So, i've been having a hard time lately. While i haven't been on Mibba for who knows how many months, i decided to come back and visit. And i came only to find that everything's changed. Like going to a place you used to live years ago only to see new buildings and assortment of broken down memories. I used to come here to write things that actually meant something to me, that actually came from...

There will be other lives for nervous boys with sweaty palms, for bittersweet fumblings in the backseat of cars, for caps and gowns in royal blue and crimson, for mothers clasping pretty pearl necklaces around daughters' unlined necks, for your full name read aloud in an auditorium, for brand-new suitcases transporting you to strange new people in strange new lands.And there will be other lives...

God is only an illusion of the mind. If you really think about it. You can only believe in him. Some people do and others don't. And therefore he does not exist; only in mind maybe. That is my opinion. And no one wants to hear your hour long lecture on how what Im doing is not the way it should be. Not what kids my age should be doing. Its wrong; its sick; it annoys you. What annoys you is...

I haven't written a journal in so long. So at 5:30 in the morning on New Years Eve i decided to.I feel with the New Year coming i really should write something but i don't know what about yet.Just to say, i am scared, oh so scared, for this new year.Everyones so very excited. And i just want to freeze time right here forever in fear of what's going to come. So I originally planned on getting...

This month has just been horrible for me.Yesterday i cried more than i have ever cried im pretty sure.I was talking to my ex.He still likes me and wants me to be his girlfriend.I miss him, and i loved being his girlfriend.But when he broke up with me, he hurt me soooo bad.Its just hard to see him the same and forgive him.So yesterday he randomly called me.And he asked me why i dont want to be with...

caring. I don't care anymore. Ive been fucked over so many times I'm just through with it. I cry every day of my life. A lot of times more than once. In the past two weeks my boyfriend broke up with me. I went through this horrible week then we got back together. I then broke up with him. I really don't know why. I really don't know. Ive gotten high and drunk multiple times and I tried to make...

he who finds himself, loses his misery.when i am at my worst is the time when i turn to meaningful books or words or whatever.thats definitely the case right now.ive been crying on and off all day.anyhting my parents say to me makes me cry.i dont kno why.but i was very down todayand really didnt want to talk to anyone.all ive had all day is a starbucks frappachino.im at a stressful point in my...

So I havent been on the computer since like Sunday. Which is a good thing for me. I spend way to much time on here. But anyways. So Monday i started karate with my best friend Brooke. Its not something i would usually do. But shes going through hard times and is doing it as part of this therapy thingg. so im supporting her. I think thats gunna be good for me. I dont really have a hobby or an...

I hate the role age plays in community these days. I mean sure the age restrictions for voting, drinking, driving, and whatnot make sense. But the other way its used is not. Im kinda contradicting myself when i say this. But like, People are always telling me im to young for the kinds of things i do and to young for the way i think. Many people my age havent gone through or know half the stuff i...

I always know who a true friend is, or if i really like the boy i like. How? If someone asks "whats your favorite song?" and you have to think about it. Its not your favorite song, or you dont have one. If they ask that and you immidiately say somehting lk "The Balcony by Pierce the Viel." Then thats for sure your favorite song. Now just like, "whos your best guy/girl friend?" If you have to think...

of being sick and tired. I know thats a song, but it fits how i feel almost perfectly.I dont understand, how i wake up and go to school and act perfectly normal, and perfectly happy, and live up to the "popular" title i've been given. But once i go home i feel lk a no one. I always doubt myself, Im always tired. I never do what i say I will. and i just dissapoint basically everyone i know. I feel...