Juliette felt this stinging of tears in her eyes for what seemed to be the hundredth time that hour alone. She wrapped her arms around his neck, resting her cheek on top of his head. Everything was so surreal to her in that moment. She could remember sixth months ago lying in bed, listening to her son wail his head off. She was crying right along with him, hoping and praying to whomever it was that would listen. She just wanted her husband home. Wanted her rock to be back at her side. Wanted everything normal again. But she knew it wouldn’t.
In time she had gotten used to the empty pit in her stomach, something that even John couldn’t fill. Without Alex around, there had always been a void missing. Sure, John was a helping hand, a friendly ear to listen, and her shoulder to cry on when his sister—her best friend—wasn’t around… But John wasn’t Alex, and he never would be.
Yet here she was, cradling the wounded man in front of her. His touch felt the same. That was something that she was more than grateful for. She breathed in the familiar scent of the man sitting in front of her. The soft scuffling noises of her toddler playing across the tile. The air was still. And she was grateful.
“I’m so fucking glad you’re home,” She breathed into his hair, a small hiccup catching itself in her throat. “I’ve been so miserable without you… I was starting to get so scared that you not being around was going to be a normal thing.”
Her mind felt static at that thought. Thinking about not having him around for her future made her sick. Thinking about not having him around to watch his son grow up made her sick. But it was all calm now. He was home and that was all that mattered. She knew there were things that were going to need to be worked out, and things that needed explaining… But that would all come in due time. For now, she was enjoying his presence. “I love you,” she whispered before leaning down to kiss him once more.
In time she had gotten used to the empty pit in her stomach, something that even John couldn’t fill. Without Alex around, there had always been a void missing. Sure, John was a helping hand, a friendly ear to listen, and her shoulder to cry on when his sister—her best friend—wasn’t around… But John wasn’t Alex, and he never would be.
Yet here she was, cradling the wounded man in front of her. His touch felt the same. That was something that she was more than grateful for. She breathed in the familiar scent of the man sitting in front of her. The soft scuffling noises of her toddler playing across the tile. The air was still. And she was grateful.
“I’m so fucking glad you’re home,” She breathed into his hair, a small hiccup catching itself in her throat. “I’ve been so miserable without you… I was starting to get so scared that you not being around was going to be a normal thing.”
Her mind felt static at that thought. Thinking about not having him around for her future made her sick. Thinking about not having him around to watch his son grow up made her sick. But it was all calm now. He was home and that was all that mattered. She knew there were things that were going to need to be worked out, and things that needed explaining… But that would all come in due time. For now, she was enjoying his presence. “I love you,” she whispered before leaning down to kiss him once more.
October 10th, 2016 at 08:58pm