Ugh, I sometimes hate it. The past few months have been hard for me. I don't know if it's because of Mallory or it's just me. I can't write anything, no femmeslash, no boy slash, no sci fi, no essays for school, no about me for MySpace. Seriously, I can't do anything write.But for the first time since about August, I think I've done something right, that didn't go wrong! Earlier, I was writing...

I used to think something like this was terrible. I didn't want to be one of those people obsessed with my girlfriend. That's pretty much what I've become. Despite how hard I tried not to, and I tried damn hard, I fell in love. I hate that people like me are going to look at me and think I'm another annoying fag. I really hate it. But as long as I don't think about it like that, I don't care. It's...

I've been forcing myself to be happy, basically. I may be the most selfish person in the world, but how hard can it be to pretend to like me? If I don't know that you really hate me, I'm okay, but I know that everyone hates me.Well, that's a little overdramatic of me. Not everyone hates me. But no one cares for me. It doesn't matter where I am. At school, I'm not anyone worthwhile or special, I'm...

If looks could kill, I would be responsible for the death of everybody on this planet.I'm writing a femmeslash, my first one ever. I was planning an update all day for tonight and my story isnt pre-written or anything, so I make it up as I go along, obviously. I typed up a long, amazing update that took me three hours to think up and write out. It was the greatest piece of writing that I had ever...

This year will be my first year at Warped Tour. I'm really excited.This may sound a little selfish of me, but I wish I wasn't going to Orlando. I wanted to go to the one in St Petersberg, it's the only one in Florida that'll have The Almost. I also would've love to go to the Miami show, all my friends and stuff are going to that one. It is closest to my house. But no, my father has to dispise...

It doesn't seem like anyone's going to miss me. That doesn't bother me though. Well, it does, but not as much as it used to. I'm sure there are going to be some people who miss me, but I believe the grand majority of my "friends" and sick of me.I wont be able to write as often while I'm gone. That'll probably cause me to break down and cry sometime. I hope I'll have alone time on the PC while I'm...