We haven't been torn apart yet.The guest list has been done again, people have been took off and people have been added and tomorrow Jim is taking a chunk of the invitations while I'm at work. After work I will take a chunk to my family. This will consist of sitting with my gran for a few hours and hoping everyone can come and pick them up from her house.The venue has been booked. It was the...

Yup.On the 6th of November at a Rise Against gig my boyfriend got down on one knee and proposed to me. Honestly I've never been so happy, knowing he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, even after all the crap that has happened between us, makes me grin like an idiot. I love him, I love him so much that sometimes I just don't know what to do.It's on facebook now. This seems the acceptable...

I'm giving it to charity.All it except enough to cover my head.I remember pulling my hair out and being so self-conscious and that was only chunks of hair. I can't imagine how it must feel to lose all your hair so I'm giving my hair to a charity that turn it into wigs for children who loose their hair due to cancer treatment.I'm looking for sponsors now, it costs a lot of money to makes these wigs...

But I am. I woke up with this wierd feeling in my stomach and I can't stop shaking. I don't think I'm ill though.My boyfriend still isn't home and he has turned his phone off. He hs no money but I have a feeling that if he comes home he won't be sober. I'm annoyed, I asked him not to do this when I had work in a few hours.My gut says he's cheating, I can think of a few girls that he was with that...

I left college a few years ago because I couldn't afford to stay there. My parents were offering no kind of financial support and all my money was tied away.So, since then, I've gone from job to job just hoping that I liked something enough to stick. And although I found people that may have been worth sticking around for, no job has made me feel like that.Here are my issues though.The finances...

Up until yesterday.We were fighting in the kitchen, which has become a very regular thing, I can't remember what he said but I threw a towel at him. I didn't mean to but I hit him in the face. I walked off before he could say anything else I walked away.He shouted at me. Really angry scary shouting.Then he came running after me and grabbed me by the shoulder and pushed me to the wall. I tried to...

I really want to dye my hair but i'm allergic to most brands and come out with hideous blisters on my head whenever I use them.I read that you can use lemon but I don't want to dry our my hair plus I work nights, so I don't see enough sun for it to work. I also read that honey will work but I don't want to try before I know if its any good.Has anyone tried it?Also if you have pictures that would...

I've been offered a new job.It's only a call centre job but they look after the staff better than where I am now, there are more career prospects, the pay is better, the hours are better and it's around the corner from my Grans house.It's also less than two weeks till I move house.I'm scared things are going to blow up soon but I'm trying to ignore that for now.I've finally started writing again,...

I found a fiver in my packet of fags. That must be the drunk way to make the sober me more happy.I need to clear my head though.I have a job interview on Wednesday. This scares me, at least two hours travelling there and back, not including traffic. The staff turnover is pretty high, I cant risk the job being unstable cause I just rented a new house.A proper house with a garden and a shower and a...

That's how I know it was a good night. I don't remember all of it, my boyfriend had to piece some things together for me but I didn't do anything stupid.There's a lot of love bites on me though, a couple on my back and a big one on my chest. Means he tried to tell if I was awake or not, the chest one doesn't need to be explained.My head feels fuzzy though, I was fine until I got on the bus, then...

I'm making a few promises to myself that I'm going to try and keep in the New Year. I always make them and I never keep them so this year I'm going to try to make slightly different ones to see if it makes any difference.I promise that that was the last time I smoke this year and I promise to not buy any more.I promise to be out of my horrific flat and be living somewhere better. I promise to...

Ok, so, I'm not working Christmas Eve.This means that I will probably be working New Year's eve and Boxing day. My problem with this is that if we work New Years we are expected to dress in fancy dress. I work in a casino, there are a lot of drunk men and a lot of perverts, plus, there's free champaign going around, every one will be even more drunk.I want an outfit that won't make me look...

I'm not really sure if a blog is the right place for this but I'm sure someone will tell where is.But anyway.Back in the days of very early mibba when fan fiction was all new and shiny to me I read this story. It wasn't on mibba though, it was on I'm not okay. The story was an my chem fanfic.It was about a girl who has no memory of her past life, Frank finds her and looks after her. I think it...

I've only been back at my job for a couple of weeks, its something stupid like 8 days, but I already need to get the hell out of here for a few days.I really hate it here. I hate how rude the other members of staff can be, I hate that the customer's have no respect for females. But mainly I hate that I can't talk about any of this with Jim. His response is just to tell me that I need to cheer up...

Eugh.I was such a mess. I couldn't think straight for most of it, hence that stupid blog. Alas it is my last night at work tonight so I can come home and sleep and sort myself out.I need to go to the doctors and and dentist but I have no money or time.I took about 13 grand off this guy at work though so the managers love me. They let me grab some overtime so I sat and sorted cards out for an hour...

But I'm not sure how to use it yet and I don't have anyone on there. I'm filling my phone with apps because my job is killing my soul and I need distracting.I just gave away a few grand though. My boss isn't happy but I think it's funny. although I got most of the maths wrong and I frazzled my brainBut yeah, my job sucks and I need to stay awake.I also need a new box to stand on because mine isn't...

I also need to clear my head a little bit.I'm worried.My period is three weeks late. This is scaring the crap out of me, I don't really have anyone I can talk to beside my boyfriend and he is as clueless as me. I haven't been this late since we've started doing stuff.I've done some home pregnancy tests but they said negative. I don't know how reliable they were so I don't feel any better for it.I...

There is something that feel's very immoral about my job and the company I work for.That isn't my only problem but is a big one, I constantly feel guilty about taking people's money and this is fround upon behaviour.I also hate how far away it is from where I live. I either pay £20 pound (Half a day's wages before tax) to get home or I wait around for two hours to catch the bus, I've waited long...

I'm not sure what other words would describe it. But that may be because I have just finished a terrible shift where I have constantly accused of being a cheat.But yeah, my inspector pulled me aside away from a table of very happy guys to tell me that my top had fallen down again. So I tried to cover myself up a bit and went back to dealing, most of the guys left at this point. But my inspector...

It's just after four here and my bus doesn't come until six so, people of Mibba I need your help.I really can't fall asleep at work, it means lots of mean things that will make me start crying again so please talk to me.I don't care what about I just need to stay awake for another two hours until I can go home.I'll get home at 8 sleep till 5 and then have to leave for work again, this week is...