This I Swear

She laughed, "It's been a while" she said mockingly ,"Fuck you!" she said shoving him, "You just fucking left! You didn't say anything, you just left! I've been so fucking worried about you. I've looked in prisons, and hospital ICU's in the tristate area looking for you and you have the audacity to say it's been a while?" she said to him as she felt her eyes water.

"I was so worried, I was sure if you had wanted to leave me you were the kind of guy who would say so, but I was so wrong," she muttered as she turned around and bit back a scream of anger as she walked to the car.

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Jongdae smiled;,"No -/," he heard the yelling and turned to see what was going on ,"Uhm... whats going on?" he asked confused.

I looked at Jongdae and sighed. "I'm really sorry, but I need to go. Thanks for inviting me." I said, before walking over towards her. "Do you want to leave?"

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Yixing shook his head in surprise. He was sure she would have moved on by the time he was okay so he stayed away. He could feel the pull towards her but she clearly wouldn't look at him. "I didn't... That's not... Lucy, please! Let me explain."

She choked back a sob,"Let you explain what?!" she said as she looked at him, "I lost so much sleep over you, I lost a lot of things because of you. I was almost homeless because you fucking ditched me. If it hadn't been for her I'd probably be on the streets right now." she said to him as she turned to look at him.

"Please, explain because I definitely want to hear this," she said to him, "Besides I deserve this much," she said as she looked at him.

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Jongdae walked over to them ,"Please let him explain," he murmured, "It's not what she thinks,"

I sighed, moving so I wasn't in the way. This had seriously hurt Lucy. She spent so much time looking for someone who didn't want to be found.

He took a deep breath. "When I disappeared, I really disappeared. I don't know what happened for the first two weeks. I just remember having dreams of being an animal and living like one. Eventually I calmed down enough to realize they weren't dreams. I'd been running around as a wolf. I was so terrified I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to hurt you so I stayed away. I met these guys who were like me and they taught me how to control it. By the time I did, I figured you had moved on, so I didn't want to be that guy who shows up and ruins the happy relationship you have. So i stayed away."

Taelor stared at Yixing, then Jongdae and shook her head. "Your excuse is that you're a werewolf? And so are they?" I looked at Jongdae and shook my. head. "Harmless my ass." I said, before going over to my car. I didn't want to be here.

She stared at him and shook her head then heard a growl rip form one of the members in the group and she saw the biggest man in the group begin to move back from the group. She backed away her eyes wide as she watched as his bones snapped and his body morphed into a animal. When it stopped there stood a wolf, tall in form like a horse almost.

"Oh my god," she whispered and felt light headed she stumbled back and onto the dirt.

"Kris that was so dramatic and you know it," Suho scolded him with his arms crossed.

"this is why we live out here," Jongdae said softly, "but we're really harmless,"

I scoffed. "I want nothing to do with this." I muttered, going to go lean on my car. "Lucy, do you want to stay or go?" I asked, truly terrified. I didn't like this, nor did I want to be around it. "Obviously your case is different than mine, Lucy. But I don't know him and I'm not sure I want to anymore. So the choice is yours."

Yixing sighed as he looked at her. "I have missed you a lot. Please?"

Lucy felt as if her heart was going to beat out of her chest as she looked from yixing to the dog who was sitting there looking around, "I..I need time," she whispered as she slowly came to her feet and brushed her hands off. "I just need time," she said softly as she looked at him.

Jongdae felt his heart shred at the thought of his mate never wanting to be with him ,he looked at her then felt his hands start shaking as he walked off his entire being feeling ripped apart.

I got in my car and slammed the door, putting my head to my steering wheel. This was terrifying, I couldn't think and I just wanted to get away. "Talk about, you never know what's going to happen." I muttered, starting my car and waiting for Lucy.

"I understand. Just... Please. I didn't want to come back and ruin whatever you had... I just... Just think about it." He said softly.

"I never had anything," she said as she looked at him,"I've been too busy looking for you," she murmured softly,"I put out so many missing person reports," she whispered, "I'll be back... I don't know how soon ... a week maybe," she murmured as she walked to the car and opened the door then sat down.

"I think I'm going to be sick," she whispered.

I put the car in reverse and opened the window, pulling out of there as fast as I could. "Let me know if I need to stop." I muttered, trying to drive out of there as fast as possible.

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Yixing sighed and fell down onto the dirt into a sitting position. He put his hands to his forehead and sighed, feeling his heart shread slightly as she drove away. Now that he'd seen her, he may only be able to go a couple of days before seeing her again.

She nodded a little as she closed her eyes,"I can't believe he just left without saying anything," she said as she finally broke down her body shaking slightly as she clentched her fists.

I sighed a little, shaking my head. "Well at least now you know where he is. Whether or not you choose to speak to him ever again." I said softly, running a hand through my hair.

"Taelor.. I love him and I know.. you don't get it but I will go back," she murmued as she wiped her eyes as she tried to calm down, "I have to," she whispered.

"And I know this is asking a lot but I think you should give Jongdae a chance... I'm scared too but... Yixing... yixing is harmless in a sense most people don't understand,"

I shook my head. "Are you crazy? I know your situation is different from mine, you've been waiting for a while for him to come back. So if you choose to go to him, though I don't understand, I get it. I didn't know Jongdae yesterday, and I won't know him tomorrow."

She sighed,"I still think you should give him a chance... what if he approached you cause you'rel like his soulmate or something... what if he dies now," she said to her seriously, "I dont know about any of it but I've seen enough movies," she nodded.

I shook my head and kept driving. "I don't believe in that. No, it changes nothing. I can't, and I won't." I said, not really believing the words as they left my mouth. I had felt something special but I was more afraid than anything else.

"Well you'll be seeing him," she told herl ightly,"If I'm around Yixing I dont want you to avoid me because you're avoiding him," she told her.

I sighed a little. "I just... I might need time for that. This is seriously messing with me and I mean, I'm not sure I want this. Just not for myself."

She nodded a little and sighed,"We'll figure it out," she murmured softly as she licked her lips.

I sighed a little as I pulled into the garage. "Yeah. Maybe." I murmured, going inside the building. "I just want to lay down."