I've continuously attempted to find 1000 reasons to smile, since not too long ago I found it difficult to anymore. Not too long ago I met someone absolutely amazing. My last entry was about how I felt about the situation with the person I idiotically gave four chances. The day after he talked to me all day, keeping me company. I'm lucky enough to date this person now. I mean, how would I ever have...

Sometimes all you need is a little cry. I'm not upset, I'm happy for a new beginning, My feelings are obviously a little hurt. We saved a friendship though. I've mentioned this person probably many times before, how I fell in love with him, he hurt me three times. This time we've decided that we can probably never have a relationship, just always be friends. My heart aches with all these little...

Happy Thursday! Today's reason to smile: Mrs. Davis (my health teacher) finally told off theidiots who sit in the back of the room. I'm a junior in high school in a freshmen class. It's theworst! There's like a group of five people who sit in back. Because they're the "bad ass kids"haha. Well my teacher is too much of a push over and takes their rude crap.She asked nicely four times "Please just...

Today was a dreadful cold uniform day. Reason number two for smiling today wasthat I finally stood up for myself against the girl who always brings me down. Constantly shetells me I'm dumb, less talented than her, fat, not as pretty as her, and plenty of other wonderfulthings to bring down my self esteem. Not this time. No way! I stood up to her and told her how itis. How she can't say anything...

So, in my last entry; I was extremely upset over a guy. I still am. I am also in my own personalbattle with depression. I love being happy, I'm an optimistic person almost always. Too keep myoptimism I've decided to write 1000 things about what makes me smile everyday.Instead of being upset every day I'll write out what makes me smile.1000 reasons to smile, number one. My friends. I aspire to be a...

Well in a number of different entries I've talked about this certain person who has hurt menow the 3rd or 4th time. Well here we go again. Had my feelings hurt. He now has agirlfriend after today, after sorta just being friends with benefits. We talked aboutrelationships together, his answer went along the lines of "I don't want to hurt you to makeyou hate me forever." I should have known this...

Well it's midnight, I can't sleep. There's so much bothering me right now. It keeps making me upset. Of course it has to do something with a guy, who I have mentioned before. I like him as a person so much, I'm almost afraid to ask if we're even going to possibly ever have a relationship.I've already decided to ask him when we hang out. But, I think I'm not going to like his answer. He's just too...

I just feel so sad and upset. I hardly know why. My mom and dad are fighting a lot and maybe that's part of the reason why? Or the fact the guy I like a lot took a joke the wrong way. Now he's mad at me ignoring me.I don't know why I'm even crying about this! I've through so much worse. I feel like crap. I feel alone. But on the other hand..I feel hopeful. Everything is bitter-sweet. Times like...

So it's been a few months since my big break up after a relationship that lasted only one year. Which just so happened to just be a big joke. I haven't logged onto Mibba in a while, so in fear of creating a journal entry that's exactly like my last one I'm not going to go into detail.I feel sort of lost and confused right now. I feel like my views on life are changing everyday. I don't believe in...

Ah yes band camp. Marching out in the sun for seven hours a day. Very much worth it because we have an amazing show. Our songs are Cold Hearted Snake, Bicycle Race, Boogie Down, and Get it On.Recently I have been getting sick of a lot of people in band. I find most of them being stuck up jerks. Like at the end of the day today a couple a people we're too dumb to realize it's not a good idea to...

Well everything started getting bad a few months ago. How I guess I've been changing yet everyone I know except for him begs to differ. He left me at the worst possible time. We had a one year relationship and he left me for some girl I thought was my friend. He asked her out two days after leaving me.Yeah, because he loved me so much! Ever since he left me I've felt like crap. Not because I even...

I don't really know why today is one of the best days ever. I feel so happy. It must be the Christmas spirit? Haha. But today was such a nice day. I spent all day with my boyfriend; He just...I don't know makes me the happiest person alive. I'm so happy to have him in my life. Even though sadly he'll be leaving me for basic training in the Army over the summer. We're making the best of the time we...

It's 11:30PM now and I still can't sleep and my boyfriend spent all night talking to other people today so him and I didn't get any chance to have any conversation today at all what-so-ever. That's annoying me. I'm lonely tonight. No one talks to me anymore. Happy Thanksgiving. I'm going to spend my vacation alone again how fun is that? I'm just so excited for the next 4 days off...not.I wish I...

Well today I was school shopping everything seemed ok until I got home. When I got home some lady called the house saying she wanted to talk to my mom. So my mom called her. My bio dad across the country just died. I am so upset.I don't know much, but it seems like he died in his sleep from a heart attack. I hope to learn more.I talked to his new wife Mandy. She was so nice. But she made me cry so...

Well I went to this leadership camp for ROTC which is Jr. Air Force. And it's a military like environment to create teenagers into the leaders of tomorrow. Well I couldn't wait for the 5 day thing to start. We went to a National Guard base up north about 20 minutes away from where we live. And every day was alright. The program brought four schools together including my own. And might I say the...

I am so tired of the B.S. going on. I know I'm just a jerk sometimes. But some people just really make me mad. For example my parents. Nothing I do for them is good enough. And to be honest I don't really give a crap. I'm just tired of being taken for granted.It's not that I don't love the people I'm mad at right now. It's just that you really made me angry this time. I mean how the heck am I...