I think I'm in a hopeless mood again.The one where my head is just ranting "What the hell are you doing? It's not worth it! It's not worth it! ITS NOT WORTH IT!"But you know, just came home from the last day of camp, surprisingly not hungry, listening to some Fall Out Boy, letting the early spring sun beam down on me, and I'm not really sad.I think I've just kind of given up in a way.I can't sing....

Well, it's been quite a long time since Ive posted anything on Mibba. I kind of lost faith in this place after the time of chaos. But I believe it's time to come out and grett my fellow friends again.Anyways, how are you all doing? I hope they you all are well and happy :)So. My life's been fine. But I little bit dramatic.Wellm I kind of dated this guy for about a month. [A month and a week...

There's this girl in my school I absolutely despise. Her thin black hair messily pulled up into a shaggy ponytail. Her purple glasses placed in front of her pure brown eyes. Oh how so childish this girl is. Everyday, her mother comes and brings her to school. Her mother is a tall lady with loving eyes. She plants a kiss her on her daughter's cheek and leaves for school. This girl wears the...

I knew too well to expect it to last. Im am such a fucking hyprocrite. If you read my last journal, you can see I was extremely angry at him. But exactly on that day he goes and asks me out to a movie. And I have fallen back into the hole I so much wanted to climb out of. I know I am a ridiculous fool to be so obcessed about some guy, but he just has something that fills this unknown void. It's...

I sit here waiting for life just to poke out and say "Ha-ha. I was just fucking with you. You're days are going to be happy again." I always like to think that if something bad happens, something good is right around the corner. This time. Life has given up. It no longer pokes its head out and gives me a mischievous smile. It walks out. Shoves the finger right in my face and walks away. It doesn't...

He's turned into my obcession. And its weird. I like him. A lot. His thin hair that waves over his forehead. His smal eyes hidden behind his glasses. His taunting smile. Its so. Controlling. His every word. His every action. It makes. Happy. Paranoid. Angry. Jealous.He's not even much of a looker. But. I am just so. Obcessed. Maybe Im inlove. But I've only known him for about 4-5 months. And Im...

Isnt it amazing how he can just grab your heart and squeeze it until it breaks?Isnt it amazing how he can just glance at you and make you weak to your knees?Isnt it amazing how little old me can fall so deeply and can't get out?His glances are making my days. His smiles are making me weak. His words make me dream. He controls me. His actions. His words. They spill over me. And take me out. I dont...

Its been 2 months. My ban from journals has ended and now Im back. Its good to be able to lean back and type these words into Mibba. To let all of you listen.2 months is a long time. I was banned at the beginning of October. And its incredible how many things I felt between that time.SADNESS. HAPPINESS. ANGER. JEALOUSY.REGRETFULNESS. FRUSTRATION. HOPELESSNESS.Ive lost friends. Ive gained friends....

XDNo, its not boy trouble.The school Im at is bottling up my estrogen, but whatever.Can someone help give me the main idea on how a dude thinks?Im writing a story called Jesus Of Suburbia and the protagonist is a guy.(Tell my if you want to read and I'll pm you when its started.)What do they care about?Whats their tone?Their usual view on things?Itd be great if an ACTUAL dude could tell me but...

Im thinking about this new story.Called 'Jesus Of Suburbia'.Its pretty much a songfic but with a little bit of my own touches.So here is how it goes;;A boy (not sure for the name yet) lives in a broken home.His mom's an alcolholic and a whore.His dad left when he was 12.And he doesnt know much about him.The boy lives through the confusing dilemma of where you belong.He meets other obstacles on the...

Im thinking about this new story.Called 'Jesus Of Suburbia'.Its pretty much a songfic but with a little bit of my own touches.So here is how it goes;;A boy (not sure for the name yet) lives in a broken home.His mom's an alcolholic and a whore.His dad left when he was 12.And he doesnt know much about him.The boy lives through the confusing dilemma of where you belong.He meets other obstacles on the...

Lately, Ive been out of ideas for stories. And it sucks. Its so hard to just think of an original plot. No fanfics. No cliches. And all that stuff.My mind seems blocked. No ideas can pass through. Probably why its called writer's block.-sigh- Well, I dont know what can inspire me. Im bored. Im scared. Im tired and lazy.What can push me to right? This is depressing, but whatever. I never expected...

-sigh-Why cant you women take these things maturely?This past week arguements have been starting out again. Why?Supposedly, the new journal rule was suppose to stop it but it hasnt.Cant we deal with these things with maturity and realisticly?Heres what I have written before and I want all of you to read it.No matter where you go, you'll always have arguements and usually sometimes people get...

I hate myself. The truth. I messed up my dream. We had auditions today for my school musical and I messed it up. I changed my song on the last minute and I fucked it. I did. I couldnt believe I could do something so stupid and crazy. God... How did I turn out so wrong? I messed up and I paid for it... Now Im stuffing my face. I just took in about 30 grams of fat in one hour. I can feel my stomach...

No matter where you go, you'll always have arguements and usually sometimes people get hurt.But it's life isnt it? We cant avoid things that doesnt really appeal to us and we cant always have peachy happy things even in a place made for freedom. There will always be something that can set off a person. We are all walking timebombs. And you know it. We start arguements. Wars. Anything that can...

I don't know what to name my characters.I need a nice name for my lead lady and my main man.Any ideas?I would like a nice, myserious name for the dudeand an elegant, sweet, dark name for the girl.So have any suggestions?Please?I really need help on this stuff.Its hard to think now a days since school started. It is a major drag. I wish I could go back to my old school, but what can I do?Anyways,...

Now that I have your attention, please listen to my little rant about cutting.(No, I am not cutting. I have never cut...In a way...)My cousin goes to a Catholic school.(My cousin is a really cool dude, but sadly has some anger management issues.)And those people there are so damn confused.The "gangsters".They beat up someone and they think they are gangster.-rolls eyes-No, that does not mean your...

What the hell happened to those cute little kids, huh? The ones that would just hug your leg or just love to play house. Instead of the ones that kick you in the shin and give you the finger. Where are the kids that want to grow up and be a veternarian or some super hero instead of a pimp.Where have the kids gone today? Im only in grade 7, still young I know, but this grade 6 kid was already...

I should be doing my homework now, but BLAH.I'll just hold it off for a while until I have to stay up to 3am in the morning when its due.Because thats how I roll.So yeah, Im in love with my best friend...again.I suck.A lot.XDWhy must the dudes I love so very much not be single?And why when they are single I dont like them anymore.Im one confusing bitch.Ha.But anyways school's a drag.The same ol'...

This is indeed not a suicidal rant where Im going to kill myself right after Im done this so no need to give me those 'Dont kill yourself speeches.'So yeah, I hate myself.I find no point in my life really.What keeping me alive lately is the effect on some people if I actually died.My best friends; Mahil,Lucy,Henna,Phi Au, and Tyler.Whom I miss so very much...But really would it be much of a...