*ranting about things that I feel like should have been over by now???*
my close friends basically all graduated the prior year, and it's sucked ass. #1: my roommate is amazing and I love her, so I'm really grateful for that, but #2: my friend who stayed behind another year with me has always been amazing, and the two of us were in the center of our friend group before but now... she's gravitated to all these people who I have no issue being friendly with but I.don't.like. They are superficial and exclusionary. They treat me like I don't exist and it makes me feel s-h-i-t-t-y.
She and I were so close but the people around her are bringing out the worst in her and I have lost my connection. She's so patronizing to me now, as though I should be pitied for not having any closeness with anyone. I had such amazing friendships and experiences and now that I'm around these toxic people who are treating me like crap, I feel like a complete invalid and misfit. I fucking hate high school hive minds. I have majorly outgrown this place and I wanna go.