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"And what is 'best for both of us?'" she sneered, obviously angry. "You better fix what you did Emma, you know what he's like!" she said, peering in through the window and frowning. He had on his jeans and nothing else, just laying on the floor. "Jamie..." she said softly knocking on the window, but he didn't turn to face her.

James felt broken. All of him felt broken. She chose him, she chose that bastard. Curling up tighter, he could hear Kate. Even though he and Kate had a rocky past, she was as close to family as he would get near here. Clenching his eyes, he let the tears fall and didn't move a muscle.

Emma frowned and shook her head. "I chose what wouldn't hurt him anymore!" Her heart hurt even more and she clung to James's hand, feeling hurt and suckish. She did know how he was... And she knew this would hurt him - but she was trying to do what was better for him... Which wasn't her - if couldn't be her!

"Well he's hurting a lot right now Emma!" she screamed her big glossy eyes angry. She even stomped with her heel. "Do you even know how difficult his life is Emma? He wrecked his house, he knocked on every door at the Motel, he even left Lucky there. How could you do this to him, and how do you expect me of all people to take care of a dog?" she squealed. "Get your ass in gear, bitch! I swear to god he's going to commit suicide before you ever get here." Kate looked back through the window. "C'mon James... Let me in." she said again.

James finally looked up at her with his tear stained face. "Where is she Kate? Is she okay? I want to see her!" he whimpered. Every part of him felt cold, especially his bare upper body. Kate made him wear his jeans but he didn't feel like it. He wanted to lay, wither, and die. Over and over a billion times. Kate looked at him sadly. Getting up, he opened the door finally and shook her. "Where is she!" he said, the same anger from before boiling over again.

Jake held her hand and touched her hair. "Emma, hang up..." he said, realizing how upset she looked. "Who cares what his whore or James is saying, you did the right thing."

Emma started to cry lightly and she shook her head, smiling lightly as Jake comforted her. She sighed lightly and shook her head. "Kate, I did what was right for him... He has to understand that." She said, wiping her eyes and sobbing. Why did this have to hurt so bad? Why couldn't he understand? "I'm just trying to protect him..." She whispered, kissing the back of Jake's hand and sighing.

Kate squealed again. "I-I don't know James!" she hissed just as James pushed her over and went to the house across from
him, where Jack used to live. "He doesn't understand anything!" she said, almost crying when she realized her elbow was bleeding. "Where the hell are you Emma, he's going to knock in every door and killl everyone until he finds you. Where does this Jacob kid live?"

James stared at the house, peering through the window. Breaking it with his already swollen fist, he crawled through it started denting the walls again. The hurt wouldn't stop, how can he make it stop? It was like his whole life over again, the feeling, so familiar... "Emma!" he yelled the veins on his arms bulging. His muscles ached and he wasn't going to stop until he found her.

Jake frowned and wiped her tears. "Please, Emma... There hurting you."

Emma frowned a little and shook her head. "I'm sorry... He knows I can't do that. I can't tell him because he's safer without me. If he doesn't have to see me anymore I'm not a danger to him." She told him and then looked up at Jake sympathetically. "I'm sorry..." She whispered. This wasn't going to end well and she knew it but she didn't know what to do about it.

"You can tell me!" Kate insisted. "At least deal with him, please. He doesn't need more on his Criminal record." she sighed. "You have officially wrecked him for good, you bitch." she said with her snotty tone. "You're worse then his father." she growled hanging up and running her fingers though her blonde hair frustrated.

The house was empty, as was the next. Eventually he even went to Kate's house, but Emma wasn't there. He called her over and over, but each time it was ignored and each time he prayed to himself she would pick up. Then, he went home to his wrecked house and took the note out reading it again.

Emma sighed a little Nd shook her head. She was so upset by this and she hated that she was hurting him. If only there was a simpler way... She texted him and then sighed. Stop looking for me. I love you but this is what we have to do. I can't be with you... Not if I want you safe... And I'm sorry for that. She frowned and then sighed at Jake. "I'm sorry." She said, squeezing his hand.

Jake nodded. "I get it. He's a psycho... As long as he doesn't know where I live, we're safe." Jake promised calmly still driving.

Jake read it and shook. No. tell me where you are Emma, i love you. Why are you killing me? Jamie meant every word. Why would she leave a letter like that and leave in the middle of the night, after what they did before they were asleep? Make love and kiss and cuddle, they even shared a fucking orgasm. Why was she with him now? Grabbing the pillow, he teared it to shred pounding on it. WHY WHY WHY?

Emma sighed and nodded. "I know." She sighed lightly and then shook her head. She was feeling really guilty about this and she hated this but she didn't know what to do. Im at Jake's... That's all I can tell you - because I can't have him thinking I'm helping you. I just love you... She wanted to tell him to stay away. Why did he have to hurt like that?

James stared at it, then ripped her letter to shreds throwing it at the ground. Kate was siting across from him looking a little freaked out by him. "I love her Kate." he looked up at her. It was no use. "Help me. Please help me..." he begged. Kate looked uncomfortable and pursed her red lips. Emma don't do this... please baby, why did you leave? It wasn't for my good, I feel like I'm dying He hated texting her. Was she hurting him on purpose? Obviously. She left him in the middle of the night. His eyes were dry and irritated, and he felt like shit. Calling her again, she denied the call. So he called again.

Emma frowned lightly at his words and she shook her head. She knew this wasn't fair but she kept telling herself it was best for him. Do you know what he would've done to you? You'd be in jail right now if I didn't... You'd be a criminal for sexual assault and rape, not to mention everything against Jack and all... I can't have that happen to you. That's why I left - I'm giving you a chance to live. Don't think of it as dying by losing me. Just live, please baby? You have my heart - you always will... And it might just kill me, but I know this is better for you... She said, frowning as she denied call after call. She couldn't answer... It would break her.

