... but I do. I know I'm not the only one that watch the numbers. You know what I mean. I keep track of them, watching the patterns of hits and readers. I make notes of increased traffic to this story or that. I try to keep up with which readers on which websites are regulars, regardless of whether they comment on or simply recommend my stories.I'm a math person. Numbers are my second language. So...

I know it seems like I've been away for a long time. To be honest, I've been lurking for a while. I was deceived, and I needed to step back for my own self. So what's up with me lately?Well, I'm working on getting representation by a literary agent to have "Sing for Me, Pretty." published. I've spent a good deal of time this past month rewriting a lot of it. I've added a few new parts, and I've...

I've seen a lot of blogs recently with people talking about readers. People are complaining about fanfiction getting more attention or about the latest trend in fanfiction or how certain things get all the attention. And somewhere in the post, a lot of them (not all, mind you) say something to the effect of how they write just for themselves, yet the point of the blog post is to complain about how...

So Christmas is two days away. I'm pretty certain I am more excited than my kids this year! But I also know what my kids are getting from Santa, and I know they are getting a couple of things they've been asking for for a while. I already got my big gift this year; my husband made me open it early because I would need it come Christmas morning (and need a couple of days to figure it out) he said....

Seriously. How mechanically DEclined can the people working at Home Depot be?! I thought that was like part of their thing, employing people who are "experts" at home improvement.-=-=-=-So here's the deal... I go to Home Depot for longer eye bolts. We use live Christmas trees every year. This year we don't have our huge corner to put a huge tree in, so we got a smaller one. Our tree stand was too...

First, though, I changed my layout for Chirstmas! Do you love it? I do! I've had this layout made for a while, and I've been waiting for Christmas to use it! I just love that picture of the guys (although I added the words)!!Anywho... let's get back to what I'm posting for.It's been about two years ago since my friend inked "ILEM" on my wedding ring finger, but ever since, I've wanted to add more...

I am back to having internet! I'm so happy! I thougt I'd update everyone on what's going on.As of now, I have posted all I have written for both of my stories. I usually keep several chapters ahead on Frank's journal, but I have been using those chapters to post as I've been working on Sing, Pretty; now I'm out of chapters to post.I know I said I was going to keep writing while I had no internet,...

My family and I went shoe shopping today. Since I only wear Converse, I went straight to the Converse aisle. I was looking for something black and red. But I found these...I instantly fell in love and HAD to have them! I picked out my teeny-tiny size (I wear a size three; my eleven year old daughter and I wear the exact same size.) and went about helping my son find him some shoes. While shopping...

I have never been one to have many friends; I have always been a loner, an outcast. Even amongst the society of outcasts, I have felt isolated. It has only been since I have begun writing fanfictions in the My Chemical Romance community that I have found what some would call popularity. But I still feel held at arm's length sometimes.Within this... whatever social status I have achieved, my...

I cried tonight. I cried over a fanfic. She's killing Gerard slowly. But not physically; no, she's killing who he is, slowly losing himself one memory at a time. If one could ever be in love with a fictional character, I am hopelessly in love with this Gerard! So I cried and begun mourning the loss. My husband found me laying in bed, reading on my phone, and completely bawling my eyes out as if my...

So if you're familiar with my stories, you know I have a bit of a sadistic streak. I do like to have pain inflicted on me, but I much, much prefer being the one inflicting pain. And not just physical pain.And it's no secret that I am obsessed with My Chemical Romance... Gerard and Frank in particular. I have played out a few of my fantasies in my stories, making Gerard hurt Frank and, more...

I wrote this new oneshot. It's a kinky Frerard smut, "Fill Me Up, Make Me Hurt." But it's not just mild kinky; no, it's got some more "alternative" kinks in it, kinks that make most people gasp and curl their toes.I wasn't expecting much response to it. And in all but one way, I have been pretty much dead on with how it was going to be received. Between two sites, I received two comments, and one...

I want to rant about something. I'm really hoping to not get myself into trouble, but it's driving me (more) insane (than normal)!!I'm sure by now we have all heard the rumors that My Chem is breaking up. *eyeroll* Okay, I get their reasons. Gerard said onstage once that "The World Is Ugly" would be released when the band was over. And Frank has said that the "scrapped" album might be released...

Oh for the fucking love of Gerard, slow the fuck down, Internal Frankie! I can't type this fucking fast! And quit giving me parts from the next two damn chapters!! One at a time, okay?!But we haven't written in so long, and yesterday you were begging me to tell you what to write. Aren't you glad I thought of something?Yes, but FUCK! You could slow it down some! If you want to get three chapters...

The title of this blog is fairly self explanitory. I am looking for fanfics of a particular variety.For those who read my stories (my oneshots in particular), you know I have a thing for darker stories. And by darker, I mean sadomasochistic, abusive, torturous, violent, gruesome, bloody, deadly, and other such adjectives. I don't just write such stories, I also prefer to read those types of...

I keep staring at the blinking cursor on a blank Word page, knowing I need to get another chapter of Frank's journal completed. But my mind keeps swirling back to my new oneshot. But I shouldn't do that. Gerard and Frank are dead now; I killed them. I shouldn't torture them anymore. But I must! I have to complete their story. I have to do them justice.But this isn't about a fanfic. No, this is...

It's no secret I love everything about My Chemical Romance (and the guys that make up the band). I have spent more than enough of my time and energy on all of my forums over the many years letting everyone know how I feel in explicit detail. In short...The band as a whole has taught me to be myself, accepting of who I am even if I am a little different. (Okay, I'm a lot different!) I have learned...

It all started with a oneshot I wrote one day. I wanted one thing, but I ended up writing something else, something I feel like I have yet to top. But I only feel like that because I now have SO MUCH more for the story now. I have built a whole storyline, a whole novel, a whole world for this initial oneshot. And yes, the oneshot is posted here on Mibba. It's The Two Sides of Black Blood in the...

Some of you who read this will know exactly what I'm talking about, considering you are probably reading it. I started a new fic. It's not the one I talked about in a previous blog post, though.This is a Frerard set in a journal entry style format. It's titled, "Hello? Journal? It's me, Frank." The title is a play on the 1970's book by Judy Bloom titled Are You There, God? It's Me, Margaret. I...

My husband is a gamer. He could literally spend all day playing XBox online with his friends. He plays mostly first and third person shooters, like Halo, Gears, Dead Island, etc. He has gotten our kids playing with him as "quality time," which the kids love; they beg to play XBox with Daddy.My daughter likes to play a little on her own, but only because she is completely obsessed with James...