Confess on My Wayward Son

I'm am not here for woman vs. woman conflict but there's this one girl at my college who I am just HECKA jealous of and I feel embarrassed every time I get angry about it. fuck u self, be a better feminist.

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All of that shit that comes out of your mouth is nothing more than talk because all you do is say, "Alright Alright. Don't worry. You can have and do whatever you want." To him. So... I don't wanna hear you saying that you are the only one who takes care of the dogs around here. That's utter bullshit. Utter utter bullshit. And you're drinking way too much so just shut up.

Im glad I put my foot down and refused to work tonight.
I needed a break. I would have broken down due to my personal issues if I had to work tonight.
I need to get away from that place.

You know, it makes me so angry...so profoundly angry, unreasonably angry...
You were there for so many of us, and yet no one was there for you right when you needed them. I know you had your reasons, if I can hazard a guess, Chris Cornell was one of them...a very big one...
But it hurts, to know you saved so many of us, and we couldn't save you.
I hope it's better now, I truly do. Wherever you are.

The breakdown is coming, but this time your music will be there again to pull me back. Thank you, so fucking much.

It always shocks me when someone decides that, of all ways, the best way to go is by hanging. There's time in that, there's calculation in that. It isnt swift or speedy, there are several points where one must urge themselves to continue: it isnt swallowing pills or pulling a trigger. Its a process. And while I was never a big Linkin Park fan by any means at all, it makes me sad that someone who touched so many and who will continue to do so was driven to the thought, the time, and the ideal of suicide, let alone a hanging.

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I'm genuinely excited for Melissa Rauch's Harley Quinn.

The fact that he's already dating someone else kills me inside. Did I not mean anything to him? Was it all a lie?

Maybe it's because I've been thinking about death a lot, lately, but I didn't think Chester Bennington's death would hit me as hard as it did but I'm really upset. And I know it's kind of been a long time coming, because I just listened to Leave Out All The Rest and then some other songs, and hearing the new stuff is hard but the whole album almost seems like a suicide letter. And I don't know if I believe in heaven or the afterlife but I hope he's in a better place. And I hope his kids and his wife are okay and that his friends are okay.

some people are so rude. No need to delete my comments on instagram. Not sure what i did to you, but whatever. i don't understand people.

Salty as fuck mate

When can I be active on mibba again? Fuck sake, internet company, provide the coverage to my area already!

i'm too tired. I've been sleeping too much and my sleeping schedule is fucked up now. Thanks summer heat...

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I'm oddly inspired to write now. Hopefully i can get something done.

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Why the hell do you always have to talk about nothing but Undertale and FNAF after Ive said repeatedly that I don't want to talk about them or play the games. Talking with you always irritates me for some odd reason. And the fact that you turn everything into a fucking debate or a discussion, testing my knowledge about whatever we talk about is also annoying. This is also why I don't like talking to you because you take someone not wanting to talk about FNAF or undertale as an insult... Just like the rest of those fandoms. Don't get upset when I don't want to talk about FNAF theories or undertale Characters. I don't like those two games and it's because of the over hype so most likely I won't e playing those games when. you get here.

There is nothing hotter than a chubby, bearded nerd with tattoos.

It feels like my brains going to melt from the heat. D:

I'm trying SO FUCKING HARD to not judge Ragnarok by it's trailers....but at the rate they're advertising this movie it looks like nothing other than a bromance crackfic between Thor and Hulk. Thank you, Marvel, for (potentially-- I won't say you have JUST yet) fucking up your best story line. Bravo. The saving grace of this movie may well be the interaction between Thor and Loki, I'm counting on you Hiddleston: please.It honestly is being portrayed as 1982 splattered all over the wall, cocaine and everything.

I have been a mass of crippling depression, disgust, and frustration, utterly unable to take care of myself (let alone anybody else in my life). I am so sad. I am feeling so violated from past events, and I just feel so burdensome under their stubbornness. Whenever a public figure commits suicide, it's so hard to look at the influx of social media's "get help" campaign because I've worked with a ludicrous amount of psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists, psychopharmacologists, and I still can't overcome my illness. I don't know where to go now, I still just feel like a r-pe victim. I want somebody to see how much suffering I am in, how bad the things that happened to me were, and help me with the process as I work through the fact that these things cannot be erased from my memory. I want to tell somebody all the details of my assaults but who the fuck cares, and also, who the fuck can handle it? I have cut out all the ill-equipped professionals in my life and now I have no formal support system. I know I should seek new ones that will not be harmful, who could actually help, but I'm so tired. I don't want to go back into the hospital because I'm terrified no one will be there for me when I get out.

I keep wondering how long I'm going to have to pretend I'm okay and not fucked up over what you've done before I actually am okay. as it sits, I'm still pretty fucking heartbroken over it. and I hate that I'm giving you even that because it clearly doesn't bother you.

I would gladly trade one person for three others cause he' not my favorite person tbh lol

oh bear:

Maybe it's because I've been thinking about death a lot, lately, but I didn't think Chester Bennington's death would hit me as hard as it did but I'm really upset. And I know it's kind of been a long time coming, because I just listened to Leave Out All The Rest and then some other songs, and hearing the new stuff is hard but the whole album almost seems like a suicide letter. And I don't know if I believe in heaven or the afterlife but I hope he's in a better place. And I hope his kids and his wife are okay and that his friends are okay.

I didn't think it would hit me like it did I was in shock for the first few hours and then I lost it. It was my birthday, too. I've been listening to the new album and I keep crying about it, when you listen to the words... He was so important to me so many years ago, enough to say that he did make an impact so it's been difficult for me to process.

It sucks so much. I get it, it doesn't mean that I like it, but I get it. I only hope that he is at peace. He deserves as much.

I said no. Stop harassing me.