I have been depressed and cutting myself for a year and 3 months. i am always feeling down, unwanted, and useless. my life has hit rock-bottom.i am always having suicidal thoughts, i can be having a good day injoying myself but the thoughts are always there. i constintaly have dreams of hanging myself and jumping off bridges. like i dont know what to do life just sucksmy father drinks heavy and i...

So my father is a drunk and im done with his bullshit. I dont know what to do. its at the point that if dad drinks he wont live past summer. its tearing my family apart.i just dont know what to do. do i get a job and move out?? do i take my sisters with me?? stay?? im just really confusedhe is making me feel useless and unwanted. he was in the hospital 2 years ago and had been sober for a year....

I hate my life. i am so tired with the shit that is going on. My father is a drunk and can be abusive at times. I have no relationship with him. I was talking to my step father and he said the reason dad relapsed and started drinking again was cause of me. Its my fault because i put 2 much stress on my father. that just got me pissed. with all this going on i started cutting myself just over a...

Hello everyone, I am looking at getting a tattoo on strength. I have been through a lot and have made it through so I want something releted to strength.I was thinking maby a quote, saying, anything really. I was thinking about chinese strength logo but will look at all options. It will be going on my wrist I think so it cant be that long of a quote or saying, but I will look at all and maby...

I hate my life, so i lay and wonder why this happens to me. i cut, cut so deep. blood rolls, rolls to the floor. the scarz there to remind me of the harm i have done. it feels so right but yet so wrong. i'm hiding behind a smile. on the outside i seem "normal" but on the inside is where the pain lies.i lay and cry myself to sleep at night. trying to figure things outshould i stay or should i go?i...

I have been cutting myself for almost a year now and I am wanting to get a tattoo to remind me of what i have done and something to look at to help to stop when i get the urge to cut. im not sure what i want please give me your ideas on what i could get done. i want it on mu wrist or maby shoulder. i might be getting chineese strength but i am open to all ideas. maby if there is a bible verse or...

as time goes on the cuts get deeper. i dont know what to do. i feel like i have to cut to get through the day, the pain is just to much. its my only resort, i have to see blood. i dont think i could live if i stop cutting right now. i think i would go crazy its the only thing i have. the blade is my best friend, we have been through soo much together.i want help and find a better way to cope but i...

I have been cutting myself for almost a year now. I need a way to ease the pain. My father is a recorving drunk that aint doing good. He is always drinking, he drinks a quart a day. I feel like im useless cause he says im his everything. I feel guilt and hurt inside and need to release it. I have told 3 friends about my cutting and 1 is really helping me with it. I want to stop but as soon as im...

My father is a drunk and he is constantly bitching at me. I want nothing to do with him. My life would be better without him. I dont understand why he does this to me. He knows he cant drink but yet he does anyway. I dont know why he keeps drinking knowing that every drink he takes is slowly killing him inside. He can be abusive while he drinks and has thrown things and me and pushed me. This...

I cut myself for months and knowone knewthe pain that I felt insideI cut so deep the blood flewthe pain I just could not hidewhats this life for, I ask myselfi want to diewhen i cut im only hurting thyselfas i strike the skin i start to crywhen i cut, i release paini have nothing to gainlife just aint worth itso i steal a gun and hold it in my handpoint it at my headpull the trigger and fall over...

I hate my life and want to die,so cut my wrist to ease the painwhen my friends ask me about it I lieI take the razor, and slice the skinthe blood rolls down my armreleese all the pain i feel withinas she cuts she starts to cryas time goes on the cuts get deepershe wonders why??please commenti have been going through a lot in life and i find this is the only way i can get rid of the pain that i...

This is a little bit about my life. writing help me not to cut myself.My mom had left my father and moved away. My father had started to drink heavy, and payed no attection to me. This made me feel useless and unwanted. He has punched me and through this at me while he has been drunk.He had ended up in the hospital for his drinking and then went into rehad. This had helped for about a year then he...

I got home from school and i get bitched at. i have depression and i self harm. i dont know how to handle it but find releafe in a blade. i will lock myself in my room just to get away. i start crying as the blood starts rolling and wonder what this life is really for.i cant stop, the cuts just keep getting deeper and deeper. scars everywhere. no one knows but one of my best friends. i showed her...