Why? Why do you you always have to be the one who hurts me the most? You dont even know youre doing it...why cant i move on and be normal? Why are you still haunting my every dream? Why the hell do you get to move on and be happy? I feel like i mean nothing to you? Why do you sit there and write that shit that you know i hate? when you know ill read it? Especially because i am the one who feels...

Do you wanna know something? Honestly i have never been more in love with anyone as i was with you. And honestly i cant move on...I pretend im fine and that things are going great for me but im still filled with sadness...the sadness of losing you and our future together. For the past two months i cry myself to sleep betcha didnt know that. It still feels like my heart is breaking and yeah ive got...

So yeah as I'm sure some of you know I have not updated in a while. I just havent been feeling it lately, usually when anything happens I want to write about it but, lately I havent really wanted to share my entire life with people.The other night I set my blanket up outside and I was on the phone with my man and we were watching the stars. It was so amazing, just looking up at all those thousnads...

I HATE this....I miss you so much, you don't even know. It's like I can't make myself happy. The only time I'm ever really happy is when you are around. And lately, that hasn't been very much. It's not your fault. Not really. More like mine, I knew better but continued to do it. It's like I just got caught up in the moment, like I always do when I'm with you. I don't know why I can't behave myself...

I honestly don't see what the big deal about writing multiple journals a day is. I mean how is it any different from other people writing just one? I mean really? I don't even know how to explain what I'm trying to say...It all goes on the same page and there is already hundreds of journals so what is a few more? This is after all, a writing site, so why are so many people getting crap on how much...

So hopefully this journal has correct grammar and spelling. I am going to apologize to all the people i was rude and mean to last night. I'm big enough to admit when I was wrong and yes i took it overboard. However, I do not need any more negative comments. Yes I am sorry about all the rude and pointless things I said last night and for that I do apologize. I understand that it was uncalled for. I...

yes indeed darling i stole your title. (:My only wish was to find my own prince charming, someone who would sweep me off my feet on a daily basis. Someone I would fall even more in love with as the days go by. And baby I've found that with you.Now my only wish is to spend every perfect day with you by my side forever and ever. And i know that no matter what happens we will get through it together...

So today I went to the park with some friends and ty (: It was really hott! So in a moment of spontaneous thinking, I decided to go swimming...the only problem was that the pool doesnt open until saturday. So what did I do? I jumped into the creek and went swimming with all of my clothes on...Nobody would join me except for ty because he is a wonderful boyfriend. As I was splashing around in the...

Haha soooo today was a very productive day. I sat on the phone with my amazingly wonderful boyfriend, playing the same video game. I played for an hour or two but eventually quit because people kept hatin' on the wet box. Most of you probally have nooo idea what I'm talking bout but its a pretty epic game! Hahaha me and ty also had a good long laugh about how color blindness doesnt neccessarily...

Tyler Michael,I want you to know i lovee you sooooo freakin much.You are absolutely wonderful. I love how i can talk about anything with you and not feel uncomfortable or stupid. And i mean annnything. Like our conversations last night for example (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: And i want you to know that i am sorry for anyone who has hurt you in the past and to all those girls that broke your heart, well they...

soooo i could not have a more amazing boyfriend. He is soooo sweet. He just read me the poem he wrote me and it was sooo sweet that it made me cry. We are sitting on the phone and he just sighed so I asked him why and he said nothing just thinking so i asked him about what and he said how i want to spend forever with you. (:(:(:(:(: I told him i wanted to as well and he said i hope your...

I freaking love my boyfriend!!! He is absolutely without a doubt The Best Thing to have ever happened to me. I love everything about him, his smell, his smile, his taste. I love the way he looks at me like I'm his entire world....I know he's mine. I had the most amazing, wonderfully fantastic day with him yesterday (; There is nothing I love better than spending the day with the guy of my dreams.I...

So I just got back from an AMAZING day with my AMAZING boyfriend. I had a blast with him today. It was beautiful outside with the sun shining and a slight breeze. And let me tell you my boy was looking mighty fine today. I seriously couldn't keep my eyes off of him for more than five minutes. lolWe went and saw Iron Man 2. It was a pretty good movie (: We had Panera for lunch, i kept noticing a...

I was just going through my graduation cards, writing the thank you letters and i came accross the one from my boyfriend and as i read i just couldnt help but smile. I wanna know how i became so lucky? I am practically engaged to the guy every girl wants, he holds the doors for me, always opens my door, pulls my chair out for me, insists on paying, and not once has he ever pressured me into doing...

When i first met you, i never thought i stood a chance. People would tell me not to waste my time on you, told me you were a jerk, a manwhore. The first thing i noticed about you was that amazing smile of yours that completely takes my breath away. I remember being to shy to go up and talk to you. But that night we were all sitting around outside and you started talking in your brittish accent and...