Um, I don't know how many people saw the journal but not too long ago there was a girl who was going to 'commit suicide'. Of course, I don't know if she ever did it but her account was removed so I will never find out.
I told her a lot of things that I regret, if she did end up killing herself. I told her she was selfish, and that she was fucking stupid if she went through it. I was really harsh and she was just.... calm, I guess? I don't know if she did it but I was really upset for a few days after that and talking about it is difficult. Sometimes suicide is there, but people have only gone so far physically, like taking a bunch of pills.
But some people aren't there mentally, if this makes sense. So, no matter what, people are always trying to stop others when they say they're trying to commit suicide. I just feel that if someone said one right thing on that journal, she might have stopped. And I always have that hope when I see journals like that. And yeah, it's for attention, but sometimes in the back of my mind I really believe them.
I know parts of this are choppy and make no sense but I really wanted to get this out, I'm still pretty touchy about the subject.
I told her a lot of things that I regret, if she did end up killing herself. I told her she was selfish, and that she was fucking stupid if she went through it. I was really harsh and she was just.... calm, I guess? I don't know if she did it but I was really upset for a few days after that and talking about it is difficult. Sometimes suicide is there, but people have only gone so far physically, like taking a bunch of pills.
But some people aren't there mentally, if this makes sense. So, no matter what, people are always trying to stop others when they say they're trying to commit suicide. I just feel that if someone said one right thing on that journal, she might have stopped. And I always have that hope when I see journals like that. And yeah, it's for attention, but sometimes in the back of my mind I really believe them.
I know parts of this are choppy and make no sense but I really wanted to get this out, I'm still pretty touchy about the subject.
July 11th, 2007 at 10:19pm