Confess on My Wayward Son

I've been feeling introverted since I woke up and I've been out all day with a group of 6. I have to be up at 4am tomorrow but at least I can have the evening to just curl up and stop stressing.

I wanted to leave you a compliment, but I didn't. I thought I would be bothering you and I didn't want to do that. It suits you. You look good.

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My stomach is still reeling. I'm kind of afraid to take the other dose of medicine in case it leaves me up all night. Reckon either way I"ll be awake. I'm just tired of being sick. It's been three weeks now.

Not to be dramatic or anything, but I think my time here is up. I was 15 when I first started out on this website and writing on here was a really great outlet for me, but I just feel like I've outgrown it. I was in high school then, I've now graduated college. I had no idea what adulthood was like then, now I have a career and am getting my own place in November (iA). My life is moving on and it's very exhausting to live it and unfortunately, Mibba isn't catching up to it. It's kind of sad, like an end of an era, but there's a point where I can't keep dragging it out 'cause let's be real, I've been tryna let go for the past year, so might as well just do it.

Idk.

I wish I had enough money to be artificially inseminated, because honestly, I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks anymore. I just want to have a baby and my love life is nonexistent and hopeless.

@ The God of Thunder.
Anytime!!! And it might not help much, but I'm here if you need to let out some steam or vent or anything like that
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Honestly that librarian lady was so cute and lovely I'm How do you say hello do you like girls in French?

I'm going to go home and sleep for 7 years. And then do laundry.

The fact that you refuse to give us a proper first aid kit almost resulted in a girl dying in my arms tonight.
I was first responder, it's my job to assess and assist in any injury at our club...but for me to not be able to give her anything to stem the bleeding but towels is NOT good enough. I've had it, give me what I asked for. She was lovely, if Me and her sister hadn't been able to stop the arterial spray and keep her relaxed enough to stem the bleeding, I don't know what could of happened. I never would have forgiven myself if she'd died. The ambulance took forever and I honestly thought she was going to die if she kept bleeding like that. I have this training for a reason. To save lives. But if you don't give me the tools, I can't help them enough.

Not good enough, Thank fuck I found her on facebook - Hopefully she'll see my message and let me know how her recovery is going when she can.
She tried to tip me a grand. I don't want your money love, I don't care that you sprayed blood all over me babe, I just want you safe <3
People like that...They deserve the best in life.

I'm honestly growing weary of being sick. Starting to forget what being healthy is like. Heh. I feel a little bad complaining, it's only been 3 weeks, but geez, I just want to feel normal again. I don't even feel like I'm improving right now.

@ raja sahara
can understand the feel. been here for so long now

The dryer just ate the last $1.25 off of my laundry card so now I have to go to a friend's house to dry clothes because spending $20 on laundry is not in this week's budget. All I want to do is stay home for one single solitary day.

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Is it normal that superheros inspire me to workout? Not sure. Super nerd. I think.

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Things I forgot about: Shake Ya Tailfeather and Bad Boys II.

I honestly have no idea how to respond to what you told me last weekend. You shared some personal things with me and tried to get me to do the same. I'm sorry but you've never given me any reason to share anything personal or to come to you for advice like a parent should because I've tried opening with you before and instead of listening, you brushed it all off with out a proper explanation and you came up with some stupid excuse. It also doesn't help that he doesn't listen to anyone telling him the truth about how he is towards people. But then again, overlook/ignore the bad things completely (either that get pissed at them while doing nothing about them) and just be loud and obnoxious and avoid conflict is what he's best at, that and spoiling his son. So sorry about not opening up. I know you were hoping for me to share a world of things with you but I can't because I kinda don't trust you enough and i dont know if you will take me seriously because you've never been willing to listen before. But I'll try talking a little bit next time, I think.

Just found out that Bath and Body Works has discontinued my all time favorite scent so it looks like it's time to start hoarding.

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Uuhhhmmm no, Spotify, I'm pretty sure that this is the Script, not whoever you're trying to say it is...

Am I ever going to get my ass back to RP-ing? I honestly wish I was more into Captain America as I am now back when Tumblr RP wasn't hard to keep up with.

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I want to go to Mill Creek today really, super duper bad but the only person I want to go with is my husband....who is at work from 10am to 10pm today. 8 fucking bedrooms to a complete wayne manor, stop adopting people bruce.

I love you so much it hurts.
They say you love me so much it's obvious.
But it's not our time love, in another life...
Although he says it's okay - I'm not going to do it. Even though I want to.
We can stay forever in our perfect rhythm of lust and love.
If we act - It might break. Neither of us want that.

It's a perfect fall day in the middle of June and all I want to do is go home and drink coffee and play video games but I'm stuck in a 9 hour shift instead.

I really wanna go out and see this guy, but maybe I'm just dreaming. I'll say I changed my mind tomorrow and see who wants to come.

Season 4 of Supernatural got me shook.

My boyfriend is going through so much shit. He doesn't deserve this. People truly suck. Here's to hoping things get better.