I'm Finding Me Out - Comments

Thank god this story has been updated I almost forgot everything about it in the time it's been gone. Shit happens though and I'm your best friend so yeah, I understand.

That's it. That's the comment. No more.

JUST KIDDING.
MATT ROXXIE MOVE TOGETHER TO LIVE HIS GIRL COMPROMISE FOR HIS GIRL MICKEY MUSEUM AIR WHERE WHAT IS THAT SUBSTANCE MATT AND ROXXIE.

Okay now that's the comment.

FOR THE LOVE OF PETE WENTZ WILL SOMEONE UPDATE THIS STORY ALREADY.

This is late, op.

First off, I love the new layout. HELLO NEW LAYOUT.
Second off, I have to read this chapter again because it's been such a long freakin' time since I read it originally and have had, literally, 'Comment IFMO' on my writing to-do list. So it's 10 minutes after 4 o'clock on a Sunday morning and here we are.

Matt's seriously like, a mind reader or something. At least, he is when it comes to Roxxie. She's like an open book to him and that's adorable. That whole true love thing, yada yada. Then Alex is all like, Yo Rox c'mon you can do it. So she does. I love Roxxie in that way, where she just goes for it. Of course, Matt Flyzik believing in you is definitely a contributing factor there. Hm.
But she does it and she does it well and it's great. I love how you capture the essence of the All Time Low bandom. We're all family down to it and we stick together. You definitely get that aspect in this story.

I'm glad that the drama is finally gone and that everyone is happy. This was definitely the tour from hell though holy shit. Bad, bad, bad. I'm sitting there reading with a happy smile on my face and a stupid look in my eyes when this line pops up:

“My home is with you,” he said, leaning towards me to kiss me softly.

MATT FLYZIK AJFKHDSLDJ;ASKJD YOU'RE A LIFERUINER OMG STOP KSDSLAJLKJDLJSK I WANT TO BE WITH YOU SKLADJKSJDLASKJDLA BEAUTIFUL CREATURE.

Well, this comment was lame but it's almost 4:30 AM so can you really blame me? Since we're naming comments now and this was such a bad comment I will name it, um, "Justin Bieber."

love love love love <3 :)
i'm glad that Roxxie's gaining her confidence back :)
and I love Matt.. <3
please update soon! :D:D:

More dramatic chapters ohh dear :L
can't wait to see what happens next, awesome update as usual :)

loved that story <3
and I'm glad that everything ended on a happy note :)
I'm going to check out the sequel now :D

awhh i loved this, everything seems to be going right for once :) & i love the story the heart stealer
i only read the first chapter but i'm hooked already :D

this update is fantastic!

I'm so sorry for your loss though </3 Rest in peace Andrew <3

I am so sorry for your lose.
I will be praying for him and your brother, I hope everything gets better.
This update was wonderful, beautiful, and everything else under the sun.
Thank you, update soon.

awhh everything seems alright again!
I have a feeling it won't stay that way for long though
:D

aww yay everyone is happy and safe again! And I’m so sorry about your friend and your brother. I hope that he gets better <3

I'm so glad that Matt and Roxxie finally got together, oh my gosh. And Jack at least came home :D and Alex crying, oh my gosh it broke my heart. Can't wait for the next chapter.

i'm sorry about your friend, i truly am, and your brother too. i hope your brother feels better.

i'm glad that everybody's happy :)
and i'm sorry about your friend and brother...
i hope your brother gets better soon and I'm positive that your friend is watching over you :)
please update when you get the chance <3

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<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

love <3<3
Now all that needs to happen is that Zack finds a nice girl<3
then everybody will be happy!!!! :D:D
please update soon! <3<3

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Yay they made up :D

Awhh that was a sweet chapter, poor Kelly :(
keep it up :)

awesome chapter :]
Jack and Kelly are meant for each other <3
please update soon! <3<3

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LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, I PRESENT TO THEE MY REALLY LONG COMMENT.
Op. Kelly is a fantastic name, I'm sure that Kelly up there agrees whole-heartedly.
And, yes, Kelly is seriously what Jack needed, isn't she?

