Now that I've finally decided what I am going to do it's only a matter of waiting I suppose.I can't stay here anymore. I am able to move away in September of next year, and I have already started looking at accomodation. I am going to do this properly, and I am leaving. As much as I miss him, as much of a cunt he is I miss my ex boyfriend. How melodramatic? He wants to kill me, I now have a...

- I want my boyfriend back.- I want Suzi back.- I want Amber back.- I want Liam back.- I want him back.- I want yesterday back.I've fucked up. I don't know where to begin.Remember my boyfriend that I was with for over 2 years? He has someone else. He may have treated me like shit but I'm crushed.I was feeling self destructive. I went and slept with one of my friends. However by doing this I think...

I feel that I have so much to say but at 1 o'clock in the morning I'm pretty lonely. I've been crying, I miss my Suzie.I don't know what's wrong with me. Well I do. I'm so confused, and everytime I think about it I feel quite sick. I keep getting hurt by people I like, yet I don't think I do like them. It's like an equasion really;Kimberly + Lonliness - that one she loves so much that has been...

I havn't made an entry in what feels like years. I only tend to write in when I'm unhappy.After all this time, I'm still in love with him. I don't know what else to say. I'm so angry at myself for still feeling like this but I can't help it. I've tried everything to get my mind off him and not love him anymore; drugs, sex with strangers, sex with friends, going out every single night, hating him,...

Well I havn't made an entry into here for so long. It's the 1st day of the new year today and I'm vowing to make the effort to be a person I actually like.I've come to realise that I'll never properly know what I want. I'm too much of a fickle person. I don't know how I feel about the one I love anymore. He is with someone and I don't feel anything, he tells me he loves me and I don't feel...

I must come across as a really depressed character mustn't I? I tend to only come on here when I'm feeling down.I'm feeling down but I'm the lonliest I've ever felt. Ever. I know that I have some amazing friends who all care about me so much but I feel so so trapped and I don't know how to speak to them...or anyone else for that matter so everything stays inside me.I'm tired.I want to...

Again I am lost and I don't know where to begin or what to say.I want him so much.I want him to leave me alone soooo much.I had the best dream about him last night.And then fell for someone I used to like later today.I've had so many heart to hearts today.On the bus home I sat and cried and just wanted to start EVERYTHING again. Too many drugs...too many men...everything is too fucked up and I now...

Well I think the title of this journal entry says it all really. I'm totally confused.On Monday night I saw the one I love :) and I was so so so happy. I really really was. I was just watching him and nothing else around me mattered at all. All my attention was on him, my eyes didn't leave him for a moment. I had been so longing to see him that my eyes ate up very inch of him and took everything...

Well I don't know what to think. I'm feeling really odd at the moment and I should be doing film studies homework...well coursework.I'm really not sure how I'm feeling. I swore to someone the other night that I didn't even fancy the person I was in love with. And I don't know...I just don't know what to think. I know that they REALLY like someone else. Meh, I can't have good luck all the time can...

I havn't done my english homework and I'm here writing this because I feel like pure shit. I've realised that suddenly the regular depression of being absolutely hopeless every single night has come back full force.I sat there tonight muttering under my breath "let me go". I don't really no what I meant but it seems appropriate for me considering it's what I always tend to think when I feel like...

I've been depressed for a while now. And before any of you reading this, it's not just this teenage shit that you all go on about.I wonder every single day how I'm going to go on and I wonder when it's all going to stop. I'm so so frustrated and angry with everything, I'm frustrated with feeling like this because I never imagined it could go on for so so long. Every single day I feel like I'm...

I decided today that I needed something else to write whats going on in my life other then my notebook. For some reason, I thought things would perhaps feel more real to me if people read what was going on.So perhaps I'll give you an account of last nights antics...the time is 3:15 on a Friday night, I can't imagine what I was doing this time last night.So I have this friend. We have been going...