I'm unbeleivably PISSED today.IDK why exactly, I just feel awful.Last night was good though. well sorta. We won the soccer match && we're off to the finals and I was texting with this guy from school. He's really nice, we went to the boys like girls concert together and he's an amazing drummer. He even offered to help set up the drumset I'm getting for my birthday.But a few hours later my...

Do you get that empty irritating feeling that you've wasted your daylike you wanna do something and make an effing differencebut all you do is stay at home or go to some random shitty party.I HAVE. and it pisses me off :l seriously, what good did I do today? NOTHING. Would the world appreciate my existance based on the stuff I did? NO.I mean, hey we look up to some bands and they're hella young....

okayyyy RANDOMSHITITHOUGHTABOUTYEHEY :oBeauty && The BeastWhat if Gaston was gay & just using Belle as an excuse to make him seem soooo damn "macho" >:)What if the rose wich holds the Beast's fate is ACTUALLY a fake plastic rose form SM && when Belle thinks the Beast is dying Ashton Kutcher jumps out of NOWHERE and yells: "You've just been PUNK'D" ? =))What if Belle's just a...

My life is so fucked upI don't know what to do with it, I don't even give a shit anymoreAll I know is one thing, I want to make music, play in the bandbut the rest of my life is gone to crapI'm sick with so many thing you'd think be dead by nowThere's so much they don't knowMy depression just triggered more and more thingsI just want to break downbut I cant.I can't trust anyone with something so...

I'd love to see the look on your face from the bright burning stage.After all, it was you who ntold me to stop pretending,and swore I'd never make it here.Yeah, I'm kinda still in shock, it was only months ago when you broke me down. Haha I bet you didn't know you were the reason I actually decided to buy one and pursue learning. Not that you influenced me, it's cause it made me think, if you...

Remember when I said that my bandmates were my life? It's only part of the story, one of them actually saved me. I suffer from a lot of things social anxiety, depression, bulimia and a while back, anorexia. I just want to waste away again, there's nothing that could stop me now anyway, he never cared that much. I fucking break inside from what they say sometimes, I can't handle being compared to...

I know that the charade is over, I'm still not okay, and I still have to breathe somedays for no reason at all but the music. I don't pity myself nor do I want pity or sympathy, no way am I begging for love or being obnoxious for attention. It just gets to me sometimes that I screw up every chance to happiness I get without meaning to. Imagine, if I did't say a few things or if I didn't react to...