I've been on two dates in two weeks (with the same person!). This is a huge deal for me because, as mentioned in my last post, people don't ask me out. So the fact that someone I know in real life (as in... I met him in person before he asked me out, also a new thing) likes me enough to ask me out not once but TWICE, despite knowing to some extent how strange I am, is a really exciting...

People don't ask me out. I've had 2 boyfriends in my life, only one of which was serious (the first literally lasted a week and it was over Thanksgiving break so we didn't even see each other for that week). There have been a couple guys who were interested but never made it official. The theme though is that none of these guys asked me out on dates. My ex and I went on dates when I visited him,...

Oooooh my goodness. The past few weeks have been full of happy squee moments regarding le boy.So first. This was probably a month ago now, but he was on worship team for the first time since maybe June. I wasn't expecting anything since he hadn't come off stage to talk to me in months. But I sat in my usual spot in front anyway, and of course despite the lack of expectation I was still hoping he'd...

Um.Ok.So... Sunday was my birthday. I had a bunch of friends from church over for dinner and games, and it was SO much fun. It was so nice to just hang out with everyone and talk and have fun.I was a little nervous about whether or not my crush (the guy I've liked for the past year, whose name will not be disclosed. Just in case.) would show up, since he never RSVP'd on Facebook, and he hadn't...

So... there was this kid in my math class this past fall that I got to know a little bit. Besides the fact that he's super nice and a Christian (yay), he also happens to be really cute and I may have developed a little bitty crush on him. I'm more interested in someone else though, so it never went anywhere and it didn't bother me that it didn't.But then the semester ended and I didn't see him at...

Ugh. I'm so mad at myself right now.Last night there was a worship team dinner. My family left a dish at the house where they had the dinner, so my mommy got a hold of the host to ask my crush to take it with him so he could give it to me tonight at book club. Before she called their home phone though, I'd called his cell phone. He didn't answer, so I just let my mommy handle it.He called me back...

Well... I can't post this on Tumblr because there's a slight chance he checks my blog occasionally. And I'm trying to figure out exactly what one of my friends is ok with hearing and what's not ok, since she's been feeling lonely lately when I talk about him and I don't want to make that worse. So. I'm back to Mibba.I think... he's starting to figure it out. I saw him on Friday night at this...

I'm so confused.I really REALLY like this guy at my church. However... I can't tell if he likes me or not. I don't think he even recognized me on Sunday (my once shoulder-length hair is now pixied), because he looked straight at me several times and didn't look like he even knew who he was looking at. I'm frustrated because I do like him a lot, but I don't know if it's going anywhere.And I kinda...

I give up. I don't care, I quit.I have no freaking clue at this point if he likes me or not, and thinking about it just pisses me off. So I quit. I'm done caring because I'm sick of going up and down every week. One week he'll go out of his way to talk to me and the next he all but ignores me completely. I'm so freaking sick of this crap.I really really like him. I don't even remember the last...

I'm so. freaking. omg.Ok. So I'm working on this drawing of Patrick Stewart/Captian Picard. I posted a WIP picture on FB a few weeks ago, and Wes saw it and asked me about it. At the time, all I had done was one eye and most of the other, and then the outline of his head. So at small group, he asked if it was Captain Picard and I said yes. He got SUPER excited, whether because it was Picard or...

It's been a few weeks so I figured I could give you all an update.So... basically things have been progressing slowly, but it's looking good. He's started coming up and talking to me every time he sees me at church, which makes me happy. I kinda tested that a little bit last Thursday.My brother and I went to church last Thursday night -- my brother went for geek game night and I went for...

Well... Not only was Irish Fest a complete blast, I got to learn a bit more about him. I also met his mom, which was awesome. She's just adorable, and I absolutely love her. But even better than that, I got to see how he acts around her and how he treats her.My parents told me forever ago that if you want to know how a guy will treat his future wife, watch how he treats his mom.And oh. My. Word. I...

I know I shouldn't focus on the what ifs. I know that they only distract me from what's actually going on. I know I know I know I need to keep giving this to God and trust that whatever happens will happen in His timing.But I can't help but think what if...What if this becomes something serious? What if this attraction has serious potential? What if it really goes somewhere? What if he's the one?...

Well, apparently I'm going to Irish Fest this weekend. Which I'm only ok with because he'll be there.I don't like concerts. I don't like a lot of loud noise. I don't like crowds. I don't like being around tons of strangers. I don't even know if I like Irish music or not. But that's what I'm doing on Sunday.Sunday night is the night the college small group meets. However, this weekend is Labor Day...

Ok so... I really like this guy at my church. I don't want to pursue him or ask him out, but I want him to know I'm interested (without being creepily obvious about it). And I'm kinda stuck on where the line is in terms of "Am I pursuing him or am I just being friendly, approachable, and available?"So I need help. I want to talk to him, but I feel like so far I've just been waiting for him to talk...

Ok so basically the only reason I'm putting this here instead of on my Tumblr is because I know this person won't see it here.ANYWHO. Quick update on me and my ex (see my last few journals if you care haha): We started flirting again and whatnot very shortly after he broke up with me. And it got uncomfortable for me, not because I wasn't interested, but because I knew it was too much when we...

Ok so.He and I broke up about a month ago after dating long distance for 9 months. He broke up with me via email out of the blue after beginning his move to KC from Mexico. He's currently still in SC with his mom. The breakup was completely random and not entirely thought through on his end. I know this because we started talking again -- a lot -- a week later.So here's the thing.I still like him....

[Italics will be Westboro, bold will be my response]Leviticus 20:23 - "And ye shall not walk in the manners of the nation, which I cast out before you: for they committed all these things, and therefore I abhorred them."Ok. So I can't debate the fact that God clearly states his opposition to the people mentioned in this verse (as far as I can tell, it is referring to the Hivites, Canaanites, and...

Two years ago, my best friend left. I had liked him for a while, and I told him everything. He came to visit just after Christmas, and after he left he never talked to me again. He broke my heart. I trusted him with everything, and he crushed it. I was a wreck for months, and I still get upset thinking about it.Now I'm faced with the same problem again, only I'm on the opposite side of the...

I don't know. My boyfriend's in love with me and I'm not in love with him. I really really like him, and I don't want to do anything to hurt him but at the same time I can't see us being together forever or whatever. He's convinced we're gonna get married and it's all gonna be fine and dandy, and he's just oblivious to the fact that I don't feel the same way.I want him to be here. I really do....