(For some people that know my journals...)Its a damn long time ago that i did update. But here i am.Again...and guess what? Again aaaanndd HAPPY!Yes im definatly happy right now.After such an hard time. That wasnt funny.Ok, you know, i split with my long time boyfriend last year. We have had some flat together. We stayed together for seven fucking years. And after we separated i had to go back to...

Yeah...it happend.my boyfriend an I split...after 7 fucking years.And you know what? After this fucking stupid things he did to me he was the one that told me he doesnt love me anymore!!!This stupid fucking little bastard!!!He was the one who lies and cheat on me... How could he the one who leave me?!?!?!?!Im so fucking angry.Ok, i know...maybe i waited too long. i wasnt happy anymore..and i was...

Gosh...it seems to be years ago to read some news about Green Day. Wait ... it not only seems years ago, it IS years ago. Rather 4 years. F O U R fucking years.Damn. The longest break ever!C´mon guys where are you???I mean ok, the Foxboro Hot Tubs and Pinhead Gunpower things were nice.For a while ther were so available. But than emptiness. Again.And it wasnt even Green Day.Guys i need you. I want...

Yeah...the good old Clash song..I wonder what i should do..Damn ... im so ... confused..Should i leave him because im not happy?Or will we work out?i mean ...c´mon we are together since seven years ..."One day is fine, next is black"Is this normal? Or is the "big love" somewhere in this world waiting for me?Does this "big love" exist? Or is it normal to fight that much after seven years?The black...

Honestly i really dont know.I dont know why i become goose bumps when i hear his voice.I dont know why his voise make me shiver sometimes.I dont know why his songs ever cheer me up when im in a bad mood.Its like hes talking to me and give me some advice.Someone of his songs ever fits in my life situation. When someone had died, when im alone, when im in love, when i have some panic attack...I...

Im really pissed off...Yesterday was my birthday...and yeah....where were my fucking "friends"?Exept my family and two of my friends was nobody there...Im mean some fucking text or call - is that a tall order ?????Grrr...I ever think of their birthdays and ever give them some funny presents.I dont want to have presents but only some text or something like that ...My friends are mostly guys - but...

Yeah....its only five days to my new Foxboro Hot Tubs CD.I really cant wait ! ! ! ! Im so excited...Why five days ?? Because its my birthday on the 9th June and i will get the CD from my boyfriend...Why i know this already?Because it arrive a parcel a few days before at home, and i know its a CD.And i am not allowed to open it :-))))Aaaannnnddd....a few weeks ago he ask me some questions about the...

Today is a good day...Yesterday we booked our holiday...Yes .... im flying to spain in august....yeah....*dance around*Well...i know....its not the united states....but its vacation!! YAY!!Last year we had our vacatin in NY/NJ ...Spain dont beat the USA but i like the idea of lying on the beach and let the sun shine down on me .... mmmhhh....drinking some cocktails....and listen to Billie Joes...

Did you ever think that youre living the wrong life?I mean that you arent a member of your own life?Everything just fucked me up....i havent the feeling that this is my life...I hate this country, this people, my work....Its not me...y´know?I want to scream and break out ..... but im to scared...scared to be alone...Maybe i demand a great deal about my life...maybe this fucking life is meant to...

Today is a bad day....i have a big headache! My friend had visit me yesterday .... and yeah ... we had some beers ... too much beer ....Why did i ever do that?I mean yes....we had much fun yesterday but today? Damn it hurts...Now im sitting at work (its friday - so my last day at work this week) and waiting for weekend...My morning starts like shit ... i woke up....my breakfast was a...

I only registed me because i want to read good storys...Now...and i think its because of my booooring work....i create my account a little bit.Yes....i read,write an create my account at work!You have to know that i hate my work. I work in an office and the only good thing is that i have my computer and can go online...So im online eight hours a day *laugh*No....thats not true....now and then i...