[going to shower - be back soon!]

[ugh sorry... was eating]

Kate didn't know what to do, so she sat quietly just keeping him company. "Maybe it's time to let her go James." she said. James shook his head. That wasn't going to happen ever. answer my call Emma.. I want to be in jail if it means you aren't with him, I'll do anything.<3 I love you Emma His heart ached, and there was nothing left to break. He needed to see her or he'd die, he'd shatter himself because he had nothing to live for. Waking up alone when you're not supposed to what hurt him more then any experience he had, even all his nightmares combined. He was going to kill Jake. How could he do that... Cause him more pain then he already suffered.

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[ugh sorry... was eating]

Kate didn't know what to do, so she sat quietly just keeping him company. "Maybe it's time to let her go James." she said. James shook his head. That wasn't going to happen ever. answer my call Emma.. I want to be in jail if it means you aren't with him, I'll do anything.<3 I love you Emma His heart ached, and there was nothing left to break. He needed to see her or he'd die, he'd shatter himself because he had nothing to live for. Waking up alone when you're not supposed to what hurt him more then any experience he had, even all his nightmares combined. He was going to kill Jake. How could he do that... Cause him more pain then he already suffered.

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Emma sighed lightly and ran a hand through her hair, shaking her head. They had made it to Jake's house and she reached over kissing his cheek. "Can you give me a few moments? I'm going to call and make sure they understand that this is over and not up for discussion." She said lightly and squeezed his hand and then walked inside to an isolated room. She called him finally, shaking her head.

Jake nodded. He didn't like it, but she was doing the right thing, or so he reminded himself. It made him feel better. After all, she chose him.

James lay pathetically on the bed. Kate had brought in Lucky, but he didn't feel like anything but dying. His chest ached, his eyes were swollen. Everything just hurt. "Emma." he whispered to himself, hoping it would somehow make her appear. He didn't know how she did it; make love to him all night like that and leave in the morning with another man. Nothing. No goodbye except a flimsy letter that stated her feelings for him and how much they were meant to be together, yet she didn't want it. She. Chose. Him. And then a miracle happened. She called. He didn't want to talk to anyone but her, and he wouldn't refuse the call. He couldn't bring himself to do it. "Emma." He had so much to say, and it was all he could do. With the one name, his voice had shown how frustrated, angry, upset, lonely, and hurt he was. The one word said everything. When he said it, it was quiet and raspy from his dry throat.

Emma frowned when she heard his voice. She could hear the pain and the anger in that voice and she wished she could take it all away. She wished she could save him from all of this pain but she knew that this was necessary. "Jamie..." She said back to him and frowned. "I'm sorry - but you need to stop. You need to forget about me. I love you and I wish there was some other way but there isn't and I care about your well-being more than anything and that doesn't include me..." She frowned.

James lay quietly, just listening to the sweetness in her voice. The lying, the deception, but sincere. He didn't know what to say, but instead of thinking it over he let it out naturally. "How could you do that Emma? I told you this is exactly my worst nightmare, and you made it come true. I assured you this was what I wanted, and you turned it down. You fucked me all night, yes, fucked, not make love or whatever shit you say because clearly you don't love me the way I love you. What you did, was assure me you chose me and then run away... You broke my heart Emma. I understand now that you made your decision, and I won't bother you anymore. Just tell me why you would listen to that bastard instead of me... I can't leave without knowing why." though there were tears going down his face, he still felt like an idiot. When was the last time he cried? Oh yeah, when he was maybe 8 and he chose homeless instead of his family.

Emma frowned a little as she heard his words. That hurt... That was breaking her heart because she really was doing this for him and she didn't know how he didn't understand that. She shook her head and sighed. "I did it for the exact reason I told you - because I love you. Because I know that I can't hurt you anymore like this and I don't want to. I did not fuck you, I made love to you... For the last time that I possibly could... Do you know how badly I wish I was still there, in your arms? I didn't want to leave but I had to... I can't go through life knowing that I ruined yours by all of the suing and everything. It's just better this way - you get another chance. Please don't hate me... You know you're all I want, but you're everything I can't have if I want you to be safe and well... And yes - I'm upset too... Because if you would've just understood that I wanted you to begin with, we wouldn't be in this position - I would've never had to deal with Jake and none of this would've happened! I'm sorry that I want what is best for you - and I know that's not me!"

James clung to every word, listening it and processing it. "No!" he denied. "You don't make love to someone and leave them. If anyone Emma, I should know the difference." Ouch... That hurt him more then it'd hurt her, because he just realized how untrue it was and that he said it anyways. "Just so you know baby, it hurts more to live without you then to be in jail. I've been there, I've been sued, I've done everything bad that I possibly could've. But I've never been through heartbreak like this, and I can tell you it's a lot worse then losing everything I own, and I've been through that and I got over it. I don't think I can get over this.." his voice cracked. "Everything comes back to me. Anything bad in this world is my fault, I've been told that Emma. Thank you for clarifying, because I always knew it wasn't possible for anything good to come off me. I said I'd leave you alone, and I will Emma. I love you, good luck with your graduation. I hope you get into the college you applied for.. I won't get over you." Then, he took the cellphone off of his ear and looked at the picture of her, wondering what she'd do with the pictures of him. Hanging up still hesitantly, he threw the phone at the wall and closed his eyes again.

Jake knocked gently on the door. "Emma?" he mumbled.