While I was in the shower today, my dad came in my room and obviously realized I was in the shower so he left. I stood under the steaming water and I felt sad. What if I had decided to kill myself right then and there. My dad wouldn't have known. He would have come back maybe an hour or so later waiting to use the restroom and had to come in to see what was taking me so long.I felt sad not because...

I am petrified.I feel like a deer in the headlights.College has me so super stressed. I’ve tried finding a job this summer but it’s like the universe is inclined on making this extra hard for me. Instead of being out and making money to help my dad, I’ve been in my room for a month now with nothing to do so all I do is think and all this thinking just makes me worry more.I’m afraid I...

"You're killing a person."Well, how can I kill something that hasn't been born yet?Think about it, your "birth-day" isn't the date of your conception. It's not the date your mother hit first, second or third trimester. It is literally the very second your whole body has exited the womb."A baby wants the chance to live."It's not a baby, it's a fetus. Our brains aren't even properly developed by the...

I had been hoping to come to Mibba and yap and rant and cry but it's completely changed. It's been like 3 years since I've really used the website. I'm sure there's already been "blogs" about it. People hating it and running their mouths and spitting their opinions. I've got nothing to say, I'm just so excited I have to write about it!So no, I'm not gonna yap and rant and cry. Lately I remembered...

Never would I have thought me, or anyone close to me would have to deal with such thing, until it happened to my best friend.We're still not a 100% sure that she is pregnant but there's a 50/50 chance that she is.I'm praying she isn't...There would be so many problems starting with her mother. She said that if Ely (My best friend) ever got pregnant, she would kick her out. And as my best friend...

I hate not having a Valentine...Just kidding.Don't leave.Please.I don't really care if I have a Valentine or not , at least not anymore.I feel very perky for some reason and since last year my Valentine wasn't exactly the bestest ('cause I didn't have a Valentine) but it was still good and I felt happy so this year I'm doing the same (sorta) as last year!I went out and bought candy hearts and...

Okay!I haven't posted any Journal Entries in a really long time so out of all the things that have happened I don't know with which one to start off with.Hmmm....how about...I am finally 15 !(Happy Dance)Turned 15 on January 29 and I'm happy because now I'm not just plain 14...I am 15. Ha-ha.Anyways, it was pretty cool. I had taken my Quinceañera pictures the week before (Quinceañera is when a...

I feel bummed, nostalgic, disappointed, annoyed, exasperated, distressed, weary, worried, inexperienced, ignorant, bizarre, offbeat, abnormal, unusual, dark, mystifying, perplexed, unnatural, childish, immature, bamboozled, menacing, petrified, intense, and just plain sad.In 6 long years I have not seen my mom's side of the family. I miss them so much. They live in Cuba and it makes me extremely...

AP World History is taking up so much of my time.Maybe I should have gone easy on my first year of high school, but oh well, too late now.I hope this class is worth all my hard work.Or as hard of a work as I can do.For Tuesday I have about 3 chapters due and an essay but I've been doing so much it just makes me lazy to even think about doing more work.The last book I read was Blood Promise and I...

News runs fast, specially with texting which I do not have!I was told in person by a friend that use to go to that school.When I hear anything about violence I get a pang in my heart. I don't know why.When I was little I once saw two of my uncles fighting. It was a horrific fist fight, and I still remember clearly when I saw it. I think I was about 5-6 years old. I ran to my room as soon as...

I don't know if it's heartbreak or jealousy, but I can't stand the way he makes me feel anymore. I see them together all the time and it kills me to know that he never treated me like that and that he is way happier with her. I can't even stand being friends with him because when he is not talking to me and I know he is talking to her I go into another breakdown.Being a girl sucks! I wish I could...

My step mom is not the Wicked Witch of the West but to me she's pretty close. I understand that I cannot accept her as anything because I like it just being my dad and me. After my first step mom I really didn't like anyone else because I don't know how I am suppose to accept anyone close to me but it is more to my annoyance that my current step mom and step sister are just a bother in my life.It...

Today was one of those few days that it didn't rain. Well, it rained really early but I wasn't awake at that time so it doesn't count.The past few days I've been all bored and down with nothing to do this summer so today I decided to be all happy and go out for a walk and for a swim.Yeah, it was being a great day. Sunny, few clouds, awesome sky. I fed the hens outside and I saved a bee from the...

Like, Bless the Lord I don't like, talk like that, because then like, that would be totally, like weird but like Oh-M-G Edward Cullen is like so hawt and like I totally hate that Bella girl, I mean, I'm like so much prettier than her, like I should totally be with Edward Cullen cause like, we are soo cute together. Like, Oh-M-G!I did really wish I had a money tree right now. But don't we all?My...

I just wrote a long *ss journal that I was extremely proud of but my computer went haywire and it got deleted so I'm just going to sum it up.My dad's co-workers have been telling me that I am extremely talented and I could do something big in life.This really surprised me because I don't think I'm anything special. In my mind people are all the same. Everyone is smart and talented in their own...

This is about my day and anything else that comes to mind while I'm writingSo, the beginning of my day was pretty shitty. I woke up early for no reason. I was suppose to go to my friend's house and my dad was suppose to take me but he just left me while I was taking a shower so then I couldn't sleep until about 8 in the morning watching Sister, Sister in ABC Family. Then my cousin woke me up when...

The past years I've made picture collages, written poems, letters and made videos. Now I am finally out of ideas and I don't know what to make that's affordable and I can make myself with my heart.My dad deserves the best but sometimes I get mad at him, like this morning I woke up really early for him to take me to my friend's house and the pile of clothes on my chair I was going to pick up but...

The more I think about things, the more I realize who Chely is. So lately I've noticed that every time I'm happy all I think about is love. I'm not really sure why, but I do.Before I had the excuse that I had a crush on someone and such, but that crush is gone and then the other day I was all happy again and still all I could think about was love. How cute love is. How love makes you feel...

I'm not completely sure if that's possible, but we'll have to wait and see.I just graduated the 8th grade. (Proud Feeling)My grades aren't terrible, but they aren't as perfect as I want them to be. I am one of those people that is naturally smart so I never study for a test, never really pay attention 'cause I know everything, but without just a little effort on my part, I won't be able to get a...

I was just looking through my poems and found the most bizzare thing ever.If you knew me, you'd laugh as hard as I just did:I know nothing of the world, as for my only one concern is to know I. I the soul I’m searching for an understanding of the rest. I the picker of my own dreams and my own wishes. I the destroyer of my own inner light that where I stand I find no peace, yet only harm, harm...