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I'd Kiss You Goodbye If I Thought It Would Make You Stay

…I’m thinking things I shouldn’t be, but he’s so perfect, and I haven’t seen him in six months and I miss his voice and I miss his hair and I miss his smile and I miss his blue eyes his green eyes his blue-green eyes- I never could decide what color they are- and I even miss his tattoos, and how pathetic is that?

He finally looks up to see me standing there, and he freezes.

I feel my breathing coming quicker, and I’m starting to silently panic, and then I think I might be hallucinating, because it’s not possible that he’s here, and he can’t be here, so I’m probably crazy, but then I feel I should say something to make sure, because hallucinations don’t talk, right?

I’m not sure how many minutes or seconds have passed, but we’re still staring, and I still can’t force anything to come out of my mouth.

“Rae,” he says finally, running a hand through his hair. “How…how are you?”

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Title Credit: Frequently Baby by New Years Day

Rachel has to balance being recently signed to Fueled By Ramen and Decaydance with her band, Paint Me Perfect, releasing their second album, and co-headlining tour with The Academy Is..., not to mention getting over her ex-boyfriend at the same time.
  1. B to E
    Lately I don't get enough sleep.
  2. My Dear
    I can't get over you, I can't get over any of it.
  3. Chicago Is So Two Years Ago
    I know I should be home.
  4. LAX to O'Hare
    The life I gave for you is yours, so keep it.
  5. 20 Dollar Nosebleed
    Please take me back.
  6. Scared to Lose
    Can I say I miss you?
  7. I've Got a Feeling
    Do you still have pieces of me?
  8. I'm Like a Lawyer...
    Last year's wishes are this year's apologies.
  9. Swing Life Away
    Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse.
  10. Driving South
    Oh please, please, please, tell me...
  11. Resolution
    I'm not talking planets or galaxies, and the distance just makes it worse.
  12. Crooked Teeth
    My head is weak, my heart always speaks.
  13. Man Overboard
    Absent-minded thoughts, now you're a stranger.
  14. Say This Sooner
    All my friends think that I'm gone.
  15. Mutiny Below
    But you're here now, you're making eyes, I'm breaking.
  16. I'm Not Okay
    It's better off this way.
  17. My Heart
    Please don't fade away.
  18. That Green Gentleman(Things Have Changed)
    So it seems I'm someone I never met.
  19. Paper Chase
    We've come so far.
  20. Wonderwall (Part One)
    And all the roads we have to walk are winding.
  21. Wonderwall (Part Two)
    And all the lights that lead us there are blinding.
  22. With a Little Help From My Friends
    I need somebody to love.
  23. U and Left Turns
    I open my mouth but nothing comes out.
  24. Feeling This
    Fate fell short this time, your smile fades in the summer.
  25. You Know How I Do
    So obviously desperate, so desperately obvious.
  26. All the Small Things
    Watching, waiting, commiserating.
  27. California
    Right back where we started from.
  28. I Will Possess Your Heart
    You gotta spend some time with me.
  29. Work
    All I can say, I shouldn't say.
  30. Knights of the Island Counter
    It's a shame, when I wake I can't recall a thing.
  31. MakeDamnSure
    How close is close enough?
  32. My Own Worst Enemy
    Every now and then I kick the living shit out of me.
  33. Frequently Baby
    What a fool I'd be to pass on what you're offering to me.
  34. It Had to Be You
    All this time that everything’s changed and I still feel the same.
  35. Situations
    It's in your blood to draw attention, make the best out of situations.
  36. Obvious
    You and me, everything that could be.
  37. No Rain
    Stay with me, and I'll have it made.
  38. Stay Where I Can See You
    If it were up to me, we'd have all of the time in the world.
  39. All of This
    Take me where my heart says yes.
  40. Oh, It Is Love
    I kiss you and I know, it is love.