Last saturday was FUCKED. Went to Frances' 18th, but I could have gone to at least 5 other parties. I went with Nissa, Ray and Sam, hoping to get backtogether with Sammy. Me, Corey and Michael sat back and watched everyone make out with everyone and couples break up, and Sam slut it up. Everyone bitched about Jarrah. Then made out with him. Fucking retards. Kate rang me a few times to make sure I...

Last thursday Sam broke up with me. After saying that she loved me and screw what her mum thought and she wanted to be with me, she broke up with me. The day before that Jordy dumped his girlfriend. No coincedence when we saw Jordy and Sam holding hands on friday. Siiigh. Fuck I was shattered, they walked into the shop, I was there with Pooley, Ray, Matt and Terry I think, I was holding a glass...

Tonight was absolutely fucked. Its two in the morning right now. Sammys mum wants us to break up, Sam is confused about her feelings and I think she is wondering if she shouldbreak up with me. Tonight the way she wrote her messages while I was at work made it sound like she was, and I went fucking nuts. My hand still hurts like a mad bitch from punching things in the freezer...I guess the only way...

I'm so scared of losing Sammy. She is so cute and gorgeous and I love her to shreds. But I can't tell if she loves me too... I dunno, it's fucked up. She went to the shops at lunch today... I was so fucking bored without her. Apparently her mum disaproves of us going out.The school tried telling me I was wagging last tuesday. Fucking hell. I wasn't.Kates coming over tonight. That'll be good, if...

Well this has been an interesting week and a bit. Turned up to the school sports carnival drunk. Got close to Sammy. She is such a fucking awesome person. We spent all day together and then went downtown, she came over for abit. Now we go out =). It kinda gets to me that its hard to love her, she isnt all for the clingy type I guess. Spose everything will build up over time. She even loves...

I've been sick for the past 2 weeks, missed out on exams. For two weeks, for once, I didn't feel like i needed a gf. For once I didn't have that thought eating away at me. And I get back to work, knowing I have to get back to school, get rejected for the seventh time, and it all just fucking crashes down. Doesn't help when the radio plays songs that remind me of Biddles. I honestly thought I had a...

Last friday was Big Bad Byezys Birthday Bash. And i'm still sick from it. Developed crazy uber throat infection on the night and it's gotten worse since.Talked to Emily lastnight. That was so good. Haven't spoken to her in so long. I guess I do love her... I keep worrying that she thinks i'm stalking her, after the whole "Shannon accusing me of stalking her" incident. What an interesting way to...

I feel so shit from friday night. Drank too much, got one hour sleep, walked to work, worked from 5 to 11 30. Bloody good night but. Lastnight was bollocks. Didn't know many people there and there were so many people at the party that I couldn't really fit into any group. So I slept. Then people thought I was a bean bag. One guy kicked me in the face thinking I was a bean bag. I feel bad for...

Yeah, so what. Im sitting at my bruvvas computer at quarter to 1 in the morning eating cupcakes, chocolate and drinking white wine. Very nice white whine. I have no freakin idea whats happened to me. I used to never drink. I used to never do anything sexual. I used to be so kept in. Yeah, I enjoy life now, but I still feel fucking empty.I was fucked around for a month by Shannon. I texted her, she...

Today was one of those days. Where I said hello to about at least two dozen people, and only got a warm welcome from Milsy and Kayla.I screwed up everything, so everything went wrong. Everytime I got told to do something, it went wrong. I would forget to do something, I would press the wrong button, I would press too many buttons, fill up the wrong thing with the wrong stuff, it all went haywire...