The last time I had wrote in here was 2 years ago when I was still with Matthew. I am not with him anymore because I realized I wouldn't be able to spend the rest of my life with someone I couldn't stand some of the things he did and didn't do for me.Recently I had been talking once again to my friend Jon. I have been friends with him since I was 12, so it would be 7 years. I continue to blame...

Recently I have been bitched at a lot by my friends and lost a few because they told me that I left them when I first had got a boyfriend. Them leaving me now, is just as bad as then. They were drifting from me because they didn't want to hang out with me because I was with my boyfriend at school. My boyfriend doesn't go to high school anymore. He's in college. And my friends still complain that...

I have been a complete bitch to Matt lately and now is the time for me to stop. When he is gone, I am gonna try and change for the better. I bitch and moan of me wanting maybe one day of alone time a week and he just keeps saying not to complain and it's driving him nuts. One of the reasons though is because I want to get into video games again. It's because I feel so left out and confused when...

My boyfriend lately has not been feeling like he has got in touch with himself. He keeps saying things like he wants to just turn off his phone for a week, or he wants to get away from everything for just a few days. He says he wants to be alone and he just wants to find himself again and try to be like that. He says all he does is please others, but sometimes he just wants to please himself by...

Lately my boyfriend, Matt, has been seeming like he is missing where he used to live.. It makes me feel awful because it makes me feel like he isn't thankful for the things that he has now. He misses his bigger part of the family that is living in a different state. It makes me feel bad that I can't do anything about it. Him and I have been together for about 7 months now. I don't feel like he...

I finally came to the conclusion that I will move in with Matt no matter if his best friend was going to be living there. I really don't want to deal with Cody, and it's like, when I move in, it's like me and Matt starting a new life. If Cody was there, it would be like starting a new life with his best friend included in it, 24/7. What's worse? Me staying at home and having to deal with my...

March 4th, 2010This last weekend, I had let my best friend slip away from me, because of something her girlfriend did. Her girlfriend interfered with what was suppose to have been mine and her day, because also I hadn't hung out with her after school hours in about 5 or 6 months. Her girlfriend wanted to surprise her at the mall, and even though I said that she wanted to just spend the day with...

Love is the unexplainable.You know signs when you kiss that person and your body tingles, not notice any surroundings and every kiss you give is held with love and passion like it was your last. When you hold that person, it feels like time slows and you never want to let go.. There's so much more... when you cuddle with that person, and hold them against your body, it's like your bodies have...

Right now I think that life is almost perfect. Today is mine and Matt's 6 month anniversary, and Valentine's Day of course. He is the longest relationship that I have ever been in. It's very surprising, but not to me. He is perfect in every way to me. He is my best friend, partner for life, my love, and my soul mate. We seem to keep thinking of the same thing at the same time or even doing...

Today was okay, but I have a lot of bad shit that happens in my life. I can't believe it! Alondra died, my parents divorced, new step-dad, boyfriend breaks up with me, step-brother is annoying, brother is disgusting, and a new boyfriend that I never wanted. That's some crazy SHIT right thurr. Well some is going to be gone becuz I'm going to Sea world, San Diego zoo, and California beach. I'm going...

December 17thIt seems things look as close to the story then ever. It's been endless raining the past three days. Jacob seems more and more like the character. When I think of things I like, I've gotten more similar in ways and relate to. My Edward isn't a vampire, mine is human I can be with him for the rest of my life. Though it is crazy to say that I had agreed to marry him. I want to break up...