So I finally decided after it being long overdue and the woman practically begging me, I have decided that I want counselling. So I speak to the woman and it's going to be 2WEEKS until my appointment, I mean really? They beg you to have it then make you wait 2 weeks. Urg. Good job I'm not suicidal isn't it?I messed up one of my friends relationships :/ I stood back watching him hurt her and I...

Yesterday at 3.05pm another star was placed in the sky. That star was my baby. The one I killed. I don't care What anyone thinks about abortion, because everyone has a reason. Even though I went through with it i regret it with all my heart. I realised I done it some wouldn't hurt and disappoint anyone, I thought about how everyone else would feel instead of myself.Yesterday was the most painful...

I Love You.Something you know, something I know. Something everyone knows.But what you don't know if how I cry and hurt over how much I love you. I cry and hurt because we're not together and part of me knows we won't be again.But today I realized that I shouldn't cry over how much I love you, I should smile. Smile at all the memories we had together, smile and how much you mean to me and how much...

So I just need to have a little moan, rant soppy moment to express my feelings without saying them to the person I should but shouldn't. It's a very complicated situation.I remember this time last year I spent the whole day in your arms, a smile on my face which no one could get rid of. A year on a I find myself alone on this special day not being able to fill the hole you left in my heart. Little...

Ok so I need a nice long story to read, preferably with a lot of sequels since Im at home with a tub of ice cream wanting a good story to read to cure my boredomSo how is everyone's valentines going? I was meant to be going on a date, but it got cancelled sometimes boys make me wander why I bother. Any who Ben and jerry are the only guys for me, ha.Finally I get a week off college it's seriously...

I just told the boy I love to never speak to me ever again.It's the hardestnthingnive ever had to do. It felt right at the time and now I regret it, I want to speak to him but he won't answer.I screw up a lot and this is something I've screwed up beyond repair. We were in a difficult place as it is and now I ruined it.It's over and I'm heartbrokenThat empty feeling you get when you know you've...

I'm in my dark place again but it's different this time... I normally want to be alone, I want to block everyone out and get on with it myself but this time I don't want to be alone, I want you here with me to help me, it feels different i feel like I'm depending on you to help me, even though you don't know it. You don't know so you don't try, and that sends me deeper into the darkness, but I...

Blury Lines- I hate the fact that my ex-boyfriend and i now talk again but i dont know where i stand! We were talking about getting back together but then he said, I love you but its not our time so i was like you are joking right? What the hell does that mean!Anyway we decided that we would still talk and be friends, and thats what we were doing but it feels like i have to text him first to talk...

Okay so half of this journal is going to be me going on about a load of rubbish since it has to be a certain lengthHOWEVERI really do want a story to read, or lots of stories? I'm in the mood for a fantasy one but I'll read anything as long as its not like 1 chapter long because that just won't get rid of my boredom for very long...So anyway how are we all on this dull Sunday? Its almost dark...

Today i got my heart broken...again.Its the last day im going to let that happen by you anyway.This biy, who is so special to me broke my heart. We were together for 2 years then on and off for about 3 months. We've been split up for about 2 months now and i just realised i missed this boy, so god dam much!So i messaged him and for the past 2 weeks we've been talking and trying to sort our...

Okay, so lately i have just had this urge to write but all my ideas never seem to get anyway which i feel is good enough to post on mibba.SOi was wandering if anyone is into co-writing? That already has an idea? I'm pretty much up for writing anything i just feel like i have all these emotions built up that would be great for a story.So yeah let me know! Message me or commentAnd now i have to...

It's a Sunday afternoon and I've just been given the worst news i could get at this moment in time. Now you lot might think I'm being over dramatic but if you've read my other journals you'll understand.My alcoholic dad is getting back with his drug addict ex wife, who's pregnant with another mans baby.How messed up is my life. My dad's an alcoholic because he split up from this ex wife because...

So my dad has decided he would go get drunk every night this week, which in all honesty is a regular occurrence but what ever, i get used to it. BUT there is no need to be a massive pr*ck when your drunk is there? I'm sorry for my language but it just does my head in, it's not fair. Like i said before he's been out every night this week, yet i have been really ill, I've had to take the whole week...

So my last journal named- ANOTHER ONE WORD CHAPTER! -.-got like 23 readers! So you guys obviously hate stupid short chapters.Anyway getting to the point of this journal, which is linked to my last, i have decided to make the story based on my idea and am starting to write it, i have posted the summary which i would deeply appreciate if you read maybe comment and subscribe?!I promise i will update,...

Okay so you guys most likely think I'm going to moan about how people have really short chapters,no.I've actually got an idea where each chapter has a theme, a word, i will post the meaning and then write about what my view of the word is... Does anyone think this is a good idea? Be honest.HOWEVER, i need words, so if you think its a good idea give me some interesting words, but they have to...

when you realise you actually miss someone and theres nothing you can do.I've just realised that the feelings i thought i felt this past month werent really my true feelings. Yeah some of them may have been a piece of my true feelings but its easier than i thought to push things to the back of my mind, and pretendPretend.A word that is never really said, but always in play. We never realise how...

So if any of you read one of my journals a few months ago about my ankle i finally found out what is wrong with it! Ligament damage, frigging ligament damage. seen as im a dancer this is very bad news.I decided to go to the doctors because after 2 months it was still hurting me a lot and thats what she told me, so now i have to have physiotherapy!! Angry was not even close to the emotion i felt...

MOAN!Which is exactly what i am going to do to start with, and then talk about some other random stuffSo first off I've lost my voice which isn't good for me since I'm a preforming arts student and have had to have this week off school! I also like to talk.. A LOT, so I'm finding it hard to keep my gob shut... haha.I feel so ill its not even remotely nice so i hope i can get better soon.On a...

Okay so basically i split up with my boyfriend not long ago, and then he got with one of his friends at a party. The girl he got with only split with her boyfriend 2 days before!! so he was pretty torn up about it. So i thought i would speak to him, we were going through the same kind of thing so why not right?But now i feel like i might start to maybe like this girls ex, i mean how bad is that?...

So after my ankle has finally just about healed and i could start to actually do things at college instead of sit and watch and have been able to dance a little this week, which i was so happy about since dance is my life.BAM!I get flu or a chest infection or something or the sort, and now i cant dance because i have asthma and if i do well, i end up on the floor coughing my guts up, discusting, i...