I remember that time we hadn't kissed in so long and I was laying on your bed and super sleepy.I closed my eyes and all of a sudden you kissed me.I think about it all the time, how it gave me butterflies.It's so crazy how you can still give them to me all the time.I just love you so much.When I think about that time it brings me to tears. I'm not sure why. It just made me so happy. You make me so...

I just keep on avoiding showing my feelingsI just keep on running from situations I am afraid of.I am just so scaredof losing you.I put all of my effort into being with youand I feel like you don't even see this.I work out every single day to get a little skinnier for youI shut my mouth every day to get less annoying for youI beat myself up every day cuz you always make it seem somehowthat you...

Yo, I'm supposed to be typing a film review on Food Inc. right now, but I'd really rather just do this. But, I could tell you that I hate how people treat animals like they are nothing, dear Jesus, you want to kill these cows and chickens, but why hang them from their legs and slit their throats? They also get to stay places ankle-deep in just shit. yumm. After this I'm gonna ride the bus home,...

We were on his bed and his little brother happened to be peeking from the stairs into his room, like he usually does instead of his mom checking in on us every couple hours. He was sitting against the wall near my feet, and I was laying down with my arms over my head. I was wearing a white burnout shirt with black letter on the front, and some sark skinny jeans. He was wearing a plaid button-up...

Highfives.Hugs.Being kissed on the forehead, cheek, or nose.Thumbwrestling.When people sing their little hearts out, not caring how they sound or what anyone thinks.Snowcones.Wearing Chris's clothes.Passing notes.Late night conversations on the phone.Walking around town barefooted.Music.Sleeping next to someone.Cuddling.Showers.Polite people.The amazing things the sky can do.Giving advice.Having...

Who sits behind you in english? Jacob HinshawWhen was the last time you showered? Last night.When will your next kiss be? NEVER. xDWhat song are you listening to? Buy You a Drank:T-PainHow late do you normally stay up on weekdays? past midnight.What was the last movie you watched in the theaters? Rango.Who did you see it with? Chris.Has a friendship ended recently that you wish hadn’t?...

Second by second, someone thinks negatively. And if you me, I'd be your honoree.Minute by minute, someone new hates me. A little, a lot, it's in all sorts of places.Day by day, people won't look at me. They blow me off, they think I'm weird, they think I'm overly dramatic. Then people just make fun for being who I am.See, it's so problematic to everyone else. But it doesn't even have to be. Why...

[font=*tahoma*]I'm not hungry.[/ font][size=*62*]I am not hungry.[/ size][font=*tahoma*]I'm so sick right now. I don't want food. I want to be with Chris, that's about it. I want him to care. I want someone to stop me from slitting my wrists, starving myself, or..hurting myself, putting me at risk of taking it way too far. I'm afraid of myself and how easily I can kill myself. I just want it to be...

I sat for four hours talking to the school counselor, crying my eyes out also. I still haven't eaten. We were debating on whether or not I should go to the hospital for help. Also to avoid hurting myself. But instead, Dezy is staying the night watching me. If I go to the hospital, I'd miss graduation and the field trip. Dezy's the only one that knows I haven't been eating, I'm fine though, I can...

Yesterday, I went to a concert and this screamer..was terrrible,it looked and sounded like he was having a temper tantrum.He ripped off his shirt and it landed on the floor.I noticed and picked up and went to hand it to him,but he said I could keep it. It was all sweaty and drenched with..him. Lmao, I feel like a creep but it was awesome, just cuz he's in a local bandand out of everyone else I got...

He controlled her life.Every time we're in public, she's clung to him.She likes the visual.She wants to give off the thought to people that they'd be dating, cuz he's attractive.I don't ever cling to him like that, and it eats at me, it makes me really upset. It makes me pretty angry with her. I thought she was my best friend, but who would do that? I told her I'm in love with him and I don't...

Yoooo, I haven't journaled in a while.Right now I'm sitting in Dezy's room..on her bed..doing this. Mikey's sitting in a corner watching his fiddler crab. xDChris is sitting in a chair watching Dezy fix a game he screwed up on her ds.Yesterday I went to the mall and walmart with them, and out to lunch. I haven't eaten for more than 24 hours, I got the bottom layeer of my hair dyed blue a few days...

I am sitting on my humongous bed in my decent-sized, mess of a room.Sitting indian style, in a purple Titans hoodie and underwear.There's a drawin of a girl smiling with green hair on my had I drew in Reading today, which reminds me that I still have homework in the damn class.Thinking about how we just kissed, and that feeling it gives me.I'm basically pinned to your bed as we kiss and I have the...

i know, hmph. well. it's gonna leave my mind at one point. there's no solution, i don't wanna talk about it. i really wanted to hug you for like..ever in the hallway. i don't think you understand how much a love you. and i don't ever understand why i like..do..i mean, when i think about you, just you, i seriously start crying cuz of how much i love you. i'm pathetic, i know. i just don't want to...

--Apr 26--You said I never fight for you.I've been fighting every day.She told me that she like you.I never told you, that'd be shitty.She decided to tell you today,even though we're basically in love, and we've both told each other.I hate jealousy, I can barely handle it, now all I can think about is,maybe you like her.She's so much better.SOOO much..I'm not worth, shit.You've been through me...

You lent against the freezing wall, looking at the lights shining through the spaces you became too afraid to climb into.They all are different shapes, you slowly lift up your hands.I look at you, and you look back, and I give you an encouraging look.You twitch the tip your finger and the light shaped like a triangle jerks the same direction.You have a look on your face, showing disgust. It looks...

I lay there in my bed. I look down at my stomach.What am I?I am fat.I am worthless, I am nothing.I pull myself up, I think to myself, ways to kill myself.I grab these blades, I throw them away.I took the pill bottles and flung them across my room.I walk over to mirror,I run my fingers through my hair.How come, nobody else sees what I do?I am a girl, trying.Trying so hard, to be good enough.For one...

Second by second, someone thinks negatively. And if you me, I'd be your honoree.Minute by minute, someone new hates me. A little, a lot, it's in all sorts of places.Day by day, people won't look at me. They blow me off, they think I'm weird, they think I'm overly dramatic. Then people just make fun for being who I am.See, it's so problematic to everyone else. But it doesn't even have to be. Why...

I sit there, ignored.You try to talk to me,But I say no.I tried to get his attention,But he refused to evenGlance at me.I deal with something new.I have to pull myself through withoutShowing how truly depressed I really am.I have to look at all the adults in my life and tell themEverything is just fine.Because when I searched for help,They were there..Yet I never got any.I feel completely empty.I...