Wow, I haven't updated in a while. o_oWell, unsurprisingly my story request thing didn't work. How hard is it to fill out a short application? Eh, it's not; it's just that no one's interested in having people write stories for them. 'Specially if you don't wanna write about My Chemical Romance. I'd love to write a J-Rock fanfic for someone, but there's a small amount of people here who like...

I've already gotten two requests. ^^ One's for an band called Minus IQ and the other... well, that one's kinda weird. xD Someone wants me to write a story about killer socks and shoes? Ha, well it's original. xD Hopefully I don't disappoint the people I'm writing for. I'll probably get started tomorrow, going in order from the people who requested first.As for my next fanfiction for myself [I've...

Wow, I need to update my poems. I've written like, five or so more since "~Frozen in time~." xD Anyways, I wrote a Sweeney Todd fanfiction. :3 I got on subscriber, but I dunno why 'cause it was only a one-shot. xD But that's cool! =D No comments, but that subscription thing let's me know people like it. ^^Now I need something else to write. No one's done the story request thing I offered, so maybe...

Okay, so this whole thing with me writing my own stories isn't really workin' out. If I don't get comments I get discouraged. Stupid, kinda, but whatever. If I feel no one likes my stories I just stop, which is why I deleted my other stories. Instead I've came up with a solution.I've noticed I can only finish a story if I'm writing it for someone else. So I'm gonna start doin' requests....

So, my computer's working now, but some of the programs won't open up. It does that "which application would you like to use for this program?" or whatever the fuck. It sucks hairy donkeys balls. But we have a new eMachine computer with Windows Vista. =D Now, my friend who knows some shit about computers told me it's the slowest system, but mine goes pretty fast. I think it may be because it's a...

No it's not another Geico reference, geez. ¬¬ But before we crashed the computer, my Dad and I were able to save our things! :] That Comcast got we got is a miracle working, I swear. We went from not getting on our computer accounts to getting on and saving documents without catching the virus. That makes DeDe happeh. I'm glad we got our computer back.... But sad also. My documents didn't get...

Bad News: I know lately my journals have been me complainin', but damn it, I have every reason to. My Dad is crashing---repeat, CRASHING---our computer. I'm going to loose everything. Music, documents, pictures, saved writings/poems/roleplays/etc. It' suck major ass and I AM NOT HAPPY. I am so friggan pissed right now.Fourth time, THE FOURTH TIME, we've had to wipe out our computer. Dude, I dunno....

My internet connection isn't working. I dunno why and I dunno what happen, but it stared actin' all janky on me. My Dad and I tried to fix it, like, all day but it's being a bitch. We called Comcast so they could come down here and fix it, but I gotta wait until Wednesday. I still dunno what's wrong with it. I hafta use my Dad's laptop from now on though. :/It's better than nothing though. This...

I completely forgot to make a journal entry on the special day that was yesterday! >< Happy belated 31st birthday Toshiya! I'm just glad I was able to tell him a happy birthday on Diru's MySpace on time. xD; But Dir en grey's bassist is another year older, yay! ^^ I'm so happy.It's kinda strange how their birthdays are all close together though. o_O I mean, Kaoru's is a day after Kyo's. xD...

Well, my other story is out. Hopefully I'll get some good reviews. >< People have read my other story, but left no comments. D: DeDe loves comments people! WHY WON'T YOU COMMENT?! D8< Ah, whatever. Sadly, I cannot control people over the internet. [That'd be pretty awesome though.]So I've realized if you write even when you don't feel like it things get done quicker. Like with Sunlit...

Jesus Christ, it took forever but I did it. The first chapter to my J-rock story, Shooting Stars, is finished. Friggan school kept making me delay it. :/ Stupid homework and it keeping me busy. ¬¬ And when I finished my homework I would be so damn tired. Sucks major donkey balls, man. I try to do my work fast, but I just can't. I'm a naturally slow person. xDBut anyways. It's up and I hope you...

Well. I had a pretty Gothic/emo moment for no reason. xD I just had to listen to people, seriously. I think I need to stop being so stubborn, hard headed, overly caring. I need to be more selfish---which sounds bad, I know, but it's so true. o_o I don't put my wants and needs first, I put others first.But I found out Chris ("far away person" I was talking about it my last journal) thought we were...

THIS FUCKING SUCKS. GOD, I'M SO DAMN PISSED AT MYSELF. I FEEL SO STUPID, CHEAP, AND EASY. I FEEL LIKE A SLUT! WHY THE HELL MUST I LIKE TWO GREAT PEOPLE? WHY DOES ONE HAVE TO BE SO FAR AWAY? WHY MUST ONE RETURN MY FEELINGS LIKE I PRESSURED THEM INTO IT? AM I THAT DESPERATE? DO I WANT SOMEBODY TO BE WITH THAT FUCKING BADLY?JESUS CHRIST, DE`SHARA, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF? FIGURE YOUR GODDAMN...

Wow, I've succeeded in finding a J-rock fan on Mibba! That was one of my goals here and it only took one day to achieve it! Do you know how awesome that is?! Of course you don't, you're probably not a J-rock fan and wondering "What the hell is J-rock? o_O"Yes, anyways. That was my random unimportant part. Here comes to the main reason for this journal. Normally I thought journals weren't that...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHINYA!You're not a baby anymore, but you're not an old man. You've got twenty years until then. Anyways, be sure to smack Die around if he makes fun of you and continue being an awesome drummer. ^^But I can't wait until that interview comes out. o_o Supposedly he did an interview where he's telling all his secrets. x3 I'm so excited. I bet people expect them to be all "OMG, NO...