...And things have changed.I'm not that absolutely joyful little girl you used to see anymore. I'm a bad, terrible teenage B*TCH. And do you know why, family?Because of you guys.Hell, all mom ever does anymore is just sit on her a*s and b*tch and complain. That's all she does. That sister of mine hasn't talked to me in days, and I haven't seen my brothers in months. How do you think I FEEL about...

..I'm pretty sure that most of you just clicked on this because the title is a line from a song.But, maybe not. I don't know...That's not what I want to talk about.Anyways, that title actually means something. It wasn't just a con [Or whatever you want to call it] to get you to click on this.It's a meaning."Can't stop, won't stop."~~Dear Ellie...I don't care what you tell me. I don't care how to...

Am I proud? No.Am I addicted? Yes.Do I want to stop? Of course.Can I stop? I don't think so....I've started cutting again.Things have been so terrible lately. I've been going through a lot of relationship sh*t, family drama, and of course, my friends are mad at me again, and they won't tell me why. My entire world just feels like it's crashing down on my shoulders, and it's been that way for weeks...

I've got to write this fast before my parents get home, so if it's crap, I'm sorry.School ends tomorrow.It would of ended today, but, you know.Snow days.Thank god.But you know Chris?Remember him?He lied, about everything. He lied about the cuts, he lied about his parents, he lied about his sisters that were aparentally making him feel like crap...I don't understand why somebody would lie about...

I am totally completely in freaking.. love with Christopher Drew.And Nevershoutnever, because Christopher Drew is amazing and I love him.^^^ Addicted.And it's the only song that I can sing successfully <3"Did it hurt when you fell from heaven? Did it hurt, just to know.. I was right here awaiting? Did you know, do you know-- It was love, from the first time we...

..After a week, but still, it feels like forever for me.So, a lot of crap has been going on lately.On Friday [I think] I started dating Jules, because he's really nice and tall and cute and plays drums...But then I found out that he makes the fuck out with every freaking girl at the skating rink, so I dumped him on Thursday [The day I found out]Then later that day I started dating Ian because I...

Em--I heard you in math, and I heard your friends too. I heard every single thing you said. You didn't think I heard you, you thought I was off in my own little world, working on the problem.But I wasn't.I was just pretending.I heard my name spoken by your stupid friends voice, and I automatically picked up my listening and I pretended to work.And yes, I heard every single thing you and your...

I mean dayum.Every day, she gives me at least four pieces of candy.And she's so evil...She's obviously planning on fattening me up so she can eat me.• • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • •My day was pretty darn good :)Homeroom-- Talked to Mandy, one of my best friends :DSocial Studies-- Eh.You know.Math-- Talked to Julian a bunch.Health-- We got to listen to...

I got my braces on today, and I hate them.They're so annoying, it just kills me.I can't eat anything, and my mouth is seriously always dry, and it hurts like a mother fucker.And... I think Collin was actually just nice to me.So I was just on facebook, and he was on facebook too, and so then he started to talk to me.(I just copied this right off of chat)Collin -- HiMe-- Hi.Collin-- What are you...

Chris has had a lot of problems in the past, with his emotions and stuff.I always used to cheer him up, multiple times a day.But now, hes not going to tell me when he's sad or hurt, because I'm not his girlfriend anymore.And I know that the other girls all think he's weird, and that they don't give a fuck about how he feels, they just want to date him because he's cute (And trust me, I've heard...

..Because now, I don't think I'm ever going to get to, ever again.I just got broken up with.Like... this is what happened.I was on the bus, and he texted me this---I'm sorry.And so me, being scared, typed---Well why?And so he said--*Insert a bunch of random symbols and foreign letters here*And so I'm like---...what?And he's like---I feel horrible....And so I'm like---Well why?And so he said---I...

I'm just so mad, because Kenna really pissed me off yesterday at lunch.This is what all went down-- (if your following me on Tumblr you already know about this)We were talking about how in some weird country if you stick your hand out with all your fingers up, it means you have five fathers and that’s like the worst insult ever. And then, Kenna was likeBUT I ONLY HAVE ONE DADDY!And then I’m...

So, I've had the same Facebook profile picture forever so I decided to change it, and I really like what it is now, but then Ian just had to comment on it and he's all like-- Kinda scary..... hahahahah. [not trying to be mean]Even if he wasn't trying to be mean it still made me all sad, because I guess I'm just to scary for Facebook.:lBut ey.BABY, I WAS BORN THIS WAY :PSo uhm, yeah. I haven't...

Here's what's been happening.Lips? Still virgins.Long story.So I got to the snowboarding hills and I was really scared so I hid in the lodge for like... an hour, and then I told Chris I was there when I had calmed down a bit. He was on the bunny hill, and he asked where I was. I told him I was on the deck, and then he came out, and we talked for around half an hour, and then he's like--Wait.....

This journal will probably make you go insane.Rant #1Collin, you sick, twisted, bastard.I don't ever know why I used to love you so damn much.Every fucking day, in Language Arts, you come up to me, and you make fun of me for my red hair and those four little tiny scars on my wrist.I'm so fucking sick of you.So, I have red hair.So, maybe I have a few scars. And sure, your the first person to know...

...You heard me.So I was talking to Chris a few days ago, and we were having a completely normal conversation, when Ellie texted me and she's like--KISS CHRIS ALREADY, YOU CRAZY ASS MOTHER F*CKER...Well maybe not exactly like that :)But yes, she did tell me to kiss him already.And that was AT LEAST the SIXTH "Kiss Chris" I had gotten that day, so I'm like--BITCH, YOU KNOW WHAT. I'M JUST GONNA TELL...

So, I really need somebody's help because I need a story layout.I think I'll just give you the story to read, and then you can kind of make a layout out of that? I don't know, I think that would just be a good idea.So... try to have it make sense for this story.TrembleThank you :)...I need more words :lSo, questions.1.) Favorite songs? Spin (We The Kings) Viva La Gloria? [Little Girl] (Greenday)...

HULLO.I think this story is pretty darn awesome, yes I do :DI'm working on it right now, actually. You know... postin' chapters... :)http://stories.mibba.com/read/358433/Tremble/And guys, I NEED a layout for that story. I need one. Please help me out here.But the point of this journal? Holy bazinga (I love that word <3) I have IMPROVED.~;~;~;~;~;~;~;~;~;~So, yeah. Read it.And...Brendon is the...

So, I have a list of secrets. And it's pretty long, too. So brace yourself :P1. Sometimes, when I'm home alone, I go into my room, put on my white dress, cowgirl boots, and I pretend I'm Taylor Swift.2. I love singing, no matter what I say :P3. I'm sick of my "friends" that keep telling me I can't do a thing.4. I love Disney movies from the 90's.5. I think Twilight actually has an okay-ish...

Guys... oh my god.Oh my effing god.That's all I can effing say.Chris did inhalants last night.What the hell.Oh my effing lord.What the hell.I'm just so...Sad?Angry?Confused?What the hell am I right now?I don't really know.Why would he do that?He is one of the only effing reasons I even wake up in the morning.And he does this?I'm not mad at him, but at the same time I am.I just know that I'm crying...