Hey everyone!I'm an oldie on here, been registered for maybe three years? If not more. I just drop of the radar sometimes and as usual there are lots of new faces! SO... hello everyone, my name is Belle and it's a pleasure to meet you!If there is anyone on here still that used to read my blogs then I'll give you a quick update and an apology for leaving so abruptly (again) without saying anything...

I had a really bad day yesterday. I self harmed and I cried my heart out to my grandma over the phone. Unfortunately my boyfriend arrived at mine while I was on the phone and heard me talking and saw me crying. Now I feel like a pleb. I want him to think I'm a strong person not somebody who cuts themselves and cries and gets all worked up because he can't control her imaginary fucking friend.God...

It's strange how messed up feelings can be. One minute I'm happy and I'm enjoying life the next I feel like I'm crashing and everything around me is becoming dark and scary. I look at people and I can say honestly that no one is truly happy. No one even knows what complete happiness is.Everything in my life says I should be happy. I'm in a good yet slightly confusing relationship. My bond with my...

Bugger.I have just spent ages working on a new layout for my blogs and I finally get it how I want it then my net freezes and Chrome pops up with this cute little robot thing asking me I want to kill the page or wait. I press wait hoping to god that it will work and I wont have to do it all over again which of course is not what happened. Oh noooo, Belle doesn't have that kind of luck. So I do it...

It is dark and the full moon shines from very high up. It all looks so peaceful and calm on the ground where I stand, the shadows creep the wind sings my hair blows. I am just walking, through the city where everyone sleeps, walking in the direction of the moon. I don't know where I am going, I don't know what city I am in, I don't even know how I got here.I walk all the way down the road, at the...

They tell me that God isn't created, that God is all-powerful, he's infinite and eternal.Here is the evidence from the Bible :"God is eternal.(Deuteronomy 33:27; Jeremiah 10:10; Psalm 90:2)""God is infinite.(1 Kings 8:22-27; Jeremiah 23:24; Psalm 102:25-27; Revelation 22:13)"As we can see those two quotes cover both the Old Testament and the New Testament. The Qu'ran too also claims these very...

Has Mibba undergone a new update? I'm not sure if it is Mibba or just my internet playing up and not loading the full page properly?Just hoping someone could clear this up for me :)If it is a new update I am not sure if I like it lmao.Oh, Mibbians, I am so confused. I can't even talk on here about it though because there are 'spies' lol I just don't know what to do :'(You know when everything just...

Hello guys and gals.I was having a flick through the magazine, I hadn't realized there was one to be honest, my time spent on here is usually so fleeting that I haven't checked out much of the updated site yet. Anyway, I saw that Mibba is doing a mibbian of the week. I was wondering if anyone knew anything about this? Like how they decide and what they do and if you can say nominate someone or...

Okay, I have absolutely no idea where it came from. I said to myself, I am going on the laptop and I am going to write. I pulled up word and as usual, my mind went blank. I typed a few sentences, then erased, I typed a word, then erased, I typed a paragraph, felt pleased with myself, then erased because I realized I had jumped through ever tense at least four times, in ONE paragraph, so I erased...

Well, where do I start.The doctors at EIS have finally filled my report to court meaning that Graham can send in his statement which I then have to respond to with the help of my solicitor. This battle for custody is taking so long, we haven't really started yet. Next hearing is in August.I got a letter from the hospital, they have finally managed to book me in with a specialist. Again this is in...

Still haven't heard anything from the cancer front. They told me I was all clear and then the doctor tapped about on his computer some and said "Wait, there might have been a mix up" naturally I asked what he means and basically he thinks he has the wrong resaults >.<The financial front has just gone from bad to worse. E-on are charging me about £60 extra at the exact same time that...

So, hello guys.I haven't been on for a while but I know where I need to come when I wanna rant or in this case when I need some advice.There is a 75% chance I have cancer... I'm currently having tests and stuff.It is not fun.My life is just one thing after another.I'm going through a massive court case with my baby's son over who should have custody and then I go to the doctors because I have been...

Why wont my inbox load? xxSincere message to all who have inboxed me I am not ignoring you!!xxxI I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I...

Right this is a rant/advice journal. I really need some help.I knew this guy about 4 years ago really really liked me and I liked him back but he was very heavy on the booze and he when he was drunk he was a twat. I told him back then many times if he stopped the boozing and asked me out we would get together. Then a lot of shit happened with me (like going into hospital) and we didn't talk for...

I recently discovered this band and OMG I am in love!!Like seriously!Some of their songs are complete ****Some are f*****g amazing!!Like Schizophrenia and Dead before I died.Wow....Okay so basically I want more bands.Just give me bands bands bands!!Or links lol links would be so much easier.But not like well known ones ya know.Everyone knows slipknot and black veil brides and linkin park etcIn...

I am online!Two months and a bit I have been being messed around for now.They say it's sorted then it's not.I have switched suppliers.I am now online with a fully working internet connection.HURAAY!So...Quick update I suppose?Nathan is now 19months old with a very big appetite.I am single and deffo ready to mingle.I have internet finally.My health... well that is....AMAZINGI am so much better....

Okay last night I stayed at my boyfriends house then this morning I came home for therapy at about half eleven and left at about half one to pick my baby up for the weekend at mummy's. I arrived back home with Nathan at about four. Meaning that I was away from home for approximately two and a half hours.When I am inside my flat I keep the door locked, naturally I locked it when my therapist was...

I have completed my masterpiece!!My Websitevisit me, make an account or sign the guest book!Okay so I'll let you know what it's all about.Sometimes I spend hours upon hours searching the internet for a poem or a song that fits my mood at that moment in time, sometimes by the time I've found it my mood has changed an I've gotta start all over again!Basically I have created it so that I can upload...

Check it out!!www.painfullysadistic.webs.comI created a website!!It's not finished yet, no where near, but I am going offline now, gonna spend some time with my hubby.Please check out its progress so far and let me know what you think XDI would really really really really love it if you did!!I don't know what to write now and this is no where near one hundred words...I have had a good day...

Okay, I have tried to post this journal so it's private to only me, but for some reason whenever I click on the 'Private-visible only to you' button thingy it re-directs me to the homepage.... Odd.This jourmal was only supposed to be somewhere I can post the staff list so that I can find it quickly and easily if I ever need it in future.I would save it as a bookmark, but that's not working...