I realised something that in all truth, I knew deep down long ago.I am MESSED UP.I can't read books or watch tv or watch films or listen to music.Why? Because they make me feel empty, worthless, useless, hopeless, scared and guilty.Well, more so than I usually feel. The same feelings, just amplified and concentrated.And I can't control my overactive imagination. I don't take on the character in...

Howya everybody!Wowza, Beri hasn't been on here in SO long!So, here is her first journal entry since...February!Well, Beri has been very busy lately, what with exams and leaving school and such.However, she hasn't been so busy that she can't write.But all of Beri's latest writing isn't for Mibba... =[She shall have to write more Mibba stories and poems soon...possibly a fan fic...but maybe not....

Soo...a new journal entry. First one in ages!Wow.Anyway, please excuse me for any typos - im ill and cannot think totally straight atm. i couldnt even figure out how to spell february. i can spell it normally!So...ive been writing LOADS, but none that im gonna put on here, sorry people.Hehe.Shcool is the normal rubbish. We got monday and tuesday off though because of the snow!been painting lots...

Well, before i leave i thought that i ought to do a journal seeing as i havent done one in a while.Excited at the moment...going to Abi's birthday party in a couple of weeks which is going to be cool. (YAY!)In English, we are doing this creative writing coursework...again. So i am using the story Fear In The Shadows, which means i will have written more of it soon, so yay! To everyone who is...

Dangit, i'm not seeing DeG after all (no-one else can afford to go).And tbh, i've not had the best week.This week:- Back to damned school.- An art afterschool detention the 2nd day back just for forgetting my book.- Doing some drama thing on Jack the ripper, and i dont know who he is.- Wrote more of my story (one that only 2 people besides myself can read, so sorry it's not going up on mibba).-...

Xmas is over *sob* but it was good...even if it didn't feel like xmas.Did you all get anything nice for xmas? I did ^-^-Three days grace - One X-James Morrison - Songs for you, truth for me-Canon film camera-Mini donut maker-Other stuffsSo I got home from Kent today and am back in my own home =]But I have this weird feeling in my stomach...like a mixture of sadness and butterflies.And I have a...

Today was one of the worst days i have EVER had.At school, i was ill - i had a headache, was going from hot to cold and felt so sick.I embaressed myself in english - i had to show everyone how to make an origami sleeping dog. I messed the dog up and even before that had happened, i was laughed at by several people in the class...and not in a nice way either.In p.e. i damaged my hip badly and even...

Sorry for this one being so late. I haven't actually been around very much lately.Basically, the reason why I am doing this journal is that......my friend invited me to tag along to the Kerrang Relentless Tour in January, and I was real excited because MSI were playing......but I've just found out something really big......DIR EN GREY ARE GOING TO BE THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG I'VE NEVER BEEN SO...

So. This past week has been an absolute NIGHTMARE!In it i have:- Been yelled at by a boy about my boobs (as usual)- Had my bum pinched...twice (by the same boy)- And been asked twice if my boobs were real (by a different boy)Then, to top it all off, in pe we had to do...VOLLEYBALL!Why volleyball of all things we could do!?It truly is the worst sport for a girl with big breasts....DAMNIT!I dont...

One word for yesterday......REJECTED!lol, i wasn't expecting anything more. I told him and he replied "I Like you, but..."i cut him off, i knew what he was going to say "only as a friend" same old same old.But i texted him later: "Hi, thanks for being okay with what i said earlier. Still friends right?"Then he replied: "Of course we're still friends...i do like you its just you're a bit young"So...

Well, yesterday i went out with some friends and had lots of fun.We ravedWe ate sweetsThen we got drunk (a bit anyway).We played spin the bottle.All in all, a good day.Then Phil and me were walking home and this guy (i think Phil knew him) stumbled over to us, clutching at his side. He was actually crying. And he told us that he had been stabbed.You dont realise how scared we were.We asked him as...

It says my journal has to be something worthwhile...so here i go...mibba, you're gonna regret making me have to "put effort" into this!So, today i went bowling and killed my foot on the dance mat at the arcade.And yesterday i got new glasses which are VERY cool.So, my friend properly introduced me into Hadouken! who i had heard ages ago, but only one song.Today I've been listening to crank it up...

Today i got a FLASHY PEN!It lights up when you click it every other time!Tis so kewl. =DBut, i dont know why, even though i got a good pen, i feel really naff today.Like, sad and sick and angry all mixed together to make a super bad emotion!So, this is my first day on here.Thanks to everyone who commented me.And to everyone who has been nice to me!Oh, and i had 2 chocolate milks today! ^-^Thanks...