So, I'm going to go ahead and say that this entire journal is pretty much about my boyfriend, Seth. He's been so down on himself, today especially and it bothers me so much.By the title of this, I'm saying that Seth is an insomniac, and he gets barely any sleep, if not any at all. He always looks so tired. He always has bags under his eyes, and he just looks straight out sad, and miserable. He's...

So, last night I got a call from my mom's boyfriend. He said he wanted to talk to my dad about something "very important". So, I told him that, and he called him back. Afterwards, my aunt, whom I also live with called them, to see what was going on.It turned out she was diagnosed with cervical cancer, like last night, and relapsed. So, she was all drugged up, and freaked out and sh*t. My mom has...

So, I started a new story, and I'm not sure what to use as a banner/ picture for it.The story is about the Holocaust. Basically, the plot is that this girl is sent to Auschwitz, along with her family. There's no other stuff to it, besides what the story will contain. I know it probably sounds cliche, and everything, but I still want to try.My idea of a banner would be something dark, of course,...

I just tried it. I typed it up, not all of it, only some, and I couldn't do it. I tried to do it, but I can't. I even put on Rise Against in the background to listen to while I was typing it, hoping it would help, and it did. I just got so shaky, and felt like breaking down. I don't think I'm ever going to post my story anywhere. I would get judged, and thought of so differently. Plus, wouldn't...

So, I've been thinking, I really, really want to write something other than what I normally write, which is self-harm, depression, abuse, etc. I was thinking that writing a Holocaust story would be really neat. It's kind of the same orb of depressing things, but just something different. Something different from teenagers feeling sorry for themselves, whining, someone being beaten by their dad, or...

Seriously.If there's somewhere I could find one, that would be great, too. At this point, I'll do a lot for a layout with them on it. I'll read your stuff, I'll review your stuff, anything like that.I have no clue how to make layouts, or how to do HTML, or CSS. I'm trying to learn, and it's f***ing hard. I need to work on it, lol.If you know anyway I can get one, comment on this, or PM me. I'll be...

I love mine, of course, but there's a specific one that I want. I've looked through every layout listed in the forums, I've went and requested one, and never go anything back. Does anyone here run a site? Or maybe make layouts?I want a layout with Seth Rogen on it, and that's very hard to find. I've looked everywhere, and at this point, I'm about done. If nobody on here knows where to find one, I...

So, I found a song for chorus that I really feel the need to sing. Like, I have to sing it. I've sang a few songs for the class, but nothing I've really felt so strongly about singing. The song I'm gonna sing is Make It Stop (September's Children). I want to sing it, because I think it's such a great song, for school. It's absolutely perfect. It has meaning, and it's wonderful.If you've never...

So, I entered a contest yesterday, and I'm going to start a story for it. The story is supposed to be about self-harm in some way, shape, or form. So, I'm going to try it.The story is about a girl (Tori) who lives with four men who kidnapped her when she was thirteen. They also murdered her younger brother, on the same night. She escapes to cutting, after about a year of living with the men. I'm...

Just kidding! I knew you guys would click that. Because if you address anything controversial on Mibba, hell freezes over.However, this journal is going to be a comment swap journal. I just posted a new story, that was lost in the Mibba Crash. It's called Unforgotten. I'd like to possibly receive some feedback on that. But, you can check out whatever you would like.Rules:1] You comment first.2]...

I was absolutely so triggered last night. I was shaking for so long, and trying not to cry. My friend was over at my house for the night, and she mentioned something about triggers for her. And out of nowhere, I had this really bad flashback. I don't even know why I did. So, I started writing about it. I wrote and wrote. When I was done, what I wrote at least four pages of memories, and about how...

I've been stuck to Avenged Sevenfold for quite a long time, but I found another band I love. (Rise Against.) I've actually loved them for a little while, but I got more into them. It's really weird that that is happening just now. But, I really love them, and they're absolutely amazing.So, I have a new poem posted, that I want to receive feedback on. I don't want to just whore it out at this...

So, I have flashbacks, a lot, usually not in dream form. I'm not sure what I would consider this a "nightmare", but it was kind of a bad dream. There was three dreams in all, so far.In the first one, I was forced to go back to where I used to live. (Jacksonville, Florida) I obviously didn't want to, but I was forced to go. (In a plane, I don't even know why.) So, I got there, but for some reason,...

So, I'm going to stay on Mibba. I just need to get a new layout, and a couple things. It's not so bad. It could have been worse. I'm happy I have everything backed up, and it's not as much as some people's. I'm going to need help with a banner, soon, possible. But for now, I'm just going to relax. There's no really good sites like Mibba.So, since everyone lost subscribers and comments, I figured I...

I really am not happy about the crash. I lost so much stuff. I lost subscribers, poems, my new profile layout, my new story layouts, journals, photos, and a bunch of sh*t. I'm just seriously outraged at the fact that this happened. Obviously nobody caused it, but I've always been afraid of something like this happening. Now, what if it happens again? Can I really afford for this to happen? (In a...

So, I was taking a shower earlier, and I like...freaked out. First, I was just remembering something, and then it kinda overpowered me. Like, I was trying to fight it off, but I would come back to where I was, and then go back. It was just so f***ing scary. I haven't had one that bad in a while. I couldn't stop crying, and I was struggling not to scream.I'm fine now, but that was really, really...

So, last night, I was super bored and decided to draw stuff. I took like a blank paper, and wrote stuff all over the background. Well, basically it was all dialogue, and really bad memories from my childhood. I wrote as far back as I could remember, and just went kinda crazy with it. Then, I took some Crayola markers, and used them to "splatter" paint all over the paper. Then, in big letters I...

So, I posted three new poems yesterday, and I need some feedback! Also, my stories need some love, too. So, I wanna do a swap! I'll swap for anything, by the way. Stories but preferably not super long ones, because mine are kinda short. I'll do anything up to five chapters.My new poems are : Safe Fear Nightmares So, you can check out any of those, and I'll read either a story or poem of yours....

I'm really happy right now, because so far, my week has been absolutely awesome. Yesterday I went to the mall with my dad, and then when I got home the greatest thing like ever happened. So, I'm a huge Lonely Island fan, and I don't know if too many of you know that, but I'm in love with them, and as cliche as it is, I love Andy Samberg, not the most of all three, but tons. So, I follow him on...

So, I have some updated stuff, and I would like to have some feedback on it! I have poems, and a story that has been updated. So, if you're interested, we can swap! My only rules are that I don't particularly enjoy slash, but I'll read certain ones. Other than that, I'll read poems, stories, whatever you throw at me! Actually, I'll read slash. Don't worry about what it is. Just tell me what a...