Confess on My Wayward Son

I don't even miss my hair: best. decision. ever. I feel a lot more like myself now than I ever have.

Call Out My Name by The Weeknd really fucking hits home.

how did we get so far away from the relationship we had five years ago? I still love you with all of my heart, but it doesn't feel the same.
we hardly kiss. we hardly touch. we used to be connected all the time, and it hurts now.

what has changed to bring us to this point? is this just how all relationships go? i want to love you more, love you immensely and passionately.

i wish i could get back to there now

I want to wish you happy birthday (even though you hate your birthday, or at least I assume you still do) but I don't really want to know more about your life, more specifically if you're still dating her/dating someone else. So I'm just gonna mind my business.

I thought I'd be more like, idk obsessive or super up in my feels but I'm not. But I like that I'm not. I like that I'm lowkey or at least relatively about this. But that doesn't mean that when I think about him I don't smile or laugh at something stupid he's done or said bc I do. Ya girl DO. I think bc he's so chill and it has literally been a week that I'm like nah it's g. Plus I know how he feels, so it feels vastly different from anything I've had before and so I'm not constantly insecure or second guessing. Granted I'm more confident now so there's that too but still. Still you know?

I know it hasn't been long but we're going out on our fourth date!! On Sunday to the zoo and I'm so excited. Yeah alright I'm done gushing now. Life's nice ATM

I'm like 90% certain that he's crushing on me, which is hilarious because his girlfriend is crazy controlling and I'm a married woman.

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I just got my first RN position offered to me. Holy Shit

Straight up had a nervous breakdown earlier this week, it was actually catalysed, yet not related to the game I was playing when it happened. I haven't played since, which is a shame because I really enjoy it normally, sorry for the keyboard. I've done fuck all these last few days and I don't have any desire to do anything.

Except maybe listen to you talk. It's been a while. I think about you more than you probably think I do and more than I'm willing to admit. I can't help it though. You gave me all my happiest moments, all my fondest memories. It's hard to not reflect on those for support when things get this way. I hope you understand that.

If we're being honest, I'm really not up for a discussion board assignment w/ my classmates where one of the prompts is: "are rape victims ever more responsible than the perpetrators for their rape?" but I guess it's happening. Hashtag triggered for the A.

I dont understand why I'm feeling so sad all of a sudden. Like the feeling of missing someone is so magnified. But I don't get it at all, where is this coming from?

I love my best friends, I do, but they're incredibly unhelpful when it comes to this self-publishing thing. I've been asking them to read what I have so far of Wonderland for months and they fake excitement but don't do anything about it. So I'm on my own.

It's a hard truth, coming to grips with the fact that when your bedroom is stacked with shit and in the worst order possible, you feel the most safe/comfortable.

My heart is broken. :(

I'm afraid.

Why do you have to spoil everything?

I'm so sad, I miss this past weekend so much. I miss Aiden, I miss the puppies, I miss everyone

idk what say to you. Idk what you even want... Like what? I ended our friendship years ago because how much of a bad friend you are and it used to be that every few months you would cry to me on the internet about how everyone treats you badly and i was the only true friend but you only did that when you fucked yourself over and fucked your other friends over in the process. You've never owned up to any mistakes let alone apologized and now you want me to forgive you? Hm, idk. It's tough to forgive someone who manipulates others the way you did.

Truthfully, I'm not okay.

Adam Driver yelling is my alter ego.

Okay, I had a.... good... afternoon.
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god
I forgot how whimsical Ragnarok was
Ouch my everything

We could have Star Trek levels of advancement and peace, everyone living together getting every need taken care of, everyone strong and happy and friendly. But we'd have to start sharing and there are far too many adults out there who clearly missed the first two years of school.

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Don't.