Confess on My Wayward Son

I'm really worried about seeing my tutor on Tuesday about putting in a Personal Extenuating Circumstances form. What if is just looks like I'm milking a bad situation?

I really want a rainy-day-in-NYC fan fiction of some sort. Maybe I'll write one tomorrow.

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I'd rather die than go back to uni. Trolololol.

Too bad I don't have a choice.

apparently I wasn't supposed to respond to anyone on here and I apologize. OOps, but just know that I know what some of you are going through.

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On another note, I'm thinking about taking my boss/landlord to court.

I'm tired and it's a rain day. Just lovely.

Goddammit, I gotta go all the way back out and steal dinner from my mom for my fiance.

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I just want to BE Chris Pratt.

The only thing I care about on Vampire Diaries is Bonnie and, as usual, they're putting her through the wringer.

I feel like my hair style would look cute on anybody but me. But then again that's how I feel about everything.

I don't know wtf it is but something about outlast is helping me work through my rape and dealings with the mental health and legal system on a higher, more complex level.

OH MY GOD THE NEW GAME OF THRONES EPISODE THOUGH

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I'm so excited to not have to work tomorrow. Even though I have a three hour class, I don't even care, I'm just excited to sleep in and not have to deal with people.

let's have sex and then go out for coffee, yeah?

I have 2 finals tomorrow. And then one on Tuesday, one on Wednesday, and one on Thursday. I wanna die

I feel bad for whoever reads my journal one day, lol.

Things I am nuts about right now:
- Waylon/Miles comforting each other outside after everything.
- Pre-variant Chris comforting pre-variant Gluskin before experiments.
- The twins sharing Miles.
- Wal!Miles' voyeurism and minor influence over Eddie/Waylon.
- Trager tryin to operate on Wal!Miles.
- Chris callin Miles his lil pig. ~

omg so many things.

i probably should have said something last night but i didn't want to since i was already upset over stupid shit and getting dumb and emotional over nothing but i saw my datemate refer to themselves as a lesbian and i know, i know it doesn't mean shit it was just a stupid are you an x lesbian or a y lesbian but it still hurt because i'm a boy and they're dating me so clearly they can't be a lesbian or anything

but i mean i call myself gay all the time but always in like a blanket term like queer where you get that i mean gay as in i'm attracted to this guy not gay as in only attracted to guys and you can't really do that with lesbian but like.

i feel so stupid and petty and i don't want to upset them or think i'm mad at them i'm not it just triggered dysphoria last night especially since i'm on my period and just ugh it sucks being a trans man it sucks it sucks so much i fucking hate it

My uterus hurts, I'm emotionally unstable, and I don't want to go to work. What else is new?

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I'm really nervous.

Thank you.

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I'm in one of those moods where it's taking me a dozen tries to write something and then I just delete it anyway.

I'm so sick of everyone in my life treating me like I'm garbage all the time.