Hold up My Heart

The water surrounded me as I entered the ocean. With each step I came to realize how cold it truly was. As the water engulfed me I could feel myself starting to shiver uncontrollably. A surge had coursed threw me taking me on a wild ride, and it excited me ever so. I stayed underwater for only a few seconds more before submerging above the water. As I surveyed the ocean around me I couldn’t help but realize how unruly the waves were, until one overpowered me, throwing me backwards.

As my fragile body came in contact with the rocks behind me, pain, coursed through me, and yet; I laughed it off. With this happening I hadn’t noticed a stronger wave trampled me. I tried to swim upward hoping to reach the surface but I was unsuccessful.

Soon enough, my arms and legs grew weary. I tried to swim as hard as I possibly could but the pain and waves overwhelmed me. I couldn’t help but chuckle inside at how tragic this truly was. Slowly and surely I stopped moving and just, sank. My lungs felt as if they had been set on fire and the only way of sustaining them was breathing, yet I couldn’t. I was trapped inside my mind; this took it off of the pain. I welcomed the dark abyss as my eyes closed slowly.

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"Ara? Arabella are you alright? Please, wake up! Come on, please Ara!" I heard a familiar voice beg and plead. I felt a low pressure on my chest and soon I realized they were hands pumping at my chest. I suddenly shot up and began to cough up water.

Warm hands took hold of my face and my eyes were dead caught with Jacob Black's. Or at least, it looked like him. But I didn't shimmy out of his grasp, and I didn't yell and curse at him. I began to laugh hysterically for no apparent reason. I almost fell over from the laughing but this man had caught me.

"Ara? Are you alright? What were you thinking, jumping off that cliff!" I waved him off and scoffed. I had to use the man's large hand to pull my up onto my feet.

"I was looking at the stars." I said. "And apparently I couldn't get none." I laughed again as the Jacob Black look - a - like pulled me over to a car. "Ew, this car is hi - dee - us!" I empathized and giggled.

Once in the stupid Jacob Black look - a - like's car, he drove off down a road and the car was silent. Except for my sudden bursts of laughter every few seconds. So basically, the car was not silent at all. I began to laugh and sigh all together and shake my head.

Giggling as the water from my hair sprayed everywhere, I turned and asked, "Where are we going, sir?"

The man sighed and answered with, "We're going to my place, my dad's gone so there won't be any questions from him."

"Hmm, I would like to meet a man someday. Just as good as your father." I said randomly and airlessly. And then I tsked, "Tell me, sir, do I know you? You look terribly familiar."
The man sighed and said, "What are you on?"

I waved him off and laughed, "No no! That is not your name, sir. How silly for your parents to name you something like that!" We pulled up into a small driveway in front of a small red house. This - gentleman opened the door for me and pulled me out of the car. Once inside he dragged me to a room that must have been his.

"Here, change into these." He handed me a overly large t-shirt and boxers.

I gasped and shook my head, "I can't get naked here! This is not my home!"

"Ara, it's Jacob. Come on, snap out of this!" This Jacob guy pleaded. I sighed and began to take off my clothes. "Whoa, you could have told me to leave first."

"And what fun would that be?" I giggled as I pulled both my leggings and top off. My shoes were flung across Jacob's room with a thud and I laugh at the noise. Sighing I shoved this Jacob character onto his bed and smirked as his eyes trailed down my body. Right now, I had just noticed that he himself was shirtless. Fabulous.

"So tell me - uh -" He swallowed nervously, "Tell me why you jumped off?"

I sighed and crawled onto his bed, and I spread myself so I was straddling Jacob. I placed my hands on his warm bare chest. "I wanted to catch a star." I whispered into his ear. I bit my lip and waited for him to make the move. He had to want me, right? All the guys I had gotten high with wanted me. I sighed and had run out of patience, sitting there and watching at him stare into my eyes.

So I kissed him. I pulled him into a tightly, lustful firm kiss.

Jacob moaned into the kiss, placing his hands on my hips. Our lips melted together, and I opened my mouth, letting Jacob's tongue make his way into it. His hands stayed in place, and I felt a bulge between my legs. I giggled, wanting to have some more fun.

I put my hands behind my back, unclasping my bra and letting it fall. Jacob opened his eyes, which nonetheless wondered down to my chest. His eyes were wide, full of need, want, and so much lust.

"Found something you like?" I teased. He pulled me back into another kiss, but much rougher. I didn't really know what I was doing, and even if I wanted to stop, I couldn't - the highness had taken over, shoving away any penetrating thoughts. "You taste good," I giggled as I bit onto his lower lip. I smirked as I got another moan from him.

Jacob's hands were all over my body, holding me closer to him so he could kiss down my neck and suck on my sweet spot. But how did he know where that was? Hm, maybe it was just a lucky guess. And so I let him continue to want me, because it was obvious that he did now. And when I pulled his hands up to caress my chest, he stopped.

"Ara, no. You - we can't do this. You said we'd wait, remember?" I titled my head to the side and wondered. When did I ever say that? I didn't even know this guy. I grumbled when Jacob handed me my bra and his shirt. And after I pulled myself together just a bit more - fully clothed and all, I fell onto the bed.

"You don't want me." I mumbled.

"Ara no, of course I do! It's just -don't you remember us making the promise that we'd wait for the right time?" He asked, his eyes searching for something in mine. He grimaced and sighed, "And right now is not the right time. Especially when you're high off your horse, and because I know that once this feeling is over, you'll be back to your...normal self." He ran a hand through his hair and lied himself down on his bed next to me.

"I don't know what you are talking about, but I'm sorry about your chick man." I sighed and shook my head. He must have confused me with someone else. And he must have made her mad if he was going nuts right now.

"Mister?" I began. I turned onto my side and waited for him to look at me. And once he finally did, I whispered, "I may not know you, but I'm sure that the girl you pissed off will come around and accept you back." I gave him a warm smile, which he returned, before I let my eyes close and drift off.