~To my friend, Gary Fan.I miss you. a lot.And you still plague my thoughts constantly.What's it like up there?I still need your help for my oratory. I don't know what to do with it.And Oryza told me what you had said bout me. Thank you. :)I always wondered why you bothered to keep me 'roud. I was kind of the 'runt' of the litter, but I have to thank you for believing in me I'm going to make you...

Well, there goes 8th grade year, fun but pointless. i guess thats how a teens life is supposed to be? idk. all i know is i wish i had me two more years to spend with my buds who were born a bit late.so i guess i didn't really accomplish much this year. kinda feel like a failure.. hehe. god, apparently the spanish exams is killer, and quite like impending dooom. and then of course geometrty and...

it usually doesnt bother me. my complaisance, negligence and arrogance. not to mention violence. cause you know, its never really been a problem. of course, when you put that in perspective of a normal person's adult life, those are exactly the qualties you don't want t o have...mmhh. seems as though im always on here to complain, if for no reason other than because i have no life and need...

"She scream so much, its like she does even know how to talk striaght!""Yeah, wel.... its not entirely her own faulty.""Can you help me?"no response. id much rather watch tv."I can stand him. i hate him so much sometimes. he does absolutely nothing and is no help whatsoever. "(thinking: well then whyd ya marry him?)"why do you have to do that?! that is so obscene and revolting!"*ignoresehhhh......

I feel like im a jumbled mess of excess crap other people didn't want. all the deficienies been handed to me, to my poor consequence. and guess what? i recogonize them, but my fatal flaws get in the way. i have a big proud ego, and have no determinatio, or the want to even try. im wounded easily, and have a sharp temper, cant speak for myself, and cant do much of anything right or completely. im...

does that thing where you get really apprhenisve and nervous at very random and weird time ever happen to you? it happens a lot to me, and im starting to get kinda scared, cause its like where i can't breathe and i really freak out, but i just rationally calm myself down. but i keep shaking... it just happened and now im confused, and dont know why it happenes. i dont feel all that well either,...

is it so weird to cry when you listen to music? or read a book, watch a movie or anything? i always do, but it appears nobody else does.... but i mean, its so sad... you feel thier pain and all thier hopelessness and the final sad relieveing sensation of the evil descision.and uhghghg i have to build afreaking altar for mrs cassetta, and i have three days, and two of those were already booked for...

you know what i realized?once someone is dead, or has taken the poison, there is no reversing it. im glad i din't when i thought about it a few years ago, because, once you take the poison, you spend those next few minutes either smiling and laying down, or frantic and terrified, wanting to erase an unfixable mistake. this was something i guess was hard to see through evil thoughts, but its...

he's so perfect, so all around good.so cute, a natural sweetheart.and i hate him.grumph. bad mood. math homework to be done. ten thirty. great, here goes another hour of time, blogging away at useless points that no one even cares about or reads. ah, well, cant stop it so might as well go with it. was to day really wednesday? i cant believe it. so much has happened yet it feels like so little and...

after a while of pondering about love, i began to question its entirity.i mean, what is love anyways? how do you just fall in love? i dont think its possible, at least not for me.for all the couples in the world, there are two people who go together nearly perfectly.well, for what i feel, i am an odd one, and i have no soulmate, which suits me just fine actually. i was just think about how it all...

ugh. so tied up. want some me time. not happening.my saturday competitions and tae know do collide!!! and now i've got to teach classes. dude. i took on a hell of a lot. and i have to pass with a 97 in geometry other wise im going down.what im cureently up to...marchingwind ensemblekumontae kwon dogcyo, phil, msof, yaogeometry!!!and hoemwork.whyt he hell did i take spanish one? (die cassetta...

i had a bad dream.my daddy had died, and we had moved to india and i had to get married, and it was just awful i was crying and moping all over the place, and i didnt even know the guy i was getting married to i didnt even see him i nt he dream, and i woke up and felt awful, only feeling better that night after seeing and hugging my dad. sniffand then. the night after that i had this amazing...

i've always been the type of person to hide what i felt and just cover it up with something else, and i guess, it was just because i never wanted anyone to see that sad or pained side of me, or the way i really am. no one knows how and no one really knows, but i cant say i can blame them. im always so happy and excited on the out, that it wouldnt ever come across anyone how much im troubled at...

wow. tonight, i was watching the lion king, and started to feel quite nostalgic, seeing as it was the movie that i grew up with in my younger years.and started wishing my life had chosen a different path.i still have nightmares about my best friends from huntsville and i always waking up half-crying. and i miss them more than words can say. i wish i was still there.because in life, there are those...

i got to test for my belt but i dont know my form and then ihave to pack everything and finish all my kumon and at this point youve got to be like screw evething and everyone els e and just get eveything done.... then why am i on here?! ahhhhhhhhh...

just to let you know, im usually not as harsh and as flat out as i am on here (i actually have a problem with assertiveness) and awww my little brothers asleep!!! he looks so cute and innocent! - sorry, outburst there. somethings you should know.- i love cows to death.- im indian (yeeaaah baby!)- percussion is my life, and i may suck like crap but i love it wholeheartedly- i am a freak and sort of...

Please realize, this blog doesn't apply to all, and im just talking about the many stupidities of the human race, who claim to be oh-so-bright and allmighty. i apologize to the offended, but dude, this is fuckin truth.I honestly cannot understand the avaerage human mind. We watch other children starve in other countries, not by choice, but they have nothing. Then we look at the lucky children in...