At this point...I wanna talk to you. it seemed like since I am single,you want nothing to do with me..but yet when I was with someone else you wanted something to do with me. You only want me when you can't have me and that's,that's pretty messed up.You always make me seem like everything I said made me out to be the bad guy..but you sounded so vulnerable so lost in the last intense conversation...

"An unexpected realtionship will become permanate." I honestly don't believe in fortune cookies..but this one was just way too ironic to ignore.Last Saturday I got to spend some time with a guy I knew since I was in diapers & it was the 2nd time I ran into him recently. (the last time was a year ago.) And I dunno,he's just astonishing. From his goals in the future to the way he looks out for...

The first thought that comes to mind when I think of "empty" is a glass not being filled. I'm the glass that's not filled. I'm not happy-nor am I sad. I just feel empty.Like his kisses,his smile,the way he acts—is everything I always wanted & more. So why is it that none of this feels real anymore.Is this how being careless is supposed to feel..almost like you’re missing out on something....

Today was just one of those days where I just got annoyed easily and depressed more than often. I thought about how stupid I am for throwing myself at Sean and giving him a link to an entry I wrote. (which basically said all the stuff I would do to be the best girlfriend ever.) And I don't even know if he read it..and I've just been nervous about it all.And today in study hall I was beating myself...

He likes almost every skinny girls bikini photos on Facebook,and comments on all the pretty girls statuses.But behind all those comments and Likes..what is he like?Sean is the type of guy to not be in relationships..but from what he's shared with me they also weren't the best either. That's why his theory on relationships is that they make people hate each other. And all I'm saying is I will treat...

I haven't really thought about anything..just spacing. and when I space,there's nothing going on. I just turn up the music and block out the rest of the world. Light up a cigg,and relax. It's the only time I never over think shit like I do most of the time.I feel unorganized..even though everything is going according to plan. I made the volleyball team,I'm finally 16,finding a job,but there's...

So the entire east coast you all probably heard of the hurricane we're supposed to get hit with BIG TIME. Personally at first I thought we weren't gonna get shit,like maybe a chance of rain and that's it. But NO.They already found out that people have died. I found out through my tumblr. And now I'm like deathly scared. Cause I saw a post about how some 11 year old kid died in his apartment by a...

So here's another entry on a boy that I'm fucking crazy about. (that's nothing new.)Anyhow I need your guys honest opinion about what I should do,cause lately I'm just so freaking lost and I really have no one to look to for this type of stuff.Okay so his names Sean,he's a senior at my school and I'm a sophomore.We hung out twice this entire summer and we had sex once. (long story.) And ever since...

Volleyball conditioning started this Monday and I had no idea about the rude awaking I was in for.It ended up being all about my ass getting kicked by the exercises,and all that was keeping my head in the game was emotions. Why I don't know. But as of right now I am pissed & all I wanna do is fucking spike a ball in someone's face,or violently serve the ball. I'm ready for fucking war,and I...

I am the typical teenage girl. My rooms a mess,I have a collage on my wall of everything imaginable, etc. But what makes me different from the rest is a whole other story. So sit down grab some tea or some shit-and enjoy judging me.I’m 16 and I already have my whole entire life planned out. I’m not gonna have unprotected sex, or abuse drugs. My life has meaning to me & I rather not risk...

Have you had the feeling that if you cared,it's also a sign of attachment?Like I'm sorta into my friend Sean,and today we had intercourse.We both agreed that we'll be Friends with Benefits.So in the heat of the moment we didn't think twice about how we both felt towards the sensitive subject,we just kinda did it.And he texted me asking me what tonight meant,like did we do it as friends.I...

Back in 7th grade I barely new her. She was the new kid of the year at my school & I'm not very good with new people-very shy. We ended up having the same Social Studies class and through the very last bit of the year we became close friends.She moved away but we still kept in touch. Every once in a while we slept over each others house during vacations. We texted,Facebooked & even wrote...

If you guys haven't heard about whats happening in London,you should probably read this.On Thursday a man shot a police, the police then shot back and killed him. People then protested about the lack of information. This then turned into a riot and people started attacking the police and setting fire to houses, shops, cars. People then saw it as an opportunity to start stealing and people were...

Is it just me or is everyone else having the worst summer ever? Cause lately I haven't done anything fun. I've been home on my ass being on my laptop.Like my sister hasn't been home at all. All my friends are either busy,boring,or live far away. The only places I've been is to my gram's. That's it. Literally I'm crying over how much I don't have a life since summer started.Your probably thinking...

When I woke up,I had good intentions on starting to change my look on things. Starting with church.I was looking forward to church today seeming how my entire week was getting shit on by every little fucking thing.As a couple songs were played and we were allowed to say "Good morning" to each other, Me,Jess & Brianna sat down and talked amongst ourselves. People were making they're way towards...

So it's official. I'm OVER JASON!After he had the balls to say to my face "I still love & care for you"And after his last little stunt of going out with someone he barely fucking knows....it made me realize that if he can "Move on" I'm definitely not staying put. So I made the first move and blocked & deleted him out of my life. And so far..it's pretty great. I'm officially happy again. No...

I finally gained up the confidence..to talk to Jason. Face the beast. And it went better than I thought. I told him how tonight was gonna be my last night if this conversation ended up badly. and how I have his intails on my wrist,his response was better than I thought..."Your lucky." "Why" "Because If I still didn't love you and care for you,i'd be the most biggest asshole. lol" "Well I did wish...

Last night I spent the night over one of my friends house.We ended up drinking and I was just depressed and spacing out,and when I have time to think..I think about recent stuff,and the most recent stuff was when Jason And I got into that fight a couple days ago...So I hit the booze hardcore,but I was just buzz.it sucks.Going through this whole thing and just tearing myself apart,but I don't even...

I sat there drawing a picture in the kitchen of my friend Katelyn's house.Her mom at the time was making stuff up for kabobs."Whats wrong T.t. bumm" quietly I said "Nothing".She gave me the look I've known so well..it was a look of determination to get whatever I had on my mind,put out right there on the table.Within a couple minuets I spill my heart out."Do you love him?" "With all that I am."...

After saying it over and over what I wanted to say to Jason.And tonight I had my chance to tell him everything-and I did.And it completely back fired and blew up in my face.He constantly said how he fucked up and blah blah blah in a really rude way and then goes and logs off of Facebook with the last words "Sorry if I ever bothered you".Like really.Your gonna run away after I just told you how I...