I'm At school right now. I know you don't have class last period, but I figured after choir I'd wait by your room anyway. And during break. And the other break. But you know, I was just streching my legs. Plus there's a giant windowsill upstairs, and you know how much I love them. Actually you don't know a thing about me, but that's besides the point. The point is I didn't go upstairs to see you....

     It's raining outside. Actually it's a total thunderstorm. Which always scares me, but is actually kind of peaceful right now. Not to sound depressing or anything, but I guess all the violence outside makes me feel like my problems aren't so bad. Like watching waves crash -which I also love to do. But this storm, it makes me think about Mr. X. Then again, what doesn't these days? Death Cab...

     Class was good today. I think that's the longest I've seen my teacher all week. It was kind've quiet but whatever. There were only about two or three people in each of my courses since it was the last day before break and all. Am I a loser for actually coming? The only reason I actually did was so I could see my teacher-crush-guy. Well, that and I had two tests I missed because of choir...

     It's obvious I need to get over my teacher because, well, he's a teacher. And I'm a student and we're no good for each other. So why do these feelings seem so right? (Ha, cheesy.) It's just that I really, truly can't get the man out of my head. At all. It's actually kind've sad. I mean, what will I do all March Break when I can't see him? Well...hopefully I can use that time to work on...

     Not...even looking forward to March break. Definitely going to school on Friday. Why? No philosophy teacher tomorrow OR Wednesday. He has an MRI tomorrow, I have choir all day Wednesday (which will be amazing, but still). I have no liiiife. I think I need to get over him, like, now. Seriously, can you imagine how freaking boring and lonely my break will be? All I ever look forward to is...

     I feel very...overwhelmed right now. With emotions and stuff. Fun fact: the part of a woman's brain that perceives physical pain also interprets emotions. So if you make a girl sad it's like punching her in the face. Well my teacher's definitely been making me upset lately, but that's not his fault. It's not like he would know how I'm feeling. Then again...how could you not know you're...

     Well I was hanging out after school yesterday...yes, after the whole window thing. I connected with some old friends which was nice. And among those friends was this dude who I know is a sleaze and a liar and doesn't even really care about me (and trust me, I don't care about him either). But flirting with him (and honest, we'll ONLY ever flirt) made me forget, at least for a while, about...

     So, I'm sitting on this windowsill, right? I'm all settled in with my school books and a copy of "Darkly Dreaming Dexter" while I wait for my ride. The only problem is that I can't concentrate on my favourite book, because I'm thinking about something else with such focus that it's giving me a headache. See, the only reason I'm sitting on this ledge (other than the fact that windows are...