Tomorrow I leave for Chicago to visit with family for the holidays. I've been to Chicago many times, but really only to visit with family, who live in the suburbs. The only time I really got to walk around the city and see it for myself was maybe eight years ago. This time we're taking two days and seeing it. One for visiting The Art Institute there, because I was accepted there and another for me...

I find it funny how a majority of the people I have had listen to them absolutely detest Green Day with a passion end up liking The Foxboro Hot Tubs, until they find out it is Green Day (or at least Billie Joe).I'll have them give it a listen and they'll be like "Wow, are you in a new band or something?" and then when I say "No, you'll never guess who it is," they make a few worthy guesses and end...

This is going to sound really lame, but I miss them being on tour. Last night I was in San Francisco and drove by The Warfield, the last place I saw them perform, and it brought me down a little bit. Ironic part was that Welcome to Paradise came on the radio.I'm up early and decided to watch that My Night at the Grammy thing that was on CBS. It made me sad because I remember watching the Grammys...

Lately my mind feels congested and my heart feels as if it weighs fifteen tons. Between college classes, working two jobs, a band on the verge of breaking up, looking for an apartment, and a guy that drives me mad.The guy really has me perplexed and the band has me on the brink of ripping their throats out. My drummer is turning into a jackass and bitches about how I haven't done any song writing...

Alright, this is all going to sound a bit high schoolish, but whatever here it goes.At age eighteen I've still never been into a serious relationship, just casual dating really. I didn't want to be tied down to someone throughout high school, and really I'm not a very boy crazy person, there's really only one guy that has really floored me. Anyway, I have this guy friend that I really like and it...

Hope all had a good Halloween. I did. At age eighteen my friends and I went as the Spice Girls. I was Sporty Spice and we had a Baby, Ginger, and Posh. I used my old Spice Girls book bag to put candy in.Anyway, to the point of the journal. Yesterday, I went into San Francisco and swore I saw Billy Corgan a million times, or at least a splitting image of him. When we walked around or were in the...

I just went and saw it with a few friends. If you haven't seen it I highly recommend that you do. I think I have to move Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Rebel Without A Cause, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and Kevin Smith flicks down a notch for it.Watch this and tell me it doesn't look amazing.Across the UniverseI tried posting Youtube, but I couldn't figure it out even with the...

I went to Disney Land this last weekend with my friends family. My friend asked me a question, and I'm weird when it comes to making decisions for a group, because I feel like dictator doing it. Anyway, I said "I don't want to be the dictator, ask Ashley" and my friend, goes "Uh what's a dictator?" Are you fucking kidding me? I was pretty thrown off when I was at a movie party and this one kid and...

Yesterday I was at a movie party with my friends and I made a comment about how one of the guys in the movie looked like John F. Kennedy. All but two people said "Who's that?". I was waiting for them to say something along the lines of "Just kidding", but I just got many puzzled looks. Now keep in mind this is a room filled with high school seniors. I think whether you dig history or not you would...

Great show lined up at Gilman my friends Sex Tape Scandal are playing. You can listen to their music here.Sex Tape ScandalAlso playing is Stiiff Jeans and The Bayonettes.Show starts at 5 P.M.You won't be dissapointed.

I managaed to destroy my "Insomniac" CD today. I didn't realize it was on the floor when I stepped on it and it broke in half. Meh, next to "Kerpunk!" that was my favorite Green Day album. I'm going to go to Amoeba before work and get a new one.

Thus far this week IWent to a sick music camp at UC Berkeley called Power Chord Academy where we had a sick song and combined NWA's "Express Yourself" and the Spice Girls "Wannabe" into one song for a side project. It was the spiffiest thing ever.Recorded our song that reminded us of Hawaiian pirates eating at Johnny Rockets.Made a music video.Had the coolest band name ever: So-crates. If you've...

I'm back from Florida and it's good to be home. I had fun having an eight year old wake me up in the morning insisting I play guitar, a three year old want me to play a game with him I invented called "round and round", humilating my nephew who is a year older then me, and hang out with my sixteen year old sister. And of course visit with my sister.Anyway I went to Universal Studios in Florida...

Take a walk in my shoes for a day.

I think my bands is going to end or take a break, which I'm fine with I'll go back and do solo work for a while. My drummer is the problem. He always slags me down and shit, about my songs, and seems to think I'm an idiot, because I dropped out of high school. Just because I don't have a piece of paper saying I completed high school does not make me a fool. I don't see him writing any marerial for...

If you live near San Francisco and dig Green Day they're going to be playing one of their new songs on the radio on Monday. I heard it on the radio in a gas station today in Berkeley. I can't wait to hear it! It must mean the new album isn't far away from coming out! Maybe before 2008?

Now I have two jobs. I currently work at a Blockbuster in Berkeley and now I got another job at a coffee shop in Oakland that I hang out at a lot as well, so I know the people and all that jazz. It's pretty cool I've always wanted to work at a coffee place and I only work mornings on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. More money to go towards band crap and for me to get my own place.

I'm so stoked for Spider-Man 3 to come out in a few weeks. Seriously, I'm a nerd when it comes to Spider-Man. I used to read and collect the comics and would watch the cartoon show on Saturday mornings. Next week I'm hosting a Spider-Man party where we watch Spider-Man 1 & 2.

Ask my friends that have been by my side for years they'll tell you I haven't changed a bit. I still wear the same clothes since I was a Freshman let alone even 7th or 8th grade; basically listen to the same music, just more has added to the list, I still have the same attitude it's just not that snotty punk attitude of "Fuck everyone", and I'm still playing and writing music, which I have done...

Half of me feels like knocking my head against the wall, but the other half doesn't want this feeling to ever end. If only I could tell him......Song that sort of describes how I feel:Tonight I had to goI had to catch the plane reck homeCouldn't stop shedding these tearsTears of joy and fear because I fell in love with youThe way you make me feel when your arms around me and the way you whisper in...