KLLASKJLAKS AKHFH EEUWR EIOWJFM 2883 SJFKJDH SDFIIEN DSKFLDSKU A;LKASOJN JNU A,SDKLASK JDFHEW LDF;SDI JKEHRIH JACK LSFHLFHLDSH KELLY LASDHLKSJ WUT LAKSJDLKJSDLAK OH MY LAKHDSKDLN I CANT SLKDLAHS OH ASKDLHLSK SHIT LASKHLKJSDA GOT JLKSDLADS REAL SDLKFHLASK.

okay. Okay. OKAY. O K A Y. O k a y. o k a y.
I CAN'T DO THIS. I CAN'T. WHAT AM I? WHO AM I? AM I REALLY KELLY?
OH MY. THIS IS JUST. WHAT IS IT? I DON'T EVEN KNOW. HOLD ON. I'M GOING TO READ IT AGAIN AND PROBABLY CRY AND DIE AND MAYBE THEN COME BACK TO LIFE JUST TO FINISH THIS COMMENT AND BE HAPPY THAT THIS IS HAPPENING AT LEAST IN A STORY.

Becca, YOU KILLED YOURSELF OFF IN YOUR OWN STORY JUST FOR KELLY AND JACK. WHAT EVEN? I CAN'T STOP USING CAPITAL LETTERS. I CAN'T. I HAVE TO JUST. I'M CRYING.

Alright, I'm going to get mildly serious here and just say that this is probably the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me ever. I have a few close friends and not a single one of them has ever been this kind (except for Brittany, but she's an abnormality) and no one has certainly ever made me cry. Undoubtedly you got my tweets about my family being crazy tonight and while I won't go into detail, I'm being completely serious. It isn't very fun around casa de Kelly right at the moment and this is just one of those times that has made me completely and utterly happy, which is usually reserved for writing and music. So, thank you from the bottom of my sarcastic, cynical heart. Thank you.

Okay, enough sentimentalities and onto the comment.
First of all, throughout this entire chapter, you overexaggerate my beauty to a maximum. I was blonde at birth and my whole life up until this year but you make me sound so pretty I might go back. Yes, I am pale. Yes, I have blue eyes. Y U MAKE ME SOUND SO BEAUTIFUL? And when Jack says she's (I'm?) beautiful I have little mini spasms of such utter happiness that I nearly fall off my bed and die in fits of joy. THAT'S HOW HAPPY I AM. lekfslkdjfd lksajdlka lksjljasoe ieuor fdklsmc OKAY.

Second of all, YOU ARE STALKING ME AND YOU KNOW MY PERSONALITY SO COMPLETELY THAT IT LITERALLY SCARES ME. My sarcasm, my little anecdotes, my hilarious sayings; you've got it down lady, you've got it down. I smiled throughout the whole thing mostly because I can imagine myself saying all of this. My blunt personality comes across quite excellently. I'm just going to list my favorite quotes and why they're my favorite and SDHFLKFJD ASLFKJSDKJF IROEWIOUR SKFMDS.

FIRST, the fact that he's all like, "I'm depressed" and she's just like, "Depressed." Like, obviously you're depressed you dumbass. I know everything so you didn't have to say it, duh. Come on now Jack.

“I would tell you that it gets better, but it probably doesn’t.”
“You suck at advice.”
“Thanks.”
^This is an exchange that happens nearly everyday about something or other and I'm damn proud of it. Everyone in the world tries to tell you something different than what's true to spare your feelings. This is not something I stand for and yeah, I do things like this.

"You're weird."
“So are you, but I was considerate enough not to point it out.”
^I SCREAMED IN LAUGHTER.

“But what? Because I’m blonde and skinny my life is supposed to be perfect?”
^ It is a common misconception. I'm blonde. I'm skinny. I'm morbidly unhappy. Shit happens.
Can I just say that that whole dialogue was absolute perfection? Can I say that? I love how they introduce themselves, it's perfect. I loved it. I want to live it in real life. He's weird, I'm weird, we're weird. It works.

“You know,” I said as I took another shot. “I’m starting to think that you’re not considerate at all.”
Jack's right. I'm not considerate. Not at all.

“What game next, Jacko?”
^KASJFS ASLKSKAJ NICKNAMES SDFKHLSDK LDFGOIRE OKAY SDLKJFLKDSJ

“I’m a beast at racing cars,” she said. “No one can compare.”
I did say this. In real life, though it wasn't specifically about racing cars. Earlier today I was racing with my brother and I won and he was so mad that he threw the controller on the ground and screamed "FUCK THIS." He's nine and my dad smacked him 'round the head and sent him to his room. I may or may not have done a five second victory dance. I rest my case on you stalking me.

“Like is an understatement,” she said, smiling. “Fall Out Boy are my life.”
“Just ‘pretty good?’ Are you a fucking mentalist? Fall Out Boy are legend.”
This is usually how I praise them, though sometimes I throw in the whole long, complicated story of how they saved my life and basically just ramble on and on endlessly about them and recite their birthdays and family members and the time of days they like to use the bathroom etc. It's really not that big of a deal.

“Take this and drink, in remembrance of me."
Ironically enough, back in the days when I did go to church, this was my favorite line. It was always very suave. Kind of morbid. I liked it. I also like that we got Him and Hers glasses. I also like this line “Hopefully I’ll get to find out." Jack Bassam Barakat, your attempt at flirting is super effective. My body is and has been ready. My place, or yours?

“Oh, Mother Teresa, hold me!”
“Oh, holy sweet Jesus and all the saints and all the apostles!”
I do this a lot you little creep. I've coined the phrase, "Oh sweet baby Jesus in the manger." It's just this thing I like to do.

Okay, I think I'm done with all my favorites right now and before we get to the ending I want to go back and note how Jack acts around le Kelly.
PERFECT LITTLE ASS PERFECT LITTLE ASS OH OKAY THERE BUDDY. YOU JUST LOOK AT MY PERFECT LITTLE ASS. OKAY. ALRIGHT.

Um, when he was all like, stunned by my personality first and being very respectful I was just like, "Oh damn right honey, you better respect me. Unless we're in the bedroom then that's thrown out the window." It's sweet how he's always throwing glances and his little inward comments are super cute. Even when he called my ass little, and perfect.

Okay. I think I'm ready for le ending comment. It meant a lot to me and I think you'll see why when I explain it in a minute. First, I like how blunt I was about it. It's quite true to me. I loved how Jack wasn't overly sympathetic, I loved how he offered to listen. You never come across that. It's weird talking about your death so I'm gonna just stick with Rebekah here. The way she describes her is so cute. I wouldn't be able to take you anywhere, that much is the truth. And, shut up, I love your accent. I cried a lot. I did. I mean, I'm already emotional as fuck normally, add in my time of the month and a sad chapter and I'm done for. I almost died really. The way you wrote my anguish was quite impressive.

I pulled her into a tight hug and let her cry. We weren’t strangers any more. We were two people that had been through hell and back, clinging to each other on the side of the street in the pouring rain. Two people who were both lost, and now more than anything, we needed to be found.
I think that might be the most powerful paragraph I've ever read in all my time on this site. Ever. It sticks with me and it strikes something deep inside me. It's beautiful.

I know the feeling Jack's talking about and earlier I did promise to explain and this comment is lacking a personal story so here we go. On May 17, 2010 my friend Juan killed himself. It was rather sudden and quite unexpected. I wasn't very close with him but he was dead and I couldn't understand. Nobody really understood. I went to school to hear kids making fun of him. Fucking making fun of him the day after he took his own life. I yelled at someone for it. I yelled at them in the middle of English. And then people can't understand why I want to leave so badly. I went to his wake and I cried with my best friend and all the other people packed in that small room and his mother laid across the coffin and screamed and cried and I screamed and cried and that's one thing I'll never ever forget. Being 17 years old, kneeling next to a coffin and looking down at someone that deserved to live but couldn't anymore.

Maybe that's why this chapter was so beautiful to me. I appreciate it so much. It makes me look at life and what I mean to people and what people mean to me and shows me never to take anything for granted. But I'm tired of this comment being so serious. So, we're off to happy waters again.

Dear Jack,
I firmly believe we can fix each other and then, as a result, we will love each other and be happy together and make beautiful little Barakat babies. Okay.
Love,
Kelly

I love this. I love you. I'm ready to hear from Roxxie again even if I do so love to hear from Jack so much. As always I look forward to Melissa's chapter, that lovely lady, and seeing what shenanigans Addison is up to and that dashing gentleman Alex. You two are wonderful writers, have I ever told you?

PS- Melissa, don't ever stop loving BOTDF and please never stop posting pictures of Jayy on Tumblr. Unf, that man.

ANOTHER PS- Becca, at the end of your chapters you always write 'Stay Golden'. You are golden, through and through. Don't let anyone change that.

PS AGAIN- 1,850 words.

AHHH. this chapter was golden! Kelly is seriously just what Jack needed! I'm so sorry about her best friend dying though, that is so sad :( but this chapter is amazing!! Keep em coming :)