two girlsjewel and stormthey date , jewel is happy , storm is happymom comes in and messes it up , we will never know if it was really jewel or her mom . Both people are hurt . Both have been hurt , both have been thru way worse, both are strong , both will make it . i love both of youhold me unill you open your eyes to the dream we made come true . i love my dear love . she will be mine . she...

the truth of it all is simple. Im trying to force myself to do things that i think will end up being easier than they reallky are. I started this stupid shit now i have to clean up the mess. The question is when will i try? When will i attempt to stop what im doing. Yea i lie, i steal, i cheat, and at the end of the day i dont give a damn about any of it. i just do what i do as long as it pleases...

I'm so done with all the drama . i dot care about the rumors any longer. i cant trust anyone besides my stormykins , rayna babe, and brooki boo. I no longer understand how my dad finds everything out . i really don't . he says i'm a embarrassment and a pathetic whore . well it no longer bothers me. My boyfriend is a .......actually let me not even begin to talk about him right now. But i have been...

So i found him.... finally i found him. The one that i want so badly but cant have .... you see that's me i don't want you until l i cant have you. And that's him.... see its my fault if i would have used my heart instead of my head this time maybe i would be happy, maybe i wouldn't be going into depression ...... maybe i wouldn't be starving myself. YEA i know its wrong but i don't care anymore....

so everyone thinks im OK because i pretend ... because i don't tell them , because i have a good life so they think. No one really knows me, what they know is a lie. they don't know how im emotionally done and feel like im die-ing from inside out. how im starting to give up and just wishing something would happen. most of the time my heart hurts ... for allot of reasons but no one knows ... hell...

IM SO NOT FUCKING OKAY..................... i lied ..... i lied..... and once again i lied again. its happening again that stupid thing i do all the fucking time. it cant happen not here not now not again not ever....... and this time i cant go anywhere . i cant run or hide FUCK ...I CANT EVEN SPEAK ABOUT IT. so what do i do now when i cant actually do anything about it? so i just deal with...

RIGHT NOW# #mso why or what was the point for you to say that ... and why did you shout it ....i don't care anymore so but whatever you being a little unnecessary i don't know what any of that was about but im not sweating it .....................A LITTLE AFTERso brook and Donovan are dating....... yea ...... happy for her ......no i am ..... it was just weird, its like i dont care people keep...

soo im really confuzed on what to do im happy , mad , and sad all at the same time. i dont know what i want anymore so im really just for the moment yea that's not good but guess what im gone and im not coming back so i could care less whay everyone thinks you do you ima do me and im happy so deal with it im tired of people and theer negitive energy im so done so when you see me acting a way you...

u think the problem is the talent show, well its not , i could care less. its how YOU are acting you shut everyone out and that's not gonna help. i don't know what you want anymore. people want to help you I want to help you but you don't want it so fine whatever yea i don't know anything cuz you WONT TELL ME! i never wanted to hurt you but whatever im Done. yea you don't want people in OK well...

I don't care anymore , i give up. All this cuz of him really? wow you know what forget it , stupid clingy freak. Lemme go deeper ...... so me and this guy had a dateing thing on-off yea that sorta thing so me and him still like each other even tho we couldent date . weeks go by we still act like a couple i have this wonderful friend i mean she was just WONDERFUL , her name was storm. so we were...