February 2nd, 2009 at 12:36pm
Hm, you have a good point there. My mother always thought of me as chronic/manic depressive, my stepdad thought that I might be schizophernic (can't ever spell that right, I swear), and you and a few others think bipolar. My mother had huge, excessive depression, so she thought of it as me getting it off of her; I have heard voices and seens things before, so my stepdad asumed that hard word above (which he is himself).
Keeping all the above in mind, I have very, very bad mood swings. For example: I am hyper and enjoying life, but I am suddenly on the floor crying and looking for an overdose the next, and then I might suddenly go really happy again, which then might turn to emotional anger. I also get noted for having an apparent split personality by people whoo talk to me a lot. I have this really dark, mysterious and isolated side, but I also have a loving and cheerful side.
I even have two accounts somewhere where I display two of my main personalities: the dark side and my more cheerful side. I would go on one account and post my other side message, telling that side that they are loved and wanted.because I often feel the oposite.
I am aslo very obsessive compulsive: I obsess and stalk (not in a sick way, just wondering if they're ignoring me) my friends around the Interent when I think that they're ignoring me, amd I will watch their pages for hours until they say something to me. I feel selfish by thinking they're ignoring me when they are just talking to others, though. I think that might also fit under parania. I also OBSESS TO NO END about my appearence. I am extremely obsessed about my appearence and insecure, so I'm constantly asking if I look half-dead and zombie, but people say I am better than fine.
Sorry for the long kind of rant message. I should have said that in self-rant journal to see what people think is my mental "flaw". It does seem bipolar to me, but I know little about mental health prolems.
Oh, and I replied the comment you left me. Also, thanks for the comment too.