A lot of times I wish my mother didn't care about me. I wish she didn't pay attention to what I wore or how I do my makeup I want a normal mom who loves me as a person but, is a complete workaholic.I hate everything. I hate school. I hate my parents. I hate my life. Why do I get the feeling nobody gets me? That nobody understands how I try so fucking hard but, don't get shit in return? I have no...

I remember my most depressed time in my life... It chills down my spine to think about it but then again I smile because I have improved. I was in 8th grade. Nothing I did seemed right. I was constantly fatigued and all I did was sleep all day all night. I was tired of being screamed at for every little thing and an obsessive cutter. My goal was to go deeper and deeper every day. I recall taking a...

I don't know why I try in particular. I know my family doesn't want me but, if I leave then what will I have? Nothing... I can't do anything right. They think i'm this person that is as ignorant as the next person. But, if I wasn't here they would be sorry. Maybe they actually wouldn't care, "The lonliness will stay with me, and hold me till I fall asleep." Those lyrics describe exactly how I...

He is sooo... I like him... He is so gorgeous. He knows I like him. He doesn't know why i'll bet. This bitch Christine got in the way. I don't like her now. I'm pissed. I never expected this. I liked him, I was talking to my friend Kaye Lynsy and then Christine was eavsdropping and told him nasty things i NEVER said... It made me sick to know that. I wanted to throw up and cry. But, I didn't let...

It's funny how the only person I really looked forward to seeing every day at school is now out of my life. I won't ever forget the name. I know that in his eyes I am nothing special. But, will he ever learn how fond I was of him? I put so much into one person. I know people think I'm weird because I stick my heart onto one person instead of playing the field and going out with a whole bunch of...