with all my pillows and stuffed animals(: yeah I don't act my age sometimes:p

I'm gonna when I have the time.. Sure. Your very welcome. Come on you can do it. Lol sorry Im not really up for a motivational speech. but seriously

Thankyou:/ it's kinda hard when everyone tells you you aren't everyday and especially after you've gained weight:(((( you are most welcome. I know it's probably hard, I've never been able to stay clean of anything so I wouldn't know, but you've gotten so far! 93 days! That's amazing. Don't throw away all the work you've done. You don't wanna go all the way back to 0. Youve proven to be a very strong person. And I believe in you. Don't give up. And yeah, it sucks:/ I have one but I haven't put it up cuz most people will disagree with me about it..

Thankyou.. But I'm not gorgeous. That's really great that you've been clean that long. Thats really admirable.. I know I don't know you but I'm still proud of you. And thanks. But everytime I try to write i can't finish and I get all upset and frazzled and mad at myself. Idk:/

No problem. I'm sorry, I really am. Being depressed sucks but it sucks even more when you have to put up a happy illusion. And thankyou for the poem comment deary(: I feel the same damn way! Cuz after I overdosed big time and got suspended from school for being found out my parents stopped buying pills. That was 4 months ago and I miss it I want it so bad.

No problem!! Your poem was amazing <3

ok..thank you. text me whenever you need as well.

today sucked. i think i lost one of my good friends...all because i was keeping a secret for another friend. i just feel like the worst shit in the world.

About my smile. It's to bad that no girl in the school thinks so. I hate being alone