That's what my guidance counselor told me. That pissed me off. I don't live with my dad. I never got a lot of the physical abuse, verbal abuse, sure, but he never really beat me. I have witnessed him physically abuse my step mom and my brothers and sister, though. Anyway, I go on this whole rant to my guidance counselor and she tells me that I can't let this affect my school work. Because of...

And he actually responded fairly nicely and sounded sincere in his apology. I haven't heard from my dad in almost six months. I went over to his house on June 14 and he hadn't called or e-mailed me since. I was originally waiting for the 6 month mark. I figured after he goes 6 months without calling me I can be really pissed. Of course, I already have plenty of reasons to hate him (see last...

Okay, so about three weeks ago I went to my dad's house for the first time in 9 months. So, it's like really bad there; he's very abusive. Physically and verbally. I live with my mom and I used to go see my dad every other weekend. I never liked going there. It's just so horrible; seeing my siblings being beat and my dad and step-mom constantly fighting.My dad has never hit me or called me names,...

Hi! Happy St. Patrick's Day. I like totally forgot it was today. I walked in to school and my friend was all in green and wearing pins and a clover necklace. And I was like WTF is she gonna dress like this all week 'til it's St. Patty's Day. THen it dawned on me that it was St. Parick's Day.Wow, I just backspaced about a thousand times... I am typing really bad tonight....I think I have history...

Wow, I haven't written a journal in forever.... lolSo, I had a pretty good day today. I got an amazing note from one of my friends, it had pretty pictures in it. lol I have basketball in gym. It was pretty awesome. I love basketball.Anyway, so at lunch today my friend Tom was weirdly hyper... And basically he was acting like a 4 year old, except for the fact that every other word out of his mouth...

So my mother and I just watched a movie from National Geographic called Inside the Living Body. Let me tell you it was freaking depressing. It goes from birth to death. In your 20's you are happiest than it just goes downhill. The movie was just like if you were born in America today it is likely you will live until 77.77. I was hoping to live til my 80's or 90's, not 77. I was thinking is it...

I haven't talked to my real dad in forever. I think Christmas is the last time I talked to him. He's kind of an asshole. He gets my step-siblings and my half-brother so much stuff. What do I get? Nothing. I don't know why he treats my them better than me. Well he's mean to them. Not Larry, though. Larry is my little brother. My dad and my step-mom's kid. I suppose that's why he's treated the...

Ugh. I'm tired and I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. Anyway, I have so many problems lately. I want to talk to someone so bad, but none of my friends are online. Plus, technically my problems are about someone else, so I'm not allowed to tell anyone anyway... Why is everything always so confusing?My life. Everything seams wrong. Well, I have so much to be thankful for. And I am grateful for...

Okay, so my computer had a really bad virus on it a while ago so I couldn't download any new music. I finally got my new computer hooked up and I want to download some new songs from iTunes.I had a whole list on my parents computer, but my dad deleted it. I'm an idiot and forgot like half the stuff I wanted to download.Anyway, if you guys have any suggestions that would be great. My favorite band...

I broke my arm. Friday after my halloween party, I fell off a chair I was standing on and I broke my arm. I guess it was technically Saturday, since it was like a little after midnight. My mother was too tired to take me to a hospital and my dad just made fun of me for being a baby. None of us thought I broke my arm falling less than 2 feet. Anyway I broke it, I broke it pretty bad, apparently....

I am happy today. It's unbelievable. I haven't been happy in a while. Lately, I've actually been quite depressed. Sure, I'll laugh with my friends and smile occasionally, but I haven't been truely happy in such a long time.Today was awesome. The worse thing that happened today was getting hit in the head with a basketball in gym. It fucking hurt! lol! But otherwise my day was great.I expected a...

I've hated gym class ever since I was a little kid. I especially hate having gym every day first period. Currently I'm taking tennis with 2 of my friends. Surprisingly, I am enjoying myself. My friends and I just laugh at how much we suck at tennis.Today was weird though. Our teacher ditched us. We waited like 10 minutes until another gym teacher told our class to go get changed, since we were...

At lunch today I sat staring into space. I normally talk, laugh, and act like an idiot, but today the only people at my table were me and my two guy friends, who happen to be just a little bit immature. I thought back to other times in the same room with my friends, when Tom exploded the water bottle, pizza parties, dances. I stared at the garbage can a few yards in front of me (I don't normally...

So...high school... Fun, right? You have to deal with peer pressure, crushes, and friend drama. Gotta love the teenage years. So, I don't mind school. I don't really like it, but it's tolerable. I don't see my friends much, though. I'm not that popular so I don't have alot of friends in my classes. People aren't really mean to me I'm just kinda invisible.This year I'm taking honors world history...