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Matt

I had no idea why I was so nervous about this show. I guess maybe because James was watching. We started the concert off with Beast and the Harlot. It was an adrenaline pumping song, we had girls dancing in the back, and the fans were going crazy. I would every so often steal glances of James...and Chole.

Matt
We were about halfway through the show and I was sweating my ass off. I walked over to the side stage and pulled my jacket off while they were switching stuff around. The next song we were doing was Seize the Day and I knew I was going to have to try and not cry. We hadn't performed this song live yet, and now that we were going to, I didn't know if I was going to be able to handle it.

Matt
I was surprised that I made it through Seize the Day. After that song, it was smooth sailing, and I could see James's eyes getting heavy. Finally once the show was over, I walked backstage, seeing him hold his arms out for me, I smiled. "Are you tired?" I asked him as I took him from Chloe. He rested his head on my shoulder, and I knew for a fact he was going to fall asleep on me.

Matt

" Thank you," I said with a smile. It was difficult for me to make it through that song this time, but I knew it was going to be even harder when that day got closer.

"We don't have to leave until 6 in the morning," I told her. "I'd love to get to spend one more night with this little guy." I knew James was already asleep by the slight snore that was coming from him. "The rest of the guys will probably be out partying all night and sleep on the bus. I'd rather get to spend some more time with James and spend the rest of the night thanking you and telling you how much I appreciate you doing this for me I said with a slight smile

Matt
I rolled my eyes at Jimmy's comment. Punching him in the arm I got a "What was that for," I looked at him dead in the eyes. "I'm sure I am the absolute last guy she wants to have sex with," I said to him before walking onto the bus. I let out a quiet sigh and I quickly changed into some clean clothes and grabbed my leather jacket and stood by the bus, waiting for Chloe.

Matt
"I am too. I doubt any place is open, I'm a decent cook, if you want I'll cook us something once we get to your place." I told her. I buckled my seatbelt and looked backm as my son who was sleeping peacefully. This was going to be our longest tour. We were going to be gone all the way up until the end of November.

Matt
I smiled lightly and got out of the car before going to the back. I got James out of his car seat and closed the door before locking them. If there was anything that he and I had in common, it's that he was a heavy sleeper, just like me. I walked up to the front door and followed Chloe inside.

Matt
Once I tucked James in, I made my way downstairs. Looking through the kitchen, I found some raw hamburger meat, I grabbed that along with some canned corn and a package of mushrooms. I began to quickly throw the burgers together, I was starving, and I knew Chloe was too.

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I smiled at her comment and continued cooking. "Just some coffee. If you have any," I told her with a smile. I loved coffee. It was what kept me running. Especially when I was looking over James. It was the only thing that helped me keep up with the kid.

Matt
"Coffee is coffee. I live off of the stuff. You practically have to if you're watching over James. He never stops. I mean never.' I said as I began to dish up our plates. I used to be horrible at cooking, but ever since James c and along, I had to do better. I had to make sure he ate. "Hopefully everything tastes okay," I told